| JaNuArY 27 - 31 2006 |
| Friday January 27 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I asked Mindy when she wanted me to change her again? But she said it might be something she only wants to do once. Really some things r that way. But I told her if she changes her mind Ill be happy to change her diaper! lol At least shes not nervous peeing in the toilet with me there. She doesnt have to hide her chiweewee! LMAO Im not nervous peeing with her there either of course. Shes my Tinkie! And Im her Cuppy! later Mindy made me promise I wouldnt tell anybody at our Wiccan meeting what we did. I was like of course Mindy Im not going to tell everybody our secrets! She was still worried cuz Germana and Becky read this. Harmony and Laura do too but its not like she sees them all the time. But they all know she wanted to do it anyway! Johnnie reads it but shes never met him and everybody else who reads it only knows her online. I told Mindy she doesnt have to worry! I wanted us to meet in Mindys treehouse but some ppl thought it would be too cold in there. Really its not with the heater. Anyway we went to Germanas. Germana wasnt there but we met in her and Austras room. The ppl who were there were Mindy, Austra, Ella, and Carol thats it! Wendi was going to come but she couldnt and Kayla couldnt either. And Deno is still nervous about being with a group of just girls! I should have asked Tamber to come. But really Deno has to get used to it. Cuz even with Tamber sometimes hell be the only guy! I guess Ill have another meeting with Germana, Wendi, Kayla, and Deno cuz they missed a lot! We talked more about Wicca and what it means to be Wiccan and also about channeling the forces of nature. Mindy helped me of course. I dont know what was up with Ella and Carol cuz they were joking around! I know I used to be too serious but Mindy says Im not anymore. I dont know what happened to them they were acting like a couple of tweakers! Austra was real serious of course she always is. I dont mean she is all the time I just mean when she should be. Its cool cuz shes still calling me Aunt Lorien! I had to explain to everybody what that meant. Its ok that I tell ppl that were life bonded I just couldnt say anything til they told Austra. We all used the hot tub after which was nice. I wish I could get Austra to skinny dip with everybody like she used to. And really Carol is nervous about it too. Im like its just girls! Oh and we talked about the birthday party for Crystal and Kayla. Were having it after Valentines Day but they still want a Valentines Day theme. The only prob is I dont know if we can do everything we planned cuz Austra wants to come! Shes really mature but theres just some things u dont do with a 10 year old there! But Germana says their parents tell Austra everything so I dont know maybe it might be ok. Ill have to ask Germana. I was going to see Becky and Daddy and my cuzins and everybody tonight. But Becky said she was tired from packing so Im going tomorrow morning. Poor Becky doesnt want to move! Im still thinking about what I did with my precious Tinkie. It was so special! Its one of the most special things I ever did. I love u Tinkie! Saturday January 28 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS My plans totally changed! Becky said shes tired of packing and wants to get out of the house! I was like they have to move next weekend! She said she didnt have much left to do but I dont know. I called to tell Daddy and my cuzins that I wouldnt be coming there this weekend and Daddy was not happy! So then I told them Id be there next weekend cuz Im helping Becky and her family move Friday and Saturday. Then I could be with Daddy for Super Bowl Sunday. So that was ok cuz Daddy really likes me being with him for that. But now I have to tell Germana I wont be going to her house! Really I already told her I wasnt sure cuz Id be helping Becky move. later My plans changed again! I told Becky that Aunt Lizzie had invited me for the weekend but I couldnt go. But Becky said she wanted to go there! I didnt know if it would still be ok. But Aunt Lizzie said it was cuz shed be totally by herself! She has ppl stay over a lot cuz she really likes company. Of course Im that way too. This was cool cuz Becky said Im a lot like Aunt Lizzie! I didnt think I was but I guess in some ways I am. Shes freer than me but Im getting freer! When we got there we saw Aunt Lizzie and met her friend Gracie. Her names just like my cuzins but shes not the same person cuz Gracie has a daughter whos older than Gracie! lol Her daughter is 9 and her name is Cassie. But shes not my friend Cassie who does the movies! lol They werent there very long but Cassie is sweet. She loves horses just like Becky and I do. I couldnt ride Del cuz he hurt himself poor Del! If u dont know hes Sonny and Margos horse they live next door to Aunt Lizzie. They said hell be ok he just has to rest for a few days. Hes a palomino stallion which is my favorite kind of horse. I really think its good that we went there cuz Aunt Lizzie talked to Becky a lot! She talked about Beckys Daddy and about moving and everything. Aunt Lizzie said the easiest way to walk away from something is to just walk away! She said just think about what ur doing not what ur leaving behind. I think it helped Becky a lot. Aunt Lizzie gave Becky a massage too and that helped even though it made her think of her Daddy. Of course Leon was a massage therapist. But I dont think Leon ever gave Becky a massage when she was totally naked at least not since she was a little girl. Really its better that way. A massage feels a lot better when its on ur skin. Aunt Lizzie used oil and worked on Becky a long time which is good. I think it helped her feel a lot better. Then we skinny dipped in her whirlpool bath which was fun. Of course were all nudists and u know Im a water baby! Aunt Lizzie still wouldnt tell me when her birthday is! Some ppl wont tell me the year but she wont even tell me the date! If u dont know I like writing down the date for everything and Harmony helps me. We talked about the party for Becky and Kayla of course. Well say happy birthday to Goldina cuz hers is close but she cant be there. But guess what Aunt Lizzie is doing? Shes going to a nudist Valentines Day party! She said she thinks Flower and her family r going too. It sounds like a lot of fun but its the same weekend as the Valentines Day Dance and I cant go to both. Its the last dance at my school b4 prom so I really want to go. Then we talked some more about Leon. I asked Becky why she still hasnt done the tribute for him and she said she didnt know why. Cuz she really wants to post it on the website. She lost him almost a year ago right after she turned 17. Aunt Lizzie thinks its cuz if she puts it up its like she has to admit hes gone. She said Becky needs closure. Really I think she does too. Oh this was funny. I told Becky about changing Mindy cuz of course Becky reads my diary anyway. Really I think I could tell Aunt Lizzie too but I wont unless Mindy tells me its ok. So after I told Becky then she started sucking her thumb and looking at my chest! lol I had to tell her “Becky ur one of my best friends. But u r not my baby!” lol Of course she was just kidding. I think Becky just wants to suck on my boobs. But u know if she does that shell want to do something else too! I am not a lesbian Becky! lol Really I didnt want to do anything anyway cuz I knew my period might start. So we just did cuddles in the guest room which was sweet. Sunday January 29 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS We rode horses today I rode Hemper. I like going to Aunt Lizzies house cuz shes really cool and I like going to the country. It helps u feel closer to nature. I like it better when its warmer of course! lol I think it was good for Becky too cuz shes been feeling depressed. Usually Becky is excited a lot but she hasnt been. She doesnt want to move cuz she feels like shes leaving her Daddy behind. :( I hope shell be ok next weekend cuz Im helping them move. Oh and this is weird. Ill be with Daddy and my cuzins next Sunday cuz its Super Bowl Sunday. But its also Brandys birthday! Of course Im going to call her but it will be weird with Daddy there. How can Daddy not talk to his own daughter on her birthday? I wish hed get over it. Benny and Brandy have been married for like two years! Ok I wont write about that anymore. We saw Dalia she said she came to say hi to Emilia! lol Emilia is Aunt Lizzies gray cat. I cant remember the name of Dalias cat but Emilia was one of her kittens. Dalia works in a pawn shop. She said we should go there cuz u can get a lot of good stuff cheap. Tomorrow I go back to school. I wish I was still on vacation! Monday January 30 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Guess what Germana did? She got her belly button pierced! Mindy and I were going to get another piercing in our ears with her but she said she was tired of waiting! lol Really I dont know why we havent but I dont really know if I care about another piercing. It just means I have to wear more earrings! I dont wear a lot of jewelry so I dont know. Mindy and I talked about cutting our hair short cuz weve both had long hair with bangs since we were little girls. But I dont think were doing that either. She said her Papa would be too sad if she cut her hair! lol Germana said we should get a tatoo but we arent doing that either. Heres my schedule for high school: Dance with Miss Matthewson Peer Counseling with Ms. Alfred Woodshop with Mr. Madison English with Ms. Gaines I got all the same classes cept for woodshop. Really I dont know if I got the name right but thats ok. We didnt do much today just learn about safety. We have to know how to use the tools b4 hell even let us touch them! Mindy wanted to be in it too cuz she wants to make staffs like Flower does. But she has too many other classes she has to take. But were both in dance at high school and computers at college. In Dance were already practicing for the dance concert. Really we started that last semester. But guess whos in our class? V. P.! He was in my beginning class hes a really good dancer. Hes choreographing one of the dances which is cool. I have to find somebody to ask to the Valentines Dance! Nobodys asked me to go cept Deno. I want to date other guys. But its like how can I just go with friends after I told Deno I wouldnt go with him? I dont want to hurt his feelings. I like Deno hes a sweet guy. But I dont know. He wants to do everything with me! And I had to explain about the coven again. I guess I could have esbats for the new moon cuz my new coven doesnt do that. Maybe Ill have one this month. We got Imbolc on Thursday and theres a lot happening! Austra will be an initiate and Im helping her prepare. Mindy will become a Lesser Priestess shell be the first one in my new coven! And Tamber will become our High Priest! Im glad everybody agreed cuz we really need a High Priest. If u just have a High Priestess and not a High Priest its not balanced. Well have ten members theres only room for three more! Really we need another guy. But Deno isnt ready yet. Tomorrow Mindy has her first college class! Yay Mindy! later Germana couldnt spend the night tonight but thats ok. I still dont like being by myself especially on Monday nights cuz the stores closed all day. But really I had so much to do with school starting that it was ok. Tuesday January 31 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Loni asked me again about babysitting Shari this weekend. Sharis is sweet but I do not want to spend all weekend babysitting! Really I cant anyway cuz Im helping Becky move and then Sunday is Super Bowl Sunday. I need to babysit another kid after school so I can make more money. Mindy said shes going to help me find somebody. She knows a lot of ppl more than me. Ok I want to tell u about our class! Mindy and I r both taking Computers at college with Mr. Benson. We both like him hes fun! He has a really cool website he makes a lot of pictures. Really the class will be easy cuz Mindy and I already use the Internet all the time! lol Mindy had to get permission cuz shes only 14 and shes taking six classes in high school. But shes really smart! She always gets all As in her classes. |
| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| I couldnt ride Del cuz he hurt himself poor Del! |
| Aunt Lizzie gave Becky a massage too and that helped even though it made her think of her Daddy. |
| Mindy made me promise I wouldnt tell anybody at our Wiccan meeting what we did. |
| We talked more about Wicca and what it means to be Wiccan and also about channeling the forces of nature. |
| Im still thinking about what I did with my precious Tinkie. |
| Becky said she wanted to go to Aunt Lizzies. |
| Shes going to a nudist Valentines Day party! |
| We rode horses today. I like being in the country at Aunt Lizzie's house. |
| Heres my schedule for high school. |
| Tomorrow I go back to school. I wish I was still on vacation! |
| Germana got her belly button pierced! |
| I need to babysit another kid after school so I can make more money |
| I asked Mindy when she wanted me to change her again? |
| Becky started sucking her thumb and looking at my chest! lol |