| JaNuArY 25 - 26 2006 |
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| Wednesday January 25 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS The semesters over and I have a four day weekend! Yay! Deno asked me to the Valentines Day Dance I knew he would! Its like how many times do I have to tell him I want to try dating somebody else? I like Deno hes sweet so dont think anything bad about him. But I straight up do not want a regular boyfriend right now. I have to date somebody else! Oh and Deno is asking about coming to my new coven meetings too. Really I dont think its fair that he cant! I thought Imbolc would be open but it wont be cuz were initiating Austra and making Mindy a Lesser Priestess. But Ill be teaching about Wicca this weekend so I can talk to him then. I want to write my plans. After babysitting Mindy, Germana, Kayla and I r seeing Memoirs of a Geisha. Then Thursday Mindy is spending the night. Ill write more later! later The movie was great! Mindy and Germana and I really liked it but Kayla didnt I dont know why. Kayla said she didnt care if we had a birthday party for her and Crystal together! I have to check with Goldina cuz its close to her birthday too. Becky is moving the first weekend of February and Im helping her so we cant have it then. The Valentines Day Dance is the next weekend so I think well have it the weekend after that. I want to have a coed sleepover but not everybody can go to those which is stupid. Nobodys going to have sex with a whole group of ppl there watching! lol We might make the party coed and the sleepover part just girls. Kayla said she could help me get a job at the pizza place but I dont know. If I can babysit Shari regular with Kim and Rodney Ill make more money an hour babysitting! And I can do homework while Im sitting but I couldnt working at a restaurant. Ok I wanted to tell u my plans. Im not going to Uncle Oz timeshare of course but I think well call him. Tomorrow Im spending the night with Mindy and I am definitely changing her diaper! She really wants me to so shes not changing her mind this time! lol Friday Im tutoring Austra, Deno, Kayla, Ella, Wendi, and Carol, and Mindys helping me. I wish Germana could be there too but she cant. I want to have it in Mindys treehouse cuz its private and its warm with the heater. Saturday Im going to Beckys to help her move and Germana might come with me. Mindy wants to help but she cant cuz well be gone all weekend. Becky and everybody isnt moving this weekend but they have to pack. Ill see Cassie Saturday or Sunday, and also Herbie and Miss Sasha and their family, and of course Daddy and my cuzins. Then Monday Im back in school! Thursday January 26 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Tonight was beautiful! I didnt do much today just help in the antique store a little. Aunt Lizzie said I could come over this weekend but of course I told her Im going to see Becky and Daddy and my cuzins. I wish Becky didnt have to move and she doesnt want to move either! Aunt Lizzie asked me about Uncle Oz. I know they arent really a couple but I think she wishes she could have gone on the timeshare with him! I think he took another lady but Im not sure. Mindy came over and we had dinner with my family then we went to my crib. I told her tonight she would be my baby! Poor Mindy was really nervous. She wanted to change her mind but I wouldnt let her! She says shes glad I didnt. Shes here with me as I write this. Im writing this Friday but this is what happened Thursday. First I wanted to do what Muffin said. He said it would be easier for Mindy if I acted like she was my baby b4 I changed her diaper. So I told Mindy I wanted to dress her first just like she was my baby. But she wanted to dress herself! And I was like Mindy if u were my baby u wouldnt be doing that! But she said shed feel better if she started that way so I said ok. So she started to go in the bathroom to change. But then she said “I think the diapers r too old.” And I was like “Mindy diapers dont have an expiration date!” lol Really we just got them two months ago anyway. So she changed in the bathroom. But she didnt even want me in there! Silly Mindy! We take showers and baths together naked and sleep together naked and Im in the bathroom lots of times when she pees. Ok I wont tease u anymore Mindy. Really I wanted to do whatever would make her comfortable. I put on my Mommy clothes first. Thats my long white nightgown with the Pink Panther and pink trim. I wore white panties but I wore something else Mindy didnt know about. I wrote a nursing bra! It was hard to find cuz they dont make many of them for A cup. Ur boobs get bigger when ur nursing but of course Im not really nursing. Anyway I found one thats white and hooks in back. Each cup has a hook where u can pull it down and expose ur breast for nursing. Mindy took forever to change. Im sorry Mindy but u did! She says it was just cuz she was nervous. I was hoping she wouldnt be nervous but thats ok. She had her hair in pigtails tied with white ribbons cuz thats what she wore a lot as a baby. They have a lot of pictures of her that way. She wore her baby clothes which means a pink and white top with pink sleeves and back. The front part is white and looks like a bib and has Hello Kitty on it. She wore her fluffy pink slippers on her feet and a white diaper downstairs! She was so cute! She didnt want me to change her diaper right away so first I just held her. Shes my precious little Tinkie! I talked to her like I talk to babies. But she didnt talk at all. She had her purple pacifier in her mouth thats her favorite. I didnt really say much just “I love u Tinkie” and “hows Mommys precious baby?” She cooed for me which was soo sweet! Then I said “is baby Tinkie hungry?” She pointed to her pacifier so I thought she meant she wanted me to take it out of her mouth so she could nurse me. But she told me later that was her letting me know she wouldnt talk! But I told her I always ask babies questions even when I know they cant answer. Anyway I took it out and then pulled my nightgown down. Really I think I should have pulled it up cuz I stretched it a little but thats ok. Mindy looked really surprised to see I was wearing a white nursing bra! Oh she says she was surprised to see me wearing a bra cuz I never wear one under a nightgown. She didnt even know it was a nursing bra til I opened it up for her! I unhooked it and exposed my left breast to my baby. My breasts arent big they barely fill an A cup. But my nipple was erect. It was ready to be nursed! lol So I held Mindy so her head was by my breast. She took my nipple in her mouth and started suckling me. I love when she suckles my nipple. I wish I had real milk to give her but of course I dont. I love nursing my precious Tinkie. Then I did something I didnt do b4. I burped her! lol Oh she says she thought that would be too hard for me cuz shes not really a little baby. But really it was fine. U can do it if u lean against a pillow thats by the wall. I was going to fix my nursing bra but I just took it off. Then I just held her for a little while and rocked her. She sucked on her pacifier and looked like she was going to fall asleep! It was really sweet. Then I said “I better check to see if baby Tinkie needs changing.” But then she got nervous! She held onto my hand like she was afraid for me to check! So I just said “its ok Tinkie let Mommy take care of u.” So finally she let me check her. But she was still dry anyway. So I held her a little longer. Then I said “if baby Tinkie has to pee its ok. Mommy checked ur diaper and its on fine.” I thought she might be afraid of leaks. But then she whispered to me and said “I cant pee!” So I figured she didnt drink enough. Then I was like of course she didnt cuz my breasts dont have any milk! Duh! So I was going to feed her from a bottle but I forgot to get a bottle. We still have some of Matthews he doesnt need so I dont know why I forgot to get one. I guess its just cuz I thinking of nursing Tinkie at my breast not from a bottle. So anyway I got her some water but she had to drink it from a cup. Really thats ok cuz lots of older babies can drink from cups and still wear diapers. Matthew and Casey still wore diapers when they were walking around and even talking. Mindy just wanted to drink a little but I made her drink a lot. I said “baby needs water!” lol Then I thought shed be ready. So I said “is baby Tinkie ready to go pee pee?” She moved off my lap and got on the bed. But I could tell she was nervous! So I said “its ok baby Tinkie. Mommy checked ur diaper so its not going to leak. And even if it did Mommy has a plastic sheet over the mattress and Mommy can wash her other sheets. I have lots of clean sheets for baby Tinkie.” But she said “I cant!” At first I thought she meant she couldnt pee at all. But she meant she was afraid to! I wanted to see if Muffin was online so he could help her. But I told her “Mindy youve peed with me here lots of times!” But she said “not in a diaper Lorien!” So I had to tell her I was sorry for calling her Mindy. She was my baby in a past life and her name then wasnt Mindy! She wanted to think of herself as a baby not as 14 years old. So I called her Tinkie lots of times. But she still didnt pee! So finally I started reading her stories. Theres some about adult babies on the Internet that Mindy really likes. I read one that talks about peeing in a diaper and somebody changing the baby. Then I thought Tinkie was finally ready! I helped her lie on the bed but she wanted to sit up. I kissed her and held her. Then I said “ok baby Tinkie its time to go pee pee!” I knew she wanted to but she felt a little afraid. But then she did something that was really sweet. She held my hand! She held onto my hand really tight. Then she looked like she was thinking hard. And then it happened. My Tinkie started peeing in her diaper! She just did it a little at first cuz she was nervous. But I said “thats ok Tinkie pee it all out for Mommy.” So then she did some more. And then she let it go! Finally she was finished. Then this was really cute. She even cried a little! It wasnt a real cry but I knew she needed to be changed! So I started to change her and then she started to say something. I knew she was going to tell me she wasnt ready. So I just put my finger over her mouth and said “quiet baby Tinkie. Mommys going to change u now.” So I got my old big yellow towel cuz thats what her Mama used to use. I guess her Papa did too cuz they both changed her. She didnt want to lie down all the way so I put pillows behind her head so she could lie down while she was leaning on them. Then I started to undo her diaper and she held my hand like she didnt want me to! But I knew she did. So I said “its ok baby Tinkie Mommys going to change u.” So finally she let me. It was different changing her diaper cuz Ive only done it on babies and really little kids. But it was fun! She thought it would be totally wet but of course the diaper absorbed almost all the pee. So I took a baby wipe and wiped her off. If u dont know u have to wipe girls from front to back. So u wash them downstairs in front and the middle first and then do their butt. Really I do boys that way too. Mindys totally shaved downstairs but she only had five lap hairs anyway! Oh she says she didnt shave she plucked them out but of course I knew that. She plucked them again b4 she came over so shed have no hair downstairs at all. I got her wiped off and then I held up her feet again. I took the dirty diaper off and put the clean one underneath her. Mindy is small but she weighs more than a little baby! lol It was different but it worked ok. And of course I didnt have to pick her all the way up just lift her feet and legs and her little baby bottom! Oh she says she lifted herself up for me and leaned on her back and arms. Anyway it worked ok! Then I put baby powder on her lap and her bottom and then taped the clean diaper on her. Then this was so sweet cuz she just hugged me and hugged me! She said “I love u so much Mommy!” And of course I said “I love u so much Tinkie!” And u know I got all teary eyed. It was so special! She wanted to nurse me again but of course I already took off the nursing bra. But when she nursed me b4 I didnt wear one anyway. Oh Mindy just said she likes me not wearing a nursing bra cuz when shes nursing on one breast she can look at the other one. Isnt that sweet? So I nursed her some more. After Mindy wanted to take a shower. I told her she didnt need one cuz I just cleaned her! But she wanted to so we took a shower together. I wanted to give Mindy a bath I wish I had a bathtub! Cuz u dont give babies a shower. But we didnt take the shower as Mommy and Tinkie we took at as Lorien and Mindy. Oh she says we took it as Cuppy and Tinkie! lol We washed each other with our Sponge Bobs so that was sweet. Oh this is really funny. Mindy never told me this b4. Guess what they used to call her pussy when she was little? Her chiweewee! LMAO Some girls give theirs a name but I never did. I guess some guys name their cocks too. Anyway next time I change her Ill ask her if she has to go wee wee! lol She says wee wee was her Mama and Papas word so I can say pee pee. She calls Ima Mama not Mommy. Mommy is her name for me when shes my baby. After our shower we dried each other off. Then we did cuddles together naked which was really sweet. Mindy even suckled me some more which I really like. I guess thats why women have babies so they can be suckled a lot! LMAO j/k |
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| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
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| My DiArY! |
| I wrote a nursing bra! |
| She didnt want me to change her diaper right away so first I just held her. Shes my precious little Tinkie! |
| Really I dont think its fair that Deno cant come to our coven meetings! |
| Nobodys going to have sex with a whole group of ppl there watching! lol |
| Tonight was beautiful! |
| Muffin said it would be easier for Mindy if I acted like she was my baby b4 I changed her diaper. |
| I held Mindy so her head was by my breast. |
| I made her drink a lot. |
| Then I started to undo her diaper and she held my hand like she didnt want me to! But I knew she did. |
| “Is baby Tinkie ready to go pee pee?” |
| Then she did something that was really sweet. She held my hand! |
| She wanted to so we took a shower together. |
| How many times do I have to tell Deno I want to try dating somebody else? |
| “I better check to see if baby Tinkie needs changing.” |