| JaNuArY 2 - 4 2006 |
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| Monday January 2 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I dreamt Uncle Oz was giving me a backrub. This was weird though but he was in my room at the timeshare only there was a fireplace in there too! Of course really there isnt. The fire was making shadows on the wall. But then I looked and the shadows looked like ppl! I looked around and nobody was in my bedroom but me and Uncle Oz. But there were all these shadow ppl! And I almost thought I could hear them talking only it was like whispers. I couldnt understand what they were saying. Oh this is weird too but I was wearing a white blouse and a black skirt just like I had to wear in middle school. And then I wasnt in my bedroom anymore I was at school! I was still in my bed but it was in the cafeteria! Isnt that weird? Then I thought I hope Jules doesnt get mad if he sees me! I dont know why I dreamt that! Jules was my boyfriend in 8th grade. Then Uncle Oz said “Lorien u need to get ready for the beach.” And then I woke up! Isnt that weird? I think that dream means something but I dont know what! Anyway when I woke up Uncle Oz had breakfast ready for me! He knocked on the door and said “would u like breakfast in bed?” Isnt that sweet? He made me hotcakes and bacon and eggs! And I had milk and orange juice. He said there was Diet Coke but I told him I dont like having soda for breakfast. Juice is better for u. Then I said “why dont u have breakfast with me Uncle Oz?” But he said he was going to eat in the kitchen. Then I was like “Why dont u sit here and we can watch TV?” But he said he didnt think he should. Then I said “Uncle Oz. I know ur worried about somebody thinking something. But I straight up am not going to tell anybody that u did anything wrong!” Then he said “I know u arent.” Then I said “then why r u so worried?” But he just said there wasnt really room which of course wasnt true. Anyway we decided to eat breakfast on the couch and watch the Rose Parade. It was raining of course but they still had it. Uncle Oz was wearing blue sweatpants and a T shirt and white socks and I wore my white nightgown and a lavendar robe and my fuzzy brown bear slippers. I didnt match but oh well! Then I held Uncle Oz hand it was fun! He said his thumb was sore so I rubbed it for him. Then this was funny cuz I said “If I can rub ur thumb then why” and then he said “cant I rub ur back?” LMAO It was really funny! But then this was really cool. Cuz he said “I guess ur right. If ppl were going to talk theyd talk just because u spent the night with me.” And I said “Im not saying anything Uncle Oz cuz u havent done anything wrong!” And he said “I know. But Im not rubbing ur back when ur wearing ur nightgown. Maybe later.” So I said “ok!” I was going to take a bath but I took a long one Sunday so I decided to take a shower. Uncle Oz took one too but not with me! LMAO Oh and I thought of a new holiday for our secret club! Be a Kid day! There should be a holiday where u can be a kid again and nobody will think anything. U can get backrubs in ur nightgown and sit on ppls lap and play silly games and even cry for no reason just cuz u feel like crying. And laugh and act silly just cuz u feel like that too! I just feel like doing something totally different something totally immature. Why do I have to act like a teenager or an adult all the time? Really Id like to tell Uncle Oz about our secret club I think hed like it. But I cant without permission. And of course then hed see my diary! Cuz its all on the same site. But he might not know its me cuz I use pseudonyms. But I dont know. Really I think if he read it hed know. Oh Uncle Oz asked me if I wanted to call Bud but I said I didnt. Really I dont even care about Bud. I dont know why I got so excited about it. All he did was kiss me. We called Mommy but of course we just called her yesterday. Then Uncle Oz asked me if I wanted to go to a museum! Really I like museums but most of my friends dont cept Mindy. I want to learn more about culture cuz its not all TV and hip hop! lol They had some really cool paintings. I really liked this one painting of a girl. She looked like she was thinking about things she lost and really missed. I feel that way sometimes. And they had these displays with desert animals. They looked real! They had Indian artifacts too and of course Im part Indian. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live in harmony with the land instead of destroying it. They had old letters too which were cool. I dont write many letters I just do email. The only time I wrote a lot was when I hurt my finger a few years ago and couldnt type very much. It didnt hurt as much to write I dont know why. I really want to go to a big art museum cuz I want to learn more about art. I know some artists online and of course I took an art class in high school. I really cant do it but I like to look at it. Uncle Oz and I got something to eat and then went back. And guess what I said? I said “its time for my backrub!” lol So finally he said “ok!” Uncle Oz didnt want to do it in my bedroom so I lied on the couch. I wore my Pink Panther T shirt and blue jeans and took off my shoes so I just had pink socks. Uncle Oz wore a blue polo shirt and brown pants and athletic shoes. I lied on my tummy and he started rubbing my back but I said “wait a sec!” Then this was funny cuz I took off my bra and he got embarrassed! LMAO Its weird cuz Uncle Oz never gets embarrassed cept when Im alone with him. Its like hes never seen a bra b4? And of course Ive been naked with him lots of times! lol I like getting a backrub better without a bra cuz ppl either try to rub ur back over ur bra which doesnt work or they try to rub under which is too tight. He started to rub my back over my shirt and I was like “Uncle Oz I want my back rubbed not my T shirt!” lol Anyway finally he started rubbing my back and it felt really good! I like a whole body massage even better but I knew he wouldnt do that. Its weird cuz my back didnt even feel tight until he started rubbing it and then I knew I was tense! But he helped relax me. I got so relaxed I fell asleep! Uncle Oz said I fell asleep for three hours but really I think it was only half an hour. He likes to tease me. We just chilled and then he asked me when I wanted to go back. And I just said “never!” LMAO Of course I was kidding but I really like being with Uncle Oz. I never get to be alone with him so it was really special. I love u Uncle Oz! I know he wont read this but that doesnt mean I cant write it! I asked Uncle Oz if he had another timeshare soon? He said he had one the last weekend in January. I asked him if he already had plans for it cuz really I didnt want to interfere if he was going with a lady! But he said he had plans with a lady but that was going to be closer to Valentines Day! lol But he wouldnt tell me who with! I think its Aunt Lizzie or maybe Nataline. I hope I didnt mess up plans he had with Nataline this weekend. But Im glad I saw him. Anyway he said he wasnt sure about the one in January cuz there could only be four ppl there and Jackelina and Winston might be bringing a friend. I wanted to know if hed be close during spring break but I dont know when that is. I hope its by my birthday cuz that would be totally kewl. Really Id like to go to Palm Springs for spring break its a great place to go. Uncle Oz said he usually stays out of there then! lol Finally I had to go back. I almost wish I had Germana over cuz I usually do on Mondays. She said she had a great time on vacation but I dont know what happened. But she sounded totally excited! I guess Ill find out tomorrow. Mindy said she had a good time too. Tuesday January 3 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Happy Birthday Benny! I wish I could have seen him on his b- day but at least I got to see him. Today was back to school! So I learned what Germana was all excited about. It was a guy of course! lol His name is Timmy and hes an American too! He was visiting family in England but hed never been there b4. She said she had a hot time with him! But the prob is he lives in Illinois. Thats close to Ohio where my grandparents and some of my cuzins live. So its a long way from here! Mexi had a good time too. Mindy said she had a good time but she missed me and of course I missed her too. She said they asked about me! I wish I could have gone but of course I wanted to see my family and other friends. I told them what I did of course. They wanted to know a lot about Bud! Germana said I should have seen him again when I had the chance. But everything was happening too fast! But I dont know. I really want to do something different this year. Kissing Bud was different cuz I never do Frenchies with a guy I just met. So that was a start! Rocky said sometimes its easier to do things with girls u dont know really well so I guess thats true with guys too. Usually I take forever to make a decision. But if u decide too fast u can get urself into real trouble! Its like if I went to Buds house who knows what would have happened? I have to spend time with Germana and Wendi to help them get ready to be initiates. But thats something I have to plan! later Ok we got it figured out! Germana and Wendi r spending the night with me Monday so were going to focus on Wicca. Theyre studying now on their own of course but this way we can practice. Of course I have things to practice too! My whole branch is going to meet b4 we become a coven but I dont know when. It has to be soon cuz we become our own coven January 14! Mindy and Flower r staying with me on Thursday. Flower doesnt know but Mindy and I r going to tutor her on dating! ;) Friday is Bobbies b-day hell be 13 and Flower is going. Mindy first dated when she was 14 that was the prom. She thinks Bobbie can date at 13 but we dont know about Flower cuz shes 11 1/2. But shes not too young to learn what to do! I wish somebody taught me what to do cuz I did some stupid things when I started dating. Really I still do some stupid things! lol I really have to study for my finals cuz theyre soon! I should have studied more during vacation I dont know why I didnt. Its just hard to study when ur not at school! Bennys college classes ended b4 winter break which really I think is better. I just came back from vacation and I have so much to do! Wednesday January 4 2006 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Im nervous about my finals I dont know why. I got like two weeks to study but theres so much to do! The good part is after Ill be totally off for four days! Yay! I wont have college or high school from January 26 to 29. Ill have to talk to Charlotte and see if somebody else can babysit cuz then I can go somewhere! I might go on the timeshare with Uncle Oz but I dont know if that will work. And really it would be fun to do something with my friends but I couldnt take anybody on the timeshare cuz its already full. I really think I made the right decision about Bud. I dont want to just meet some guy so I can make out with him! I really have to date more guys. I dont know anybody I want to date in high school and I dont even talk to anybody in college very much. And I cant date Deno again til I date somebody else. Really I should start making more friends in college. I think Ill do that next semester. But who can I meet if Im just taking Spanish? I should add another class. I wish I could take Psychology but the only time I could take it would totally mess up my babysitting job. Really I should get another job so I can make more money but I dont know what. later Tomorrow Flower and Mindy r coming over and then Monday Germana and Wendi will be here so I can help them get ready to be Wiccan initiates. I wish our ceremony wasnt going to be the weekend b4 my finals! And were going to the dance concert the day b4 that. I want to be the best me I can be this year. But what can I do? |
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| Copyright 2006 by Lorien Loveshade |
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| My DiArY! |
| Uncle Oz didnt want to do it in my bedroom so I lied on the couch. |
| I never get to be alone with him so it was really special. I love u Uncle Oz! |
| I think that dream means something but I dont know what! |
| I straight up am not going to tell anybody that u did anything wrong! |
| We should have Be a Kid Day! |
| I went to a museum with Uncle Oz. |
| Finally I had to go back. |
| My friends and I talked about our vacations. |
| I think I made the right decision about Bud. |
| I have to spend time with Germana and Wendi to help them get ready to be initiates. |
| Mindy and I r going to tutor Flower on dating. |
| I dreamt Uncle Oz gave me a backrub in my old middle school! |
| Today was back to school! |