Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary February 7 to 10 2006

Tuesday February 7 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I finally decided something! Mindy and I talked about it and this
is what Im going to do. I wanted to go to the Valentines Dance.
But the only guy who asked me to go was Deno. I really like
Deno but I dont want him thinking Im his girlfriend or something.
I know I could ask a guy to go but theres nobody I want to ask! I
thought about asking Les whos new but I really dont want to.
And really Valentines Day is special so I dont want to just go
with some guy. I was going to just go with friends but I thought
that would really bother Deno. Cuz then hed think why didnt I
go with him if I wasnt going with anybody?

So guess what Im going to do? Im going to the Nudist
Valentines Day Party! Mindy wanted to go to that too but I was
like Mindy u have a date! Germana doesnt know who shes
going with but she doesnt care. Its easy for her to get guys.
Flower and her family r going to the Nudist party and I think
maybe Aunt Lizzie is too. Ill have to check.

The only prob is I just waxed off all my lap hair! Of course its
not really a prob if u dont have lap hair at a nudist party. But
everybodys going to know! I didnt even take a shower today
after dance I just washed off a little. How am I going to explain
to everybody why I dont have any lap hair?

But then we had an idea. Its a Valentines party so Im going to
get a heart painted on me downstairs! lol Really it will work a lot
better with no hair cuz its hard to do bodypaint over hair. So
that should be fun!

Anyway Computers was fun. I wish I wasnt having class next
week on Valentines Day but really thats ok. I dont have a
boyfriend anyway. Im really glad Im taking a class with Mindy.
We might be doing a team project with Fernando and Lori. Lori
graduated from my high school last year but Fernandos older I
think hes 23. It was funny cuz he made a joke about lesbians
and at first I was upset. But he said he was just kidding cuz he
has an aunt whos lesbian! I told him I believe if it harms none
do what u will and he said he believes that too. Lori said she
wasnt sure I guess thats cuz shes Christian.

We all like Mr. Benson too hes fun. Its funny cuz our final
project is building a website and Ive already built a lot of
websites! So that should be easy. I just have two sites I use
right now so then Ill have three. Lori and Mindy have websites
too but Fernando said hes never built one! So we said wed all
help him. Oh and he said to make it fair hed help me with
Spanish cuz he spoke it when he was a kid. Its Mindys first
college class so Im glad shes having fun!

Wednesday February 8 2006

My chiweewee itches! lol If u dont know thats what Mindys
Mama and Papa called her pussy when she was a little girl.
Mindy said she told me that b4 but I forgot. She doesnt call it
that now and I never named mine! I know some girls and a lot
of guys name themselves downstairs but I havent.

It itched so much I finally took a shower after dance! I usually
take one at the end of class but I was too embarrassed
yesterday. I thought everybody would ask me why I shaved all
my lap hair off. But nobody did! Really I guess its cuz a lot of
the girls dont know me very well cuz I dont take PE. We just
take showers with them after dance. It was funny cuz when
nobody said anything I thought I want somebody to ask! lol
Mindy said nobody asked her when she plucked her lap hairs
either. But I was like Mindy u only had five! lol If u werent
looking really close u wouldnt notice them anyway. Ok I wont
talk anymore about my chiweewee! lol

I have a lot to do! Tomorrow Germanas spending the night with
me, then Saturday Im going to the Nudist Valentines Party with
Flower and her family, Sunday is my new covens full moon
esbat which is the first with everybody elevated, Tuesday is
Valentines Day but Im not doing anything but go to school, then
I have another four day weekend yay! I still dont know what Im
going to do I have to make plans. Oh of course were having the
birthday party for Crystal which is Becky and Kayla but I dont
know what else Im doing. Poor Becky doesnt really like their
apartment she misses her house! Really I do too. I really miss
the pool and the jacuzzi. But Becky misses her Daddy! :( Of
course I miss him too.

Thursday February 9 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

U wont believe what Germana told me! She spent the night so
Im writing this Friday but this is what happened Thursday.

First ppl r asking to see pics of my chiweewee! lol Thats cuz I
shaved all my hair off downstairs cuz I lost the Super Bowl bet
with Mindy. Now were both shaved. Germana said I should
show ppl pussy pics if they pay me to look! lol I was like I dont
think so! But really I dont care. I dont know how to explain it. Its
like I dont care if ppl see me naked cuz Im a nudist. But its
different if they read my diary. Nobody who sees me naked
reads it cept my best friends. Its like I can expose my body to
ppl I dont know and thats ok. Thats natural and its straight up
not sex. But exposing it to ppl who read my diary is different.
Cuz in my diary I expose my thoughts and feelings and
everything else! I dont care if my best friends read my diary
and see me naked. But somebody else is different!

But then Germana told me something really weird. She said
she did something when she and Becky and I slept together!
Thats when we helped Becky move. She said they did things
with each other when I was asleep! :o She said they started
French kissing each other when I was right there. And then
they did more!

We slept on a sleeping bag and blankets on the floor.
Germana was on the left, then Becky was in the middle, then I
was on the right. Germana said they tried talking to me but I fell
asleep right away. I guess I did cuz I was really sleepy. I almost
fell asleep in the jacuzzi! So then they gave each other good
night kisses but it didnt stop at pecks! She said they were
doing Frenchies like crazy.

Then Becky said something about how Mindy suckles me.
Becky asked Germana if she ever did that with me and
Germana said no. Germana asked Becky if she did and Becky
said no not with me but of course she did with Linda. Then
Becky said shes the baby of her family which she is. Then
Germana asked Becky if she wanted to suckle her! And Becky
said yes!

Ok I wont write everything they did cuz I wasnt even there. I
mean I was there but I was asleep! But it was so weird! Im lying
there right next to Becky when shes sucking on Germanas
boobs? If u dont know Germana has C cup breasts and big
dark areolas with daisy tatoos around them. Her nipples r big
too they stick out like pencil erasers. Everything about
Germanas breasts is big. Theyre nice. But Becky sucking on
them when Im there?

Its different with me and Mindy cuz she was my baby in a past
life. But Becky and Germana were thinking something else!

Ok I said I wouldnt write everything so I wont. But guess what
Germana did with her finger? She touched Becky downstairs
and then she stuck it inside! I could not believe it! And then
they did sharies and sometimes they touched each other and I
mean downstairs! Beckys bi of course and Germana really isnt
bi shes straight but she likes to experiment sometimes. But still.
When Im lying right next to them sleeping?

So I dont know. Its like it bothers me a little that they were doing
that right next to me and I didnt even know. It just seems weird.
Becky told Germana she could tell me so it wouldnt be a secret.
And I know they didnt touch me but still. But learning they did
that also made me feel horny! So I dont know. I dont really want
to write this cuz I know what Germana and Becky will say. Theyll
want me to do things with them next time! :o But I dont think so!

Then guess what Germana wanted to do with me? She wanted
to touch me downstairs! She said she was just curious to see
what it felt like shaved cuz I said it felt different. Really I guess I
could have let her touch me there. But I didnt know if Germana
would want to stop with just a touch! Its like if u want to touch
my pussy touch Mr Biggles! LMAO Of course hes not a shaved
pussy! lol

I thought about experimenting more with a girl but Rocky said I
shouldnt do it with my close friends. He said its better to
experiment with sex with somebody u dont know. That way it
doesnt change ur friendship. I think Dena said that too but Im
not sure. It seems weird having sex with a stranger! But I think
Rocky just meant somebody I dont know really well.

I guess it wouldnt be a problem with a friend if it was just a
touch. But what if my friend didnt want to stop?

Friday February 10 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

A lot of ppl gave me advice! Dena and Brenda both said its
better if I let Germana touch me downstairs cuz if I dont it will
drive her crazy! Dena said if Germana is a really good friend
which of course she is I can just tell her thats all I want to do.
And she will respect it. Really I know Germana will. I want to tell
her its ok but I think Ill just show her my diary! lol Then shell
know!

Bedlam Brenda said something else that was really good too.
She said when somebody wants to learn about sex or ppls
body u should let them. Some ppl dont want them to learn. Girls
used to be told they shouldnt even touch themselves! And
boys too! Except when they have to pee cuz men and boys
have to touch themselves to do that. I think telling ppl that is
totally wrong. Touching urself is natural. But Brenda said
wanting to touch other ppls bodies cuz ur curious is natural too.
And if u dont let ppl satisfy their curiousity then u make them
believe their feelings r bad! She said thats why kids get so
confused about sex. Ppl make them feel bad cuz theyre curious
and want to learn! Mindy says something like that too. She
says if somebody asks a question then theyre ready to hear an
answer. And really theres nothing wrong with letting one of my
best friends touch me downstairs if theyre just curious.

I guess its like nudism. Everybody is really curious what other
ppl look like thats just natural. Sometimes I think ppl have sex
b4 theyre ready just cuz theyre curious! But if ur a nudist then
u see what men and woman and boys and girls look like naked.
So its no big deal and u can wait to have sex if u want to. Im
almost 18 and if I wasnt a nudist maybe I would have had sex
when I wasnt ready for it yet. Beckys a nudist and she didnt
have sex til she was 17. Germana and Laura arent and they
had sex at 13 and 14!

But I dont know. Cuz Germana said she was totally ready for
sex and shes glad she did it. But Laura wasnt ready. Of course
Germanas family taught her everything so shed be
comfortable. They did that with her brother and sisters too. And
Austra wants to stay a virgin forever! But Lauras family wouldnt
teach her anything. Her Daddy was always totally protective.
But it didnt stop Laura from having sex!

Really I believe in the Loveshade beliefs. Ur supposed to
prepare children to be responsible so they r ready to live in the
world as adults. It doesnt help if u keep them locked up in the
closet all day! lol

later

I saw the beginning of the Olympics. It was an awesome
opening ceremony! But I wont write about it cuz I know
everybody already saw it! lol