| FeBrUaRy 27 - 28 2006 |
| Monday February 27 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I got sick! I didnt even go to school and I never miss school. And they think I might have strep throat and that can last for weeks! How can I have a party or anything if I cant talk? This sucks! And what am I going to do about babysitting? I just started babysitting Dee Dee and Terri I cant miss that! And Im having an esbat tonight! later Mrs. Opland babysat for me thank Goddess. But what about the party? And more bad news is Deno and Kayla cant come! I dont know why Deno cant but Mindy said Kayla cant be gone or something. I wish they could go! I couldnt even go to my own esbat! They had it anyway which is good. I have to go to school tomorrow cuz I got high school and college. Really I think Im getting better I hope so! I was going to wait to start a blog on my site but I think Ill start one tomorrow. I cant believe I wont be doing my online diary anymore! I do my diary on the big site but Ill do the blog on the smaller one. But really I think it will be cool writing a blog. Then I can write about important things like politics and sexism and ppls rights and freedom of religion. Some ppl want to stop Wicca and that is totally not right! But Ill really miss posting my diary! But now that Im turning 18 I want to do something different. Ill still write my diary of course but I might keep it private or just show it to my best friends. But the day b4 I turn 18 is the last day Ill post it. Ok I have to go to bed even though Im sick of being in bed! I went to Page and Perrys today cuz I didnt want to be sick all by myself especially with the store closed all day. Mommy didnt work today so they could spend time together and I screwed it up! Im really sorry. But Im glad she was there. And Uncle Frankie was sweet he fixed me chicken soup. But Mr Biggles wanted to eat it all! lol But Im glad I was there. I didnt want to be sick by myself! Tuesday February 28 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I really dont feel very good today either but I didnt want to miss another day of school! But my throats a lot better so thats good. I dont have much PMS but that might be part of it too I dont know. I didnt start doing my blog I think Ill start tomorrow. later Guess who called me? Oscar! He said he remembered I said my birthday was in March but he didnt remember what day so he called today. Isnt that kewl? I am so glad I have a cell phone even though we arent supposed to take calls in class unless its an emergency or something. I only met Oscar once at the Valentines Nudist party so it is so kewl he called! He told me about his classes cuz hes studying Botany. I almost told him about my birthday party but I didnt. But I dont know. Really some ppl wont be coming so why couldnt I invite somebody else? Hes really cool and Aunt Lizzie knows him and shell be at the party. But then this is weird cuz I was thinking I wish I hadnt invited Fernando and Lori! But really I dont know why. Lori wants to bring her boyfriend but I told her I didnt think wed have room. But really its just cuz I dont know him. But why did I invite Fernando? I really dont know him very well even though we have class together. Ok if it was just a regular party it would be cool to invite him. But this is all weekend! Inviting him was almost like asking him to spend the night! Ok I know thats silly but still. Mindy thinks I like Fernando and I was like Mindy! Shes the one who likes somebody cuz she really likes Jody! I hope he can go. later Ok I just read what I wrote and it sounds stupid! So let me explain. Deno really likes me and I dated him just a couple times as friends but he wont be at the party. But Herbie my ex boyfriend will be and I know he still likes me. But I want to date somebody else. But sometimes I still think about Herbie. So really Im worried that if I spend all weekend with Herbie something will happen! So thats why I want to invite other guys. And really Fernando is cool and I dont even know if hes going anyway. But if he doesnt go then I should invite Oscar! Cuz that way theyll be another guy there. Ok therell be other guys there but thats not what I mean! lol I mean another guy who might like me. Then maybe I can keep my hands off Herbie! LMAO j/k I dont know what I feel my feelings r all mixed up. Sometimes I even start thinking about Allen and that was months ago! And last time I saw him he was hanging on Becky and kissing her not me. Mindys family might see them sometime this summer but I dont know. Really Id love to see Harmony again cuz he lives close. But he might be here then anyway. And of course I really like Mindys Aunt Yvette. And going on vacation with Mindy was a lot of fun. Why is everything so complicated? Sometimes I wish that u just knew who u wanted to be with and they knew it too and that was it. I guess it used to be that way cuz ppl would stay married all their lives. But I dont think it really happens anymore. I guess sometimes it does but not a lot. But I am straight up not going to know unless I date somebody else! But then do I want to be making out with some guy at the party in front of Herbie? Thats not fair to him. I wish he had a girlfriend. Hes such a great guy he really should. I dont know. Now its like I wish we werent even having this party! But thats stupid its just a party! I go to parties all the time! But of course this will be different. Its for my 18th birthday and its totally away from home and its all weekend. This is a Hollywood party! But its just going to be Becky and my friends. Ok Im going to stop writing this cuz this is just stupid! |
| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| Sometimes I wish that u just knew who u wanted to be with and they knew it too and that was it. |
| I was going to wait to start a blog on my other site but I think Ill start one tomorrow. |
| The day b4 I turn 18 is the last day Ill post my diary. |
| What do I do about all these guys? lol |
| I dont know what I feel my feelings r all mixed up. |
| I got sick! |