JaNuArY 15 - 19 2006
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Sunday January 15 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

It is so hard to study at my cuzins! The kids r everywhere! And
really I cant study at Beckys either. Germanas there now so
who knows what theyre doing? :o I have to study cuz this week
is finals!

Really I think I should just go back to my crib where its quiet.
But Germana wants to stay longer. I really want to see my old
school friends but I have to study!

later

U wont believe where I went to study. Herbies! It was cool cuz I
got to talk to Miss Sasha a little and also to Lena. Miss Sasha
doesnt drive much so somebody will be picking her up for our
meetings. That means an hour trip both ways but we dont mind.
I think shell spend the night at Goldinas house so she wont
have to go back right away.

Herbie is still asking me if Im dating anybody! I had to tell him
not right now cuz I couldnt lie to him. I have to start dating! This
is supposed to be a trial separation but its not a trial if Im only
dating one person! Anyway at least I can study when Im with
Herbie. Were taking different classes of course but we could
still help each other.

Mindy and I really want to talk to Miss Sasha about writing
stories cuz of course shes a famous Wiccan author. Mindys
with me now. But we cant really tell her about the secret book
were writing cuz I dont know what shed think! Some ppl might
think it makes fun of the Goddess but really it doesnt. The God
and Goddess have a sense of humor too! Some aspects r
even jokers! Eris is a real aspect of Goddess and Crow is a
real aspect of God.

Anyway Stacy and Carie want me to go to one of their
gymnastics competition and really I want to and Mindy does
too. Stacy does gymnastics for fun but Carie is really serious
she even has a professional coach. Stacys wins awards and
Caries won a lot. She might even go to the state competition!
Its cool cuz of course I used to babysit Carie when she was
little. Im proud of them both!

Theyre both 12 now. Stacy doesnt care thats shes growing the
body of a woman but Carie is totally worried about it. Gymnasts
have to stay thin. But when u get close to puberty u start
gaining weight especially in the hips and later in the chest. And
that can throw off ur balance! But really I dont think Carie has
anything to worry about. She still has the body of a little girl.

Its weird cuz it bothers Mindy that she looks like a little girl but
Carie wants to! Of course Mindys starting to develop. Her
nipples have gotten puffy and she had some lap hairs til she
plucked them all out. I dont know why she did that! Ok she says
she thought she looked funny with just five hairs. But I think it
looked cute!

Oh Mindy and I have decided were finally going to do
something. Were going to get another piercing in our ears! We
were going to do that like months ago I dont know why we didnt.
We both have one piercing in each ear and no others, we both
have long dark brown hair with bangs even though Mindys is a
little darker, we both have brown eyes, and we dont have any
tatoos. We even talked about cutting our hair short cuz weve
both had long hair with straight bangs like forever. Mommy cuts
both our hair so she could do it. But I dont know. It takes so
long to grow back!

I wish Mindy and I had an apartment together. I really dont like
living by myself. But I dont want to live with Mommy and
everybody and I dont want to live with Daddy and my cuzins
either. But my crib is too small for two ppl really its small for me!
And Mindy just has her bedroom. We could live in the tree
house but thats small too!

Oh Mindy just said I could get a doll to live with me! lol I have
dolls of course but I mean one of the ones we look at on the
Internet. If u dont know they have these dolls that look totally
real theyre beautiful. U can get men and women and boys and
girls even babies. But theyre really spenny! They cost like
hundreds of dollars even thousands! But the ones u can buy
from Japan r cheaper. And some of them u can do things with!
;)

Ok Im going to do something with Mindy so buh bye!

later

Mindy needs a spanking! LMAO j/k If u dont know shes been
looking at adult baby sites like forever. She wants me to
change her just like I did in a past life cuz I was her Mommy. But
she keeps getting nervous! She only wore a diaper here once
and then she didnt even use it. Im like Mindy I changed ur
diaper lots of times in a past life and Ive changed wet diapers in
this life like a million times! Its not like she wants to poop in
them or something. Really even if she did Id do that for her too.
But she just wants to pee. And I even got Matthews old plastic
cover for my bed so we dont have to worry about leaks. But
she said we didnt have time cuz I had to study for finals. But we
had time to do sharies!
;)

So I told Mindy when we have the four day weekend Im
changing u! Thats in like two weeks. Were going to get our
ears pierced then too and Germana might get her belly button
pierced too. Wendi wants to but I dont know if she can.

I dont think Im going on the timeshare this month with Uncle Oz.
I really want to but I cant bring any friends. Theres only room
enough for four ppl and he already has two coming. Really
Uncle Oz might want to bring a lady anyway. He might have
wanted to be alone with Nataline more the last time I went on a
timeshare with him even though he said he didnt. But Im really
glad I went. I never get to spend time alone with Uncle Oz
anymore so it was very special.

Monday January 16 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I am tired of studying I have to take a break!

Let me tell u our idea. We want to cheer up Becky. So
Germana said we should have a birthday party for Crystal! lol If
u dont know Crystal is the name on Beckys fake ID. Crystal is
21 and Becky is 17 of course. But Crystals birthday is close to
Valentines Day. So we could have a Valentines Birthday Party!
Well probably have it on a weekend cuz I think Valentines Day
in on a Wednesday. It could be fun! Well have a birthday party
for somebody whos not even real! lol

Oh and Germana said shes definitely getting her belly button
pierced so Mindy and Germana and I can get piercings
together. Mindy and I r just getting another one in our ears but
it should be fun. I hope we can get Wendi to do it too but she
cant tell her parents. Well have a piercing party! So thats two
parties that arent real parties! lol

later

I decided not to have anybody spend the night so I could study
and thats a mistake! I dont like being here alone at night cuz
the antique store is closed all day Monday so it feels empty.

Mindy and I went shopping cuz I had to get away from here! We
got these matching tops that r cute. Theyre red T shirts with
white letters and they say Brat, Princess, Nice, and Naughty
and theres a box by each word. But the only boxes checked r
the ones that say Brat and Naughty! lol Really I wish Princess
was checked too cuz of course thats what Herbie called me.

I really miss Herbie. Its almost like when I left my old coven it
broke a bond. I know really it didnt and we broke up like six
months ago. Our covens r sister covens so were still linked.
And of course Miss Sasha whos our Elder Priestess is Herbies
grandmother. But that feels weird too. Shes in my coven and
not his! And then its weird cuz she has to drive an hour here
and I wasnt driving an hour there! Maybe I should have. But I
couldnt drive! But of course she doesnt drive much either. I
dont know it just seems weird.

I thought of Herbie as just a friend for a long time. But he
wanted to be my boyfriend for years! Then we were for two
years and then I broke up so I could date other ppl. But all Im
dating is Deno!

Ok Im ready to decide something. I will date somebody else!
But I straight up dont know who.

Tuesday January 17 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Im tired of studying! I got finals for college this week then high
school next week.

I babysat Shari and she was sweet. Shes 5 and goes to
kindergarten. And Kim helped me! Really Kim did a good job
cept she kept wanting to tell Shari everything she had to do! lol
Rodney was good too.

I hope I can babysit Shari regular but I dont know if that will
happen. I need more money! And really its as easy to babysit
three as it is two.

This is funny cuz later I was chatting and Mindy called me and
said “r u doing ur homework?” lol She was acting like she was
my Mommy! Thats ok I love u Mindy!

Wednesday January 18 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I have my Spanish final tonight but Im not even going to write
about that. I want to think about dating but I dont have time for
that either! lol

later

I had my Spanish final and I think I did good. I want to get an A
for the class I hope I do! Una A es mui bien!

Thursday January 19 2006

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I had my American History final I hope I did ok! Im not sure cuz I
think I answered two essays wrong! I hope not. I got all As and
A- one time in high school and college and I want to do that
again. But I dont know.

Loni wants me to babysit Shari on Saturday but thats my
weekend! I dont know. Really I want to babysit Shari the same
time I do Kim and Rodney cuz that means more money. And I
dont know how long Charlotte will want me to babysit Kim
anymore anyway. I tell Kim Im just her sitter not her babysitter
cuz of course shes not a baby. Shes only 10 but shes a woman
by nature. Really I dont think Charlotte would have me do it
anymore cept for Rodney. Rodney isnt a prob but sometimes
he and Kim have problems when theyre together.

Ok I want to talk about my boyfriend cuz I dont have one! I
really like Herbie of course and really miss him but I know I
wrote that like a million times. I have to date somebody other
than Deno. The Valentines Dance is in like three weeks and I
want to go and I want to have a date! I know Deno will ask me
but I want to go with somebody else. But nobodys asking me!

Germana said I should ask a guy but I dont know. Oh Mindy
says I should too. I know girls can do that of course but I never
do it! Mexi said guys can be flattered if theyre asked. But who
do I ask? Im really not hanging with very many guys right now.
Really the only guys I do anything with r Herbie and Deno. Of
course Hunter and Becky r separated right now but Hunter
goes to my old high school. I am not driving an hour to date
Beckys old boyfriend! lol And really they might get back
together again anyway. Allen is in Texas and last time I saw him
he liked Becky better anyway. Mindy says he just started
making out with her cuz I had a boyfriend but that was after I
just broke up and Becky had a boyfriend! Oh Mindy means she
thinks Allen likes girls better who have a boyfriend! :o I dont
know but that would be weird! Anyway then there was Bud but
he doesnt live close either. Isnt there any guy here who likes
me?

Germana said I should talk to Les cuz hes new but I really dont
know him. Hes in my English class which sucks for him cuz he
moved here right b4 the semester ends. I wish I was like
Germana or Becky cuz its easy for them to meet guys. Its hard
for Mindy too.

I still dont know whats happening with Beckys house. They
have a buyer but now I think even Kay doesnt want to move!
But they might have to which is totally unfair. U should be able
to change ur mind.

Im nervous about telling Austra about our connection tomorrow.
Of course Goldina will help me but still.

later

Guess what Mindy promised me? She promised shell let me
change her diaper next weekend! Yay Mindy! She really wants
me to do it shes just embarrassed. But I was her Mommy in a
past life so dont be embarrassed Tinkie!
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Theyre both 12
now. Stacy doesnt
care thats shes
growing the body
of a woman but
Carie is totally
worried about it.
I told Mindy when
we have the four
day weekend Im
changing u!
Well have a
birthday party
for somebody
whos not even
real!
Herbie is still
asking me if Im
dating anybody!
Mindy and I
really want to
talk to Miss
Sasha about
writing stories
cuz of course
shes a famous
Wiccan author.
Mindy and I have
decided were
finally going to do
something.
They have
these dolls that
look totally real
theyre beautiful.
I dont like being
here alone at
night cuz the
antique store is
closed all day
Monday so it
feels empty.
I got finals for
college this week
then high school
next week.
I want to talk
about my
boyfriend cuz I
dont have one!
I need more
money!
I had my last
college final for
this semester I
hope I did ok!
I wish I was like
Germana or
Becky cuz its easy
for them to meet
guys.
It is so hard to
study at my
cuzins! The kids r
everywhere!
I really miss
Herbie.