Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary December 16 2005

Friday December 16 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Today is the last day of school b4 vacation but Im not even
going to write about that. Im still thinking about Ella! She wants
me to say shes spending the night with me tonight but she
really wants to spend it with Johnnie! Wendi and I have to talk
to him b4 Ella does!

later

It didnt work! Ella is with Johnnie right now!

Ill tell u what happened. Ella told her parents that she was
spending the night with me. If they called me on my cell phone I
was supposed to say she was in the bathroom or something
and then call her at the motel and then she would call them
back from there. But I really didnt want to do it!

I picked up Wendi first so we could talk about what to do cuz we
wanted to talk Ella out of it! Its weird too cuz b4 I was nervous
about meeting Johnnie for the first time. But Wendi and I werent
even nervous about that. We were just nervous about Ella! I
didnt want Ella to do it but Wendi just said she wanted us to
help if Ella changed her mind.

So then we thought we should talk to Johnnie b4 we picked up
Ella so we called him at the motel. We were worried he wouldnt
even be there but he was thank Goddess. So we talked to him
and he said he was really looking forward to seeing us. I
wanted to tell him what Ella was up to but I was too nervous to
even say it! How do u tell a guy a girl wants to sleep with him
and he shouldnt let her?

Anyway so then Wendi talked to him. I felt bad cuz Im a Wiccan
tutor and Im older but Wendi had to do it! I dont know what my
problem is. Anyway so she talked to him for a while but it was
about everything else. And I was like we have to tell him! Cuz
Ella would be wondering why wed be late picking her up. And of
course we couldnt call her and tell her!

So finally Wendi said “So Johnnie. Do u know what Ellas
planning to do tonight?” And she said Johnnie said “no.” Then
Wendi said “she plans to see you at the motel.” And I was like
Wendi he knows that were all meeting him there! So I said “tell
him she wants to spend the night.” But she said “she wants to
stay til the morning” which really is the same thing. So then
they talked and I didnt even know what they were talking about!
And then she said “see ya!” And I was like “Wendi what did he
say?”

But this I could not believe. He said it was Ellas choice! And
whatever she wanted was ok with him! But then Wendi said
Johnnie said he wasnt planning to have sex or anything with
Ella so dont worry about that. But he said shes been really
lonely and it might be good for her just to stay with him for a
while. He said it might build up her self confidence.

I thought ok thats true but does he know what Ellas planning to
do? But Wendi said he already figured it out but dont worry. So
I didnt know what to think!

So we picked up Ella. She was worried Carma and Holden
would think something cuz Wendi was with me. But we just said
we were going out to eat together and of course that was true.
We just didnt tell them Johnnie would be there too! Carma even
said we could eat with them but we told them we wanted to go
out.

Finally we left. Then Wendi and I were like Ella what r u doing?
But she just said we needed to stop somewhere first cuz she
needed to change. And we were like change into what? She
was wearing a white top with a tawny crop cardigan and blue
jeans and athletic shoes so she looked fine. But I wondered
what she had in her suitcase!

So we went back to my crib. I told Ella change quick or well be
late! Ella doesnt usually take a long time but this time she took
forever!

Finally she came out. She looked totally hot but I was like why
Ella? She still wore the tawny crop cardigan but underneath
she had a matching crop top that was totally short it was almost
like wearing a bra! And she had this really short blue jean
miniskirt and brown sandal shoes with high heels. And she had
on a lot of makeup which she doesnt wear much it was too
much makeup! At least we talked her into taking off a little of it
cuz it was too much.

Then we had to find Johnnies motel room. So on the way u
know Wendi and I were trying to talk Ella out of spending the
night with him! I talked the most Wendi mostly said Ella should
be sure she knew what she wanted. We figured Johnnie just
wanted to sleep with Ella he wasnt going to do anything. But
Ella would think if he said she could stay hed want to have sex!
And when he didnt then shed feel totally rejected and that
would make her self esteem worse! And really shes a hottie!
She thinks shes fat but shes not.

So finally we just told her. Wendi said “Ella, do u really think
Johnnie is going to make love to you?” Then Ella said “I dont
know. But he might want to.” And then I was like “Ella ur only 13
and Johnnies a lot older. You could get him in a lot of trouble!”
Then she was like “he wont get in trouble if nobody tells
anything and ur not going to tell r u?” And Wendi said “of
course not” and I said that too. Then Ella said “then Johnnies
not going to get in trouble.” And I was like what else can I say?

Then we got directions wrong so we had to call Johnnie to tell
him wed be late. Really we left early but we didnt know Ella
would want to go to my crib to change! Im really not used to
driving in a lot of traffic but it was ok. Wendi and Ella both
wanted me to drive faster but I was like no way! Im not
speeding through traffic! Finally we found it. Then I started
feeling really nervous! I was excited about meeting Johnnie but
I was worried about Ella! Ella didnt want him to see her first so
she stood in the back. Wendi knocked on his door.

Then I started thinking about me! I tell everything I do in my
diary and now Johnnie was going to see me! Harmony was the
only guy who knows me IRL who reads it but now Johnnie would
know me IRL too! Then the door opened and there he was! I
never described Johnnie b4 cuz of course I hadnt met him but I
will now. He doesnt want me to say his age but I can say hes
older than 30, very tall with light skin, curly dark brown hair
thats just a little long, brown eyes with glasses, a big brown
mustache that goes down his chin, not thin and not fat but just
a little belly, no piercings, but I dont know about tatoos.

Wendi and I gave him a hug and I gave him a KOTC which was
funny cuz he said “is that all?” So I had to give him a KOTL! lol
Really he was just kidding but I write KOTL in my emails to him.
So then Wendi gave him a KOTC but said hed have to wait for
more! lol

Then finally Ella came in and of course she was dressed like a
hottie. He didnt really say much but I could tell he was looking
at her! Really any guy would. She just gave him a hug and he
gave her a KOTC then she acted all embarrassed! We just
chilled and then we went to dinner. It was fun! Wendi talked a
lot but Ella hardly said anything. So u know she was
embarrassed. She was nervous somebody might see her and
shed get in trouble. But I was like Ella nobodys going to see u
cuz we were like a half hour away! Of course she was glad to
see him but Ill tell u more about that later.

I cant really tell u a lot about Johnnie like his job cuz he thinks
somebody might recognize him and some weirdo might be
reading my diary. So if ur a weirdo go away! lol Some ppl think
if ur an older guy and ur meeting teenagers that ur a stalker or
something but thats just stupid. Johnnies cool!

Then we decided to see a movie. Wendi and Ella wanted to see
an R rated one cuz of course they could with Johnnie there. But
he said he didnt want them to get in trouble so we saw Narnia.
It was a great movie! I wont tell u about it cuz if u havent seen it
then see it! Im supposed to see it with my cuzins but I wont tell
them I already saw it. Wendi sat on the left, then Johnnie, then
me, and then Ella. I thought Ella would want to sit next to him
but she didnt. But dont think anything when u read this Johnnie
it was just cuz she was nervous! This is really weird cuz hell
read all this. But Im not posting til hes gone and then hell know
everything anyway. Really I think he knows now!

Anyway we went back to Johnnies motel and watched TV a
little. And Ella wasnt doing anything! But then this was weird
cuz she said she was feeling really sleepy. So then Johnnie
said she could lie down if she wanted to so she got in the bed
and we watched a movie. But it wasnt one Wendi or Ella could
see in a theater! ;)

Then finally we were going to go. Johnnie said he would be
busy all day tomorrow but hed like to see us again on Sunday
afternoon and maybe Monday and then hed have to go back.
But Ella was still sleeping! Then this was weird. Johnnie said he
really didnt want to wake her up so maybe he could just drop
her off at my crib in the morning? And I was like its not like Ella
is a baby and u dont want to wake her up! But he said he could
sleep in the chair or get some extra blankets and sleep on the
floor.

But then Wendi talked to Ella and then shook her a little but
Ella wouldnt wake up! Johnnie said it was probably cuz she was
all excited last night and didnt sleep much. But we were like
wed better check to make sure shes still breathing! lol But of
course she was.

But then Wendi said something to me but I really cant write it
cuz somebody might read this. We said we had to go back cuz
it was late. So Johnnie gave Wendi and me a huggie and KOTL
and said hed bring Ella by in the morning! I didnt know what to
do. So I left!

But then when Wendi and I were coming back we talked about
it. Ok I wasnt going to write this but I will. We think Ella wasnt
even asleep we think she was just faking cuz she wanted to
stay! Then we thought we really should tell Johnnie! But we
didnt go back. I guess we could have called but we didnt. And
its too late now. Really I have to try to get some sleep but I cant
get to sleep! I cant stop thinking about Ella spending the night
with Johnnie!

later

I cant believe what happened! Guess who called me to pick her
up? Ella!

Im writing this Saturday but this is what happened Friday night.
I got back to my crib and wrote my diary cuz I straight up
couldnt sleep. So finally I go to sleep and then the phone rings!
I was worried cuz I thought it might be Ellas parents checking
on her. But then I was like why would they be calling this late at
night? So I answered and it was Ella. She wanted me to pick
her up! So I said “are you ok?” But she said she was fine. So I
said Id meet her at the motel room and she said she wasnt
there! So she told me where she was it was across the street.

I really didnt want to drive there all by myself and then I was like
how can I drive all by myself? Cuz I dont have a car! I had to
borrow Page and Perrys to go the motel. So then I was like
what do I do? I thought about calling Mindy or even Germana.
But how could I call them really late at night to borrow their car
without their families wondering whats happening? And I
couldnt tell anybody I was picking up a 13 year old girl who just
spent part of the night with an older man!

Then I thought maybe I could just take Mommys car cuz she
was at work. But Id have to walk forever to get there! And Ella
was waiting! And I couldnt call her back cuz I straight up didnt
know the phone number where she was.

So finally I decided to ask Uncle Frankie cuz I didnt know what
else to do! So I went in Page and Perrys house cuz of course
its right by the antique store where I live. I knocked on Uncle
Frankie and Aunt Ebees room which woke both of them up.
Anyway I told Uncle Frankie I had a friend who needed a ride
cuz her car broke down. But then I thought that was really
stupid cuz of course Ella is only 13. Hed know she wasnt old
enough to drive!

So anyway I thought I have to think of something to tell him on
the way there. So finally I said she was going to take the bus
but it never showed up. Then he said he thought I said her car
broke down. So I just said that was her aunts car so she was
going to take the bus home but it never showed up. Of course
that really happens sometimes which pisses me off. Anyway he
believed me.

So we picked up Ella and she looked upset! So I just told Uncle
Frankie “she just looks upset cuz she missed the bus and shes
been waiting for a long time.” Of course I really wanted to talk
to her to find out what happened! But I couldnt. Then Uncle
Frankie asked her for directions to her house. But we couldnt
take her home! Especially cuz she was still wearing the bra top
and the mini skirt. So I just said she was going to spend the
night with me cuz it was closer and that way she could get some
sleep and we wouldnt wake up her parents. Thank Goddess he
believed me!

So finally he dropped us off and I got to talk to Ella. And I got
really upset! Im not going to write what she said cuz I have to
talk to Johnnie first. But right now Im pissed off!