Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Today is the fifth anniversary of my online diary and the seventh anniversary of my first period! Happy
Anniversary! lol And my friend Ella whos in my coven turns 14 today Happy Birthday Ella! I always
write my thoughts and feelings on August 23 so I can remember how I felt each year. Ill post my
perspective about my life after I tell u about something new I started and tell u about what happened
today. Today was a special day.
Heres what I started thats new. I’m posting my diary for every day only its what happened five years
ago. So this week u can read what I did this same week five years ago, then next week read what I did
five years b4 then. It reminds me what I was doing and thinking and what my feelings were when I was
13.
Im not posting my diary every day now of course but Harmony and I r both posting our versions of my
vacation. We wanted Mindy to post hers too but shes never posted her diary online. I guess shes
chicken! lol j/k Mindy dont be mad!
Were staying at Mindys Aunt Yvettes of course and today Harmony came to see us again! We
watched a DVD about their family it was funny. Allen doesnt care if ppl see him do crazy things. We
even watched him playing air guitar in his underwear! lol We saw him and his band too I wish they
were still together. I saw them play when I was here last year and theyre really good. But I think Allen
might be starting a new band. It was cool seeing Allens family at Six Flags cuz of course I was just
there. This my third time in Texas and Mindy and I finally got to go.
Oh there was something funny with Vickie and Dolly. I couldnt believe Vickie did it cuz usually she acts
serious. But when Dolly was pregnant Vickie wore one of her maternity blouses with a pillow and acted
like she was pregnant too!
Then we talked about boyfriends and girlfriends again! Of course I talked about Fernando cuz I
straight up dont know what to do. Yvette said he sounded like a great guy which really he is. She said
maybe hes just shy about asking me to be his boyfriend but I wasnt sure cuz he doesnt act shy.
Harmony asked me what he always says. He asked what do I want? Really thats good advice. He said
if Fernando doesn’t ask me then I can ask him! But I know Fernando wouldn’t like that. But Harmony
said I have to decide and if it’s bothering me I should decide soon. I know hes right but its hard. But I
promise I will make a decision this vacation. Harmony and Mindy think it will be easier if I decide when
Im not with Fernando. I think theyre right.
Harmony wanted to know what Flower thought of him. Of course Flower likes Harmony hes cool.
Everybody else met him b4 but she didnt. I told him I might show her my diary. Harmony said its ok but
I have to convince Mindy! Its weird cuz Harmonys read my diary since I started it so he already knows
what Mindy did. So why is Mindy embarrassed to tell Flower? But thats ok. I still have some things I
wrote when I was like 12 that I havent posted yet but I might. Of course Flowers 12 now.
Later we went to Dollys to get ready for Claras b-day party. Shell be 1 years old on Friday but
everybody couldnt be there then and we might even be leaving Friday! The ppl who went to help were
Harmony, Vickie, Mindy, Flower and me. Of course Dolly helped and so did Claire. If u dont know Dolly
is Claras mother shes 15 and Claire is Dollys mother. So it was all girls and Harmony but Harmony
didnt mind. We didnt have a lot of decorations but we put up Happy Birthday balloons, pink and white
bows, and a silver streamer that said Happy Birthday. We also decorated with flowers cuz Dolly said
Clara really likes flowers and her favorite colors r white and pink.
I was the game planner of course! lol Really Mindy and everybody helped me. Clara is really too
young to play party games so we picked some for everybody else to play.
The ppl who came were Clara, Dolly, Claire, Trixie and Josh who r Claires parents, Joey whos Dollys
boyfriend, Fiona whos Claires cuzin, Debby and Aaron and their daughters Karly and Bret, Yvette,
Vickie, Allen, Ima, Greg, Bobbie, Flower, Mindy, Harmony and me. Dolly was totally excited that so
many ppl came for her daughters b-day party even though everybody wasnt there the whole time. I
think Allen just came cuz he heard we might play a kissing game! lol I thought Josh and Raidon would
come but they didnt I guess so they could have a house to themselves without any adults around! lol I
mean Josh whos Yvettes son of course.
The games didnt go like we planned cuz the only little kids were Karly whos 8 and Bret whos 5. They
wanted Clara to play everything but of course she couldnt shes still a baby. So Claire said we should
have separate games for under 18. But Allen said Im almost 18 I am straight up not a little kid! So
then Claire said we should make it 16. But then Dolly whos 15 said Im a mother Im not a little kid
either! So it got weird and it almost became a big argument! But then Harmony said Im definitely over
18 and Im still a kid! Then Fiona said I am too! Then Ima said maybe we could let ppl decide which
games they wanted to play and wed make them easier on the younger ones. I was totally glad she
said that cuz it stopped a big problem!
We didnt really play a lot of games. Some ppl played computer games which u really cant do with a
big group. But we played Balloon Sit cuz everybody can play that. Each person gets a balloon with a
note in it and then one at a time they sit on it to pop the balloon. Harmony was worried the noise might
scare some of the kids but it didnt thank Goddess. Then the balloon popper does what it says on the
piece of paper. Its always something silly like stand on one foot and sing Happy Birthday stuff like
that. Dolly needed help reading hers cuz she cant read very well but thats ok shes learning in school.
Some of them wanted to play Twister but I forgot to bring my Twister game. There arent many games
that work for everybody! We played musical chairs but the older players had to wait til we counted to
two after the music stopped so that way it would be fair. It was still almost a problem cuz Allen almost
sat on Bret! It was weird cuz Bret wasnt mad but Karly was!
Claras cake had white icing with yellow letters which Dolly wasnt happy about. She wanted everything
to be white and pink but I guess they couldnt get that. But really I dont think Clara cared. It was funny
cuz we tried to get her to blow out the candles but she wouldnt do it. But really shes just a baby! So
Karly and Bret did it for her.
Oh and we all called Ella and wished her Happy Birthday! I wish I could have been there for her
birthday cuz shes a great friend. But Wendi and some of her other friends r having a party for her so
thats cool. I hope Johnnie calls her cuz we havent heard from him in a while. If u dont know Johnnie is
the one she met a year ago I think it was right b4 she turned 13. Of course I met him too that was
during winter break. Hes a great friend and we miss u Johnnie!
I didnt know if ppl would like doing the Cloved Lemon Kissing Game or not! Of course I knew Allen
wanted to play it! lol Mindy and I already talked to Ima and Greg and they said it was cool. And of
course Yvette didnt care. I didnt know what Trixie and Josh would think but they left b4 we started. I
think Debby, Aaron, Karly and Bret left b4 then too Im not sure. Ppl did other things while we played of
course thats the way u always do it. Really they listened to music and talked.
Anyway we played it! Mindy, Flower and I made different sized hearts on a lemon it was cool. I felt
nervous but Ill tell u why later!
We didnt know who should start the lemon. Usually it would be the birthday girl but of course Clara
was too young to put cloves in her mouth cuz she might swallow them. So we decided to let Dolly start
cuz shes her mother. Dolly gave it to Joey and u know they did Frenchies! Then Joey gave it back to
Dolly and they did it again! We were like u cant keep giving it to each other cuz nobody else will get to
play! lol
Then this was weird but Joey said Dolly should give it to Craig! If u dont know Craig is Joeys brother
and he used to be Dollys boyfriend but then he died in a motorcycle accident. So Dolly kissed Craigs
picture. Of course she couldnt get her tongue in his mouth! LMAO
Then we were like how can Craigs picture give the lemon to anybody? So Joey said “who wants to
kiss my brother?” lol Vickie said she would so she did it was funny.
Ok I wont tell u every kiss but Ill tell u about this. Later Joey gave it to Mindy which was sweet cuz she
hadnt gotten the lemon yet. They just gave each other a peck which was cute. But then Mindy didnt
know what to do! She doesnt want me to write this but shes not here! lol j/k She wanted to give it to
Harmony but she was nervous! Thats cuz of how she wanted to kiss him but I wont write how! Anyway
Harmony got to decide what kind of kiss. Really I think I know what he wanted to do too! But he didnt
want to make Ima and Greg mad. Really I dont think they were paying attention cuz they made their
own cloved lemon and were kissing each other all the time! lol Anyway Harmony and Mindy just gave
each other a kiss on the lips which was sweet. But I was like next time I want to see tongues! lol
But then right after that Harmony gave it to me! I know Harmony will read this but I was nervous about
kissing him! Hes my best online friend and of course I give him KOTL every time I see him. But thats
not the same as using ur tongue! Its weird too cuz I did Frenchies with Mike and hes older too. But
hes a porno producer so its not the same thing as French kissing one of ur best friends! The only
best friend I did it with was Becky and that was just one time. But Rocky whos one of Harmonys best
friends told me Harmony wanted to do it. I did too but I was still nervous!
Anyway so I asked Harmony “how do you want to kiss me?” And he said he gave it to me so I should
decide. So I asked him “whats ok with you?” And what he said was really funny. He said “Ill kiss you
anywhere if it doesnt mean we have to get naked!” LMAO A lot of ppl laughed at that. So I kissed him
on the lips only I had my mouth open so he knew what that meant! ;) Of course its just a game but
Harmonys a good kisser!
Then I had to decide who to give it to. But I could tell Allen was looking right at me! He tried to French
me one time but thats when I had a boyfriend so I didnt let him. But I dont have a boyfriend now! So I
gave it to him. He French kissed me like crazy! He really likes to use his tongue! lol I like Allen but I
dont want him for a boyfriend. Really it couldnt work anyway cuz he lives over a thousand miles away!
But that doesnt mean I cant kiss him! He French kissed me later too but Ill tell u about that later.
This was weird but I almost forgot I planned to do a Wicca esbat for the new moon! And of course we
wanted to do bellydancing! Fiona said she knew this cool place in the trees so we went there. I
thought Vickie and Austin were going too but they didnt. Allen wanted to play with Harmony for
bellydancing but he didnt go to the esbat. I think he was having too much fun with the cloved lemon!
But really almost everybody who was playing left so I dont know who he got to kiss! lol
The ones who came to the ceremony were Mindy who helped me of course, Harmony, Flower, Bobbie,
Dolly, Joey, and Fiona. I like Fiona ok but really she tried to tell Mindy and me what to do! She did that
at the party too. Mindy said she thinks Fiona needs somebody whos strong to guide her so she was
trying to fix up Fiona with Harmony! :o I was like Mindy Fiona is not right for Harmony silly girl! So
Harmony gave Mindy a new nickname he called her Matchmaker Mindy! lol
I just did a small ceremony but I think everybody really liked it. It was totally cool that Bobbie and
Flower went cuz Flowers Christian and of course Bobbie is Mindys brother. But Flower said she was
curious so that was cool. And of course shes also in our secret club. Joey and Harmony asked me a
lot of questions but I didnt mind. Joey wanted us to do a seance to talk to Craig whos his dead
brother. Fiona said she does them but I dont think Flower really wanted to so we didnt. Maybe well do
one later.
Dolly wanted to stay to do bellydancing but Joey said they had to go I guess cuz they have school
tomorrow. Maybe its cuz he didnt want everybody seeing her belly! lol j/k He takes good care of her
hes really protective. He wont even let her nurse Clara when theres other guys there which is silly. But
anyway theyre a cute couple. I think Joeys good for Dolly a lot better than Randy was. Harmony and
Mindy think so too.
We had to change for bellydancing cuz its not the same if u cant see our bellies! lol Mindy put on her
powder puff blue bikini top and Flower wore her white bikini top with the pink ruffles. Fiona didnt have
a bikini and she wasnt wearing a bra so she just tied her blouse up. It was funny cuz Mindy said
nobody would care if she just took her top off cept Bobbie! lol I didnt bring a bikini and I couldnt get
my T-shirt to stay up so I just took it off and wore my sky blue bra. Really my lingerie bra covered me
more than Flowers bikini bra. Of course I wore something downstairs too! lol So Mindy and I matched
at least upstairs.
Fiona told everybody how much she exercises u could see the muscles in her belly. But really u can
see more muscles in Mindy and my belly too! I guess dance class really helped. I have to take dance
or aeorbics or something in college so I can stay in shape! Fiona is free so shes not afraid to try
anything. Really shes a little like Becky.
We dont usually dance with drums we dance to CDs but Harmonys a good drummer! He thinks hes
not but he is. Later Allen came cuz Joey and Dolly told him where we were. It was really cool when
Harmony and Allen played together! I really like belly dancing Im glad Germana taught us. I wish she
wasnt going to college in England cuz I will totally miss her! I only have one best friend who lives close
now and thats Mindy. Becky lives in my old town so shes not too far, but Laura is more than a
thousand miles away, Germana will be in England for months, and Harmonys in Texas. I hope he
moves back to California soon hes been saying he will forever! lol Really I know its not his fault. But I
hope he does!
Later we got Allen dancing and he has a nice belly too! ;) Of course Ive already seen it and his chest.
He just took his shirt off but of course guys can do that. Really its not fair its just sexist. Girls should
be able to be topfree too!
It was funny cuz when Allen and Fiona were both dancing it got totally wild! lol We wanted to get
Bobbie to dance or play the drum but he just watched. But thats ok. I know he likes watching Flower!
Oh guess what else Allen brought? The cloved lemon! lol I was like how can we be kissing when were
dancing? But we did it! lol I thought Allen would give it to me or Fiona first but guess who he gave it
to? Flower! He said that way she could give Bobbie a real kiss! lol Flower just gave Allen a peck but
thats all she gave Bobbie too. But it was longer kiss than she gave Allen! ;)
Bobbie was really nervous about giving it to anybody! lol So he gave it to Mindy. I guess he figured
his sister would be safe! lol So then I was like Mindy nows ur chance to really kiss Harmony! I know
she wanted to but she was totally nervous poor Mindy! So they just did pecks.
Later Allen gave me the lemon so he French kissed me while we were both dancing! Isnt that kewl?
Allen is really forceful when he kisses really too much but it was still hot! The way he was moving its
like he wanted to do something else too! His hips were moving more than they really needed to! LMAO
I gave the lemon to Harmony but he said he didnt know if he could drum and kiss at the same time! lol
But he did it! It was funny cuz his tongue was moving like it was drumming and mine was dancing!
LMAO
We wanted to dance and drum til really late but finally we had to go back. This was weird though cuz
everybody couldnt stay at Allens house cuz its too small. But Fiona said Harmony could spend the
night with her! She said it like she just meant sleep there but u know what she was thinking! I was like
she just met Harmony and shes already asking him to sleep with her? Really I dont care what other
ppl do but I know Harmony doesnt do that. And we came here to see Harmony not so he could see
somebody else! But Harmony stayed with us at Yvettes so that was cool. But we didnt sleep with him
he slept by himself! LMAO But he gave us good night kissies which was sweet.
Vickie spent the night at Dollys and Allen went to Ken and Trenas house. So Mindy, Flower and I slept
in Vickies bed with Mindy in the middle and Harmony slept in Allens bed all by himself poor Harmony!
lol Really I wish Allen wasnt gone so much. When Im with Allen its easier to think about what I want to
do about Fernando. But Harmony helps me a lot cuz he keeps reminding me to ask what do I want?
Mindy and I really want time alone with Harmony we keep trying and it hasnt happened. Theres just
too many ppl. But it has to happen tomorrow cuz tomorrows the last day well see him!
Mindy and I totally wanted to do sharies cuz we were feeling exponential! But we couldnt with Flower
there. We really wanted Flower with us so dont think that! Flowers like Mindys little sister and really
shes like my little sister too. It was crowded with three of us in one bed but thats ok. Mindy doesnt
want Flower reading my diary until we all do sharies together cuz of course I write about that a lot. But
Flower hasnt even masterbated yet! I think she tried it once just a little but she didnt really do it. Im
like how can u be 12 years old and not masterbate?
Anyway finally we went to sleep.
Copyright 2006 by The Loveshade Family
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Then Harmony
gave the lemon
to me!
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I got French
kissed while my
partner was
dancing and
drumming!
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We went to get
ready for Clara's
first b-day party.
We played the
Cloved Lemon
Kissing Game!
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Harmony asked
me what do I
want?
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The games didn't
go like we
planned it almost
became a big
argument!
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I wish we could
have been at
Ellas 14th
birthday party.
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Today is the
fifth anniversary
of my online
diary and the
seventh
anniversary of
my first period!
Happy
Anniversary!
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He tried to
French kiss me
one time but I
had a boyfriend.
But I dont have
one now!
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We were feeling
exponential!
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