| JaNuArY 5 - 8 2006 |
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| Thursday January 5 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS My branch is meeting Saturday to prepare for being our own coven. I cant believe it will happen in a week! Really Saturdays not a good day but Saturday lunchtime is the only time everybody could meet. I was going to see Daddy and my cuzins but Ill do that next weekend. I dont have to go every weekend! later U straight up wont believe what Flower told Mindy and me! Im writing this Friday but this is what happened Thursday. First we all had dinner with my family which was fun. Everybody likes Flower. I usually do laundry at Mindys on Thursdays but I did it at Page and Perrys while we had dinner. We just watched TV and chilled and then went to my crib. Then we talked about dating cuz Mindy and I r teaching Flower. She really doesnt know much about boys I mean about dating. We gave her another kissing lesson cuz she wanted to practice. And dont think we did Frenchies with her cuz we didnt! lol She just practiced kissing her hand by making finger lips. I already wrote how to do that b4 so I wont repeat it! lol Anyway we started talking about what u do on a date. She wasnt sure what u wear on a date but we said its different with different dates. If Im going to a dance I like to wear a dress or skirt but u dont have to a lot of girls dont. But usually to go to a movie u just wear pants or shorts when its hot. Most guys like shorts. Also u want to think about ur body so u can wear clothes that work. I dont wear a lot of pants with prints cuz it makes my butt look bigger. And dont wear too much perfume cuz most guys just like a little. I dont wear a lot of makeup either. Anyway I wont write everything u can wear on a date! lol But its good to dress so ur comfortable cuz u want to be comfortable especially on ur first date! The most important thing for a date is to decide what u want to do first. U have to know how far u want to go b4 u go on the date. Do u just want to hold hands or do Frenchies or cuddles? Or r ready to go upstairs or even downstairs? I never do more than French kiss on a first date but everybodys different. I think if u do too much with a guy at first hell lose interest in u. Some girls go on a date and the guy wants to do things they arent really ready for. But if u dont decide what u want to do b4 ur with a guy u might do something ull regret! Cuz when ur with a guy u can get all excited and u cant think straight! And u might be afraid that if u dont do something he wants to do he wont want u anymore. But if he says he wont be interested if u dont go farther than u want to then let him go! Its straight up not worth it. Flower said all shes ready to do with a guy is hold hands and hug him. But she said she might want to give Bobbie a KOTL for his birthday! lol But shes afraid hell want to do more and then hell be disappointed. We told her the best thing is to tell him what u want to do and that u wont go any farther. Really I do KOTL with guys who r friends or relatives but thats me. U have to do whats right for u. But Mindy and I r excited for Flower! Mindy said shes sure Bobbie would like a KOTL so Flowers going to go for it! lol Then we started talking about sex. Of course Flowers not going to have sex with anybody! lol She knows some things about it cuz her parents taught her. They told her that schools straight up wouldnt teach her what she needed to know. Perry says that too. He said schools only teach u what politicians tell them to teach which I guess is true. Really my parents didnt teach me much about sex either. Mommy taught me a little but not a lot. And I didnt really learn anything in school I didnt know already. I first learned about sex when I was 6 but I didnt understand it. I saw some pics my cuzin B.J. had but I didnt really know what it was. Ms. Adelman taught me a little and I know she would have taught me more but she died when I was 10 1/2. I learned most of it from my older sister Brandy and from the Internet. U can learn a lot from the Internet but u have to be careful cuz a lot of it isnt true. Really I wish I could have learned more from Mommy. Then Mindy and Flower and I talked about masterbation and guess what? Flowers never masterbated! I couldnt believe it! I and all my friends did it when we were little and Flowers 11 1/2! Ella didnt know how to do it right til we showed her this website that shows u how. But still she tried it b4. Mindy and I told Flower we could look for the website for her cuz I couldnt remember where it was. But she said she didnt think she was ready! And I was like how can u not be ready to masterbate? We said that was ok she didnt have to. But I dont know. Really I think masterbating is like nudism. Nudism is not sex so dont think that! But theyre both about body acceptance. Being naked with ppl at a nude beach or a nudist party helps u accept ur body and the way u look. It shows u that ppl just look like regular ppl they dont all look like models. So then u can feel better about the way u look. Really its easier when ur naked cuz u dont have to hide anything u can just be urself. Masterbation teaches u that its ok to touch ur body. Its like if u think ur dirty or something downstairs then ull be ashamed of urself. It makes it seem like sex is dirty and something bad but its not. And doing sharies can be a beautiful experience. Really I think some girls have sex with a guy when they arent ready cuz theyre afraid to do things for themselves! If u can take care of urself and share with ur friends then u wont have to run to some guy to take care of u. And if u feel good about urself u wont want to. Not til ur really ready. We didnt talk about it a lot cuz we didnt want Flower to feel bad. Shes a great girl! I wish she was Wiccan cuz shed be great in our coven. But thats ok. We dont believe theres only one true religion. Even Baptists can be a true religion even though they dont understand theres a Goddess. Nature isnt all male! But there isnt only one path. And even some Christians understand that there is a God and Goddess and they think of the Goddess as Mary. Cuz really Catholics r Christians too. Anyway finally we went to bed and then we gave each other backrubs! It was really sweet. Mindy even fell asleep! lol Friday January 6 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I thought I was going to take Flower to her middle school b4 Mindy and I got picked up. But Mexi gave her a ride so that was cool. Mindy and I always ride to school with Germana and Mexi. Of course I can drive everybody now. Flower didnt want Mindy and I to tell anybody she plans to kiss Bobbie for his birthday tonight! lol She still doesnt know how shes going to ask him if he wants her to. But we told her we know he does! Mindy and Flower want me to go but really I think Bobbie should be the person to ask me. Its not a big birthday party and I didnt think I could go cuz I thought Id be with my cuzins. If u dont know Bobbies 13 today so hes a teenager! later Flower had fun at Bobbies b-day party but she didnt kiss him! She said she wanted to but she never had a chance cuz there were too many ppl there. Mindy told her that nobody would be mad but Flower was embarrassed. Really I think shed be a great girlfriend for him but I dont know if she can date yet. She hasnt asked her parents yet. Flower and Mindy and I might spend next Friday night together after the dance concert. I really like Flower but I dont know about something. I know Mindy will read this but Im going to write it anyway! lol I got diapers for Mindy like weeks ago and even got her to wear one. Cuz of course shes wanted to for a long time. But she only did it once and she didnt use it even though I told her I dont mind changing wet diapers. Some ppl might think its weird but a lot of ppl do it! Really I think its sweet cuz she was my baby in a past life. U know I changed her lots of times then. I think changing her will be a special kind of sharing. But Mindys nervous. U dont have to be nervous Mindy! Saturday January 7 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS We had our branch meeting and there were some surprises! And I learned something really kewl but I cant tell u yet! First let me tell u who was there. It was Miss Sasha, Goldina, Mindy, Ella, Carol, Germana, Wendi, Tamber, and me. Were all branch members cept Germana and Wendi who will be next weekend and Tamber who we had to decide on. We talked about a lot of things but I wont list them all. Some of it is private and just for my branch members anyway. But we wanted to decide some things b4 we become our own coven and we did! First of course we accepted Miss Sasha as an Elder Priestess and Goldina as our High Priestess. Im a Priestess, Mindy and Ella and Carol r Initiates, and Germana and Wendi will be. My coven just used Initiate, full Wiccan, High Priest and Priestess and Elder Priest and Priestess even though we never had an Elder Priest. Some covens just have three levels and some call them first, second, and third level initiate. Each coven is different. In my new coven Initiate is somebody we accept whos studied Wicca for at least a year and a day. Priest and Priestess is someone whos been a Wiccan for at least a year and a day thats ready. High Priest and Priestess will be someone whos really experienced whos been Wiccan for years and theyll be the coven leaders. Of course we dont have a High Priest yet but me might! Then Elder Priest and Priestess is someone whos had even more experience than a High Priest or Priestess. But we might call somebody Wiccan whos ready to be a Priest or Priestess but hasnt had a period or emission yet. Really I hope we do cuz then Mindy could be a full Wiccan! But well decide that after we become a coven. Well have ceremonies for the full moons and for the lesser and greater sabbats. But full moon esbats wont have to be on the exact day of the full moon they can be the day b4 or after whichever is closest. We can celebrate the new moons if we want to of course but that wont be as a coven. Theres more but I wont write everything. Well have an agreement that well all sign next weekend. We saw the agreement but were making a couple little changes. Ok let me tell u the surprises! First Miss Sasha and Goldina both think Austra is ready to be an initiate! I didnt think they did but really it was somebody in my old coven who didnt. Im glad cuz I think shes ready too and all my branch does! She doesnt have much time to get ready but Germanas going to help her and Mindy and I r too if she wants to do it! She said she has to think about it which really is good. Austra is very organized she plans everything and thinks b4 she does things. If shell join then Mindy, Germana, Wendi, Austra, and I will spend the night together Monday at Germanas house so Mindy and I can help everybody get prepared. I wanted to do it at my crib but theres straight up not room! Miss Sasha told me something else about Austra thats really kewl! But sorry I cant write all of it. Now I know why Miss Sasha always asked me a lot of questions about her! But all I can write is I have to work with Austra to help her get ready. I know Germana and Mindy will want to know more but Im sorry I cant tell u its a secret! lol The other surprise is we voted to make Tamber a member! It had to be unanimous of course. Miss Sasha really thinks we need a guy so we can be balanced. Really I do too. I dont know him really well but Miss Sasha and Goldina do. Hes had a lot of experience. Hes been Wiccan for years and joined a coven when he was 18 cuz they said he had to be an adult by mans law. We dont believe that of course but thats ok. I think that was 13 years ago. Ive only been Wiccan for six years but I joined my coven when I was 13 1/2. Tamber even led a lot of ceremonies cuz they didnt have a High Priest. So well have a Priest with a lot of experience which is good! Its weird cuz well be starting with a lot of members! If Austra joins well have Miss Sasha, Goldina, Tamber, Mindy, Ella, Carol, Wendi, Germana, Austra, and me thats ten ppl! We can only have three more! My old coven started with five. Oh and were going to make most of our esbats just for our coven and maybe for my old coven cuz we might do some together. But most of our sabbats will be open to other ppl. I cant wait for Saturday! Sunday January 8 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I really dont like living by myself. Its cool when I have friends here on the weekend or theyre spending the night. But nights r too quiet when Im by myself. And during the day theres always ppl wandering around the antique store. I cant even come home or leave without ppl being here. Its not too bad on school days cuz theres nobody here when I leave so Im not walking through customers. And then after I go to high school or college and babysit I have dinner with everybody so when I go to my crib the stores already closed. But on Saturdays and Sundays theres ppl here walking around right outside my bedroom door! Its always locked of course but still it feels weird. Thats why I like seeing Daddy and my cuzins and my old school friends on weekends. I always have somebody spend the night with me on Mondays cuz the stores closed all day and that feels weird too. Especially when its a Monday holiday and Im home all day with nobody here. But I really dont want to live with Page and Perry either! Mommy and Page argue all the time theyre worse than Mommy and Daddy were. Perrys always talking conspiracies but of course I know a lot of them r true. I dont know how to say this but its weird how Aunt Ebee and Uncle Frankie talk to each other. Its almost like Aunt Ebee is the queen and Uncle Frankie is her slave or something. Hes always doing stuff for her like getting her a soda or fixing her pillow or whatever. I guess he likes doing it but I dont know. I think Id like my own apartment if I had a roomie. Like if I had a crib with Mindy or Becky or Laura or Germana or something. We could each have our own room like a two bedroom apartment. Really it could even be a few of my friends if we had a house. And I really miss having a bathtub. I can take a bath at Page and Perrys or at Mindys but its not the same as having one in my own house. I dont want to take a bath and then have to go home! Ok I really should be doing homework and getting ready for tomorrow! |
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| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
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| My DiArY! |
| If u can take care of urself and share with ur friends then u wont have to run to some guy to take care of u. |
| Flower didnt want Mindy and I to tell anybody she plans to kiss Bobbie for his birthday tonight! |
| U straight up wont believe what Flower told Mindy and me! |
| We started talking about what u do on a date. |
| Then we started talking about sex. |
| Masterbation and nudism r both about body acceptance. |
| I think Flower would be a great girlfriend for Bobby. |
| We had our branch meeting and there were some surprises! |
| The other surprise is we voted to make Tamber a member! |
| My Wiccan branch had a lot to decide. |
| Miss Sasha and Goldina both think Austra is ready to be an initiate! |
| I really dont like living by myself. |
| I think Id like my own apartment if I had a roomie. |
| My branch is meeting Saturday to prepare for being our own coven. |
| I think changing Mindy will be a special kind of sharing. |