Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary February 18 to 22 2006

Saturday February 18 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

U wont believe what Becky told me about Herbie! But Ill tell u
later.

Happy Birthday Kayla and Virginia! Virginia is my online friend
shes in our secret club. Shes got a cool website and a great
tatoo! Her tatoo is the symbol of our secret club so I wont tell u
what it is! lol

It was weird cuz usually the morning after a sleepover all we do
is chill and have breakfast. But this was like the party hadnt
even ended! Becky even started drinking again! She said “I
want to be drunk all weekend.” And I was like Becky! Of course
she said call me Crystal but everybody knows her name is
Becky.

So then Becky said lets go out to breakfast in our underwear! I
was like Becky! But then Germana said why couldnt we go in
our sleepclothes? And I was like what? We didnt do it but then I
thought it could be fun! Cuz u could cover up with a robe. So
Becky and I said at our birthday party well all go to breakfast in
our nightgowns! lol Oh if u dont know Beckys real birthday is
March 15 its just two days after mine. Our birthdays arent on a
weekend so I dont know if well have the party the weekend b4
or after. And I totally dont know where well have it! Beckys
apartment is too small and of course mine is too. Maybe we can
have it at Germanas Ill have to check. We want to have an
extreme birthday bang!

Anyway we just had breakfast there and then we went back to
Beckys. Oh first we stopped by my crib cuz I forgot some things
and Dolphinia wanted to see it anyway. Of course we showed
her the store. She really liked it.

Mindy couldnt go with us for the whole weekend. So the ones
who went back were Herbie, Becky, Dolphinia, and me. We
wouldnt let Becky drive of course and Dolphinia doesnt have a
license so I drove. I really dont drive a lot but I know Herbie
doesnt like driving with a lot of ppl. Herbie rode shotgun, Becky
sat behind me and Dolphinia sat behind Herbie.

It was funny cuz Becky started singing and then we all started
singing! lol Of course Becky has a good voice but I dont! But
thats ok it was fun. But then guess what Becky told Herbie to
do? Go by the college! I was like Becky everybody doesnt want
to stop by a college! But everybody said they did! And then
Becky said of course Herbie wants to see it cuz he applied
there too!

So I was like Herbie is that true? And he said yes! Then Becky
said he applied to the college by the beach too! He said it
wasnt just cuz I was going there he thought they were great
colleges. I do too but both of them? He said he didnt apply to
the one thats close to Benny and Brandy. So I dont know. Does
he want to follow me after high school? But I like Herbie hes a
great friend. So really that could be cool.

Oh and Herbie talked about the play hes in. He said he really
likes it! I cant remember the name but I think its a new play. I
think hell be great cuz hes a really great magician! He hasnt
acted b4 but being a magician takes acting too.

Anyway the college we went to was the one thats close. I
applied to three so I hope somebody wants me! Mr. Lipton said
dont worry about it hes sure somebody will accept me. I hope
so! Anyway we really didnt see much just the buildings and the
parking lot and one of the dorms. I said I didnt know if I want to
live in a dorm or an apartment. Really if I went there I could stay
where I am and drive to school cuz its really close. But I dont
know. I want an apartment thats more than a bedroom and a
three quarter bath in an antique store!

Then Becky said why dont I get an apartment with Herbie? And
I was like Becky! But really I didnt know what to say!

Dolphinia said she might go to college next year. Shes a
freshman in high school this year so shed be going in her
sophomore year just like Mindy is. But then Becky said she
didnt think shed ever go to college! I dont even know what her
grades were for first semester I hope theyre ok.

Then we talked about Wicca and really thats what we talked
about most of the way back. We took Dolphinia and Herbie
back and poor Herbie didnt want to let go of me! I really like
Herbie but I have to start dating! And I dont mean just Deno
either!

Then I called Daddy and he did not sound happy! I think he
thought Id be there quicker. But its like his birthday isnt til
tomorrow and Ill be there then! Anyway I was at Beckys for a
while then I went to see Daddy and my cuzins and stayed here.

And then I spent all my time writing this! lol

Sunday February 19 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Todays Daddys birthday but Im not going to write Happy
Birthday for ppl who dont even read this!

I totally forgot to call Timmie about babysitting! Doh! I called
her today but I just left a message. I hope I get the job cuz I
need more money!

later

I have good news but really its weird! Timmie called me back
and asked can I start tomorrow! And Im like she hasnt even met
me and she wants me to babysit her kids? I was glad of course
but still. Anyway I told her I wasnt coming back til tomorrow but I
could come back early if she needed me. But she said I could
start Tuesday cuz thats when Im babysitting Kim and Rodney.
And then she didnt even ask me how much it costs! I didnt
know what to say so I just said I charge $3.50 an hour for Kim
and Rodney and she said thats fine. Really Becky said I should
charge more! Cuz I havent gotten a raise since I started. But I
said $3.50 so I cant change it now!

But really thats good. Cuz thats means Ill be making $7 an
hour! Its cool too cuz Dee Dee goes to the same school as
Rodney and of course they all live in the apartments. I dont
know if Ill be babysitting at Charlottes or at Timmies Ill have to
check. I thought about getting a different job cuz Ive been
babysitting forever. But its like what job can I get where Im
making $7 an hour?

later

Daddys birthday was weird! Really I dont think he was happy
having a birthday without Mommy. And Benny and Brandy didnt
call him but thats his fault! And of course he didnt see Matthew
either. If Daddy wants a family he has to act like he wants one!
Im sorry I shouldnt be mad at him on his birthday. But I want my
family back together!

The only ppl who were here were Daddy, Denise, Nolan, Darby,
Cari, Gracie, Casey, and me. Alonzo wanted to come but he
couldnt cuz he had to work. Daddy didnt even say much he just
ate then watched TV and drank beer.

But then this was really weird. Later Becky and Herbie came
over. Of course they babysit the kids all the time. But Daddy
acted happier to see Becky than he did me! She hugs and
kisses him all the time. Hes my Daddy not hers! She lost her
Daddy so really I guess its good for her. Its ok she does it. But
why does Daddy do it with her more than he does with me? He
doesnt need that many birthday kisses! And he didnt even kiss
me on the lips once til Becky got there! And then she was
leaning on him so much when he was sitting in his chair I felt
like saying why dont u just sit in his lap? It just seems weird.
Becky says she has a big surprise for me that shell tell me
tomorrow. But Im like I dont need anymore surprises!

I talked a lot to Herbie cuz Daddy was busy with the babysitter!
Ok I shouldnt say that. Becky is one of my best friends. Its not
her fault. I just wonder whats up with Daddy?

Anyway Herbie and I didnt really talk about the party but I know
he was thinking about it. He said weve been separated six
months and two weeks now! Its not exactly two weeks but its
close. Then he talked about us going to the same college! And
of course we might cuz I only applied to three different ones
and he applied to two of them.

I dont know what to do about college. I know ppl say dont worry
about it but how can I not worry? What if nobody wants me? I
know I could go to junior college but I dont know if I want to. Im
already going there. I dont want to move away from Mindy and
Germana and Becky and all my friends. And from Austra cuz
were bound together in this life she even calls me Aunt Lorien.
But if I go to the college thats close then Ill be stuck in the
stupid antique store. I really dont like living by myself with one
bedroom and no bathtub!

Ok I dont want to write about this anymore. I have to decide on
a college but I cant decide til I know who wants me. And Im
feeling confused about Herbie and Deno and guys. Sometimes
I wish I was lesbian. I dont really I guess. But I have to start
dating somebody!

Monday February 20 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

U straight up will not believe what Becky and I have planned for
our birthday! Its awesome! But ull have to wait! lol

Im sorry I sounded like I was mad at Becky cuz really Im not! Im
glad my Daddy can help her feel better. And Beckys a great
friend!

Becky, Herbie, Jude, Linda, Sharma, and I saw When a
Stranger Calls. Its a good movie but it makes u think about
babysitting! lol I really like Herbie but I have to start dating
somebody so I dont keep thinking about Herbie.

Ok this I have to tell u. Becky and I talked about our birthday
party. Its our 18th and its going to be awesome!

Becky said she had a surprise for our birthday so I was like
what is it? First she said we could have a nudist party. But I
said if we did that most of our friends wouldnt come! Cuz most
of them arent nudists. Then she said she was kidding and her
plan was to have our families get together at her apartment.
And I was like Becky!

Then finally she told me. And this u straight up wont believe!
Becky talked to Cassie and Alan. They know this producer who
makes some of their movies so u know hes rich. Anyway in
March hes going to be in Florida or somewhere. Maybe its New
York I cant remember. But he said we can use his house in
Hollywood for our birthdays! I could not believe it!

Really I think hes letting Alan and Cassie use it but he said they
can have all the parties they want! And u wont believe what the
house has. Its two stories with like six bedrooms and an indoor
outdoor pool! U can swim indoors! And it has a tennis court
and a full bar and wide screen TV and a hot tub and
everything! And we can use it all weekend! The only weekends
we can use it r the first or the second weekend in March but the
second weekends perfect cuz thats right b4 our b-days! This
will be a totally awesome party! I have to talk to Alan and
Cassie to get the details but Ive already started inviting ppl!

Tuesday February 21 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I am totally excited! I talked to Cassie and she said we can
have as many ppl as we want! Well start the party Friday and it
wont end til Sunday! Can u believe it? A three day party in
Hollywood!

Mindy and Germana r excited too! Mindys says I should talk to
Alan so I got his number. I think hell be there too but thats ok
hes cool!

later

I have a lot to tell but I promise Ill make this short. I have to cuz I
have to get some sleep! lol

First guess who talked a lot to Mindy at school? Jody! I think he
really likes her! I think hes going to ask her on another date!
Yay Mindy! Jodys cool and Mindy needs a boyfriend! He might
even go to my birthday party!

I babysat Dee Dee and Terri for the first time. I did it at
Charlottes apartment. Terri was sweet but Dee Dee doesnt
want to do what u tell her! But if I can control Kim I can control
Dee Dee! lol Really Kim is really good she acts a lot more
mature than she did when I started babysitting her two years
ago. She kept telling them what to do but really I think she
should do it less. Ill have to tell her Im the babysitter not her! lol
Of course Rodney was sweet. He was being really nice
especially to Dee Dee I guess cuz she goes to his school. Hes
in 3rd grade and shes in 2nd. Dee Dee is 7 almost 8 and Terri
is 6.

Then guess what Mindy did in our Computer class? She told
Fernando and Lori about my birthday party and Daria heard
too! Really its ok cuz I thought about telling Fernando and Lori.
I knew Lori in high school but I just met Fernando in this class
but hes cool. And no I dont want him as a boyfriend I dont want
a boyfriend! lol Oh and hes 21 I thought he was older. I dont
know if he can go but I think Lori might. We can have as many
ppl as we want!

Wednesday February 22 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I want to tell u about babysitting but really it was ok.

I dont want to write about Becky and my birthday party all the
time but we have a real problem! First who do we invite? Cuz
really we cant invite everybody! Ive been asking too many ppl.
And I havent talked to everybody in my coven about it! Really a
coven usually just has little b-day parties during esbats. And I
cant invited my family of course! Cassie said we could invite as
many ppl as we want but I dont know. Ill have to check with Alan
too. Of course I believe Cassie but if a party has too many ppl it
can get totally out of control!

Then heres the other problem and this is a BIG problem. Ella
said her parents wont let her spend the night unless theres a
parent there and Carol said that too! I didnt think it would be a
prob cuz well have a lot of adults there. But Cassie and Alan r
young adults theyre both in their 20s and I mean early 20s.
Really its not fair cuz Alan was really keeping an eye on us he
didnt want any problems. I know hes really responsible and
Cassie says so too. She said shes not but he is. But who can
we ask? I could ask Goldina but I dont know. I dont think she
likes wild bangs and I know Miss Sasha doesnt. Tamber is 31
but I dont know if hed do it either. But who can I ask in my old
coven? I know Aunt Eva wouldnt want to do it and I dont think
Ice Falcon or Eagle Flame would either. But who can I ask?