Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary December 13 to 15 2005

Tuesday December 13 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

This is totally weird but for some reason today I felt depressed!
I dont know why. I have so much happening I should be excited!
I hope Im not getting sick or something! I didnt even feel like
babysitting but thank Goddess Kim and Rodney were easy
today. I think it will be better now that they and Charlotte have
their own apartment again. Really its cool with Mindy next door.
She wont be spending the night with me Thursday cuz thats
Raidons b-day hell be 9. Then Mexi will be 16 on Sunday but of
course Ill see him at the party Saturday.

Ok Im not even going to write any more Im going to bed.

Wednesday December 14 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Guess what? Deno said he wants to join our coven! Of course
our branch will be a coven next month. Were having our esbat
tomorrow. I dont know if Denos ready to be a Wiccan intiate but
he will be!

I have so much to do! Tonight is Mindys concert, then tomorrow
is our esbat and then Ella and Wendi r spending the night with
me after cuz Mindy has Raidons b-day, then Friday Ella and
Wendi and I r meeting Johnnie! Ellas met him b4 of course but
Wendi and I havent. Hes staying in a motel so were going to
meet him there. And dont get worried hes safe and therell be
three girls there anyway! LMAO But Im really excited about it
but also nervous.

Then Saturday is Germanas familys Christmas party and of
course thats the beginning of winter vacation! I guess Im not
going anywhere cuz Benny and Brandy r coming here. But Im
really excited about seeing them! I wish Daddy would see them
too but oh well. I cant change Daddy. And Laura should be
here too so thats kewl. I might be able to go with Mindys family
to see her Aunt Hanah but I dont know if that will work or not.

later

Mindys concert was great! It wasnt just her orchestra they had
the band and choir too. The orchestra is really good! They
even had a part for flutes where it was just three ppl playing it
and one of them was Mindy! And shes only a sophomore! Shes
really good on the flute. Mindys family went of course and a lot
of her friends were there so that was kewl. Ella didnt think she
should go cuz her Mamma and Poppy would wonder why she
wanted to be gone three nights in a row. Cuz she and Wendi r
spending the night with me tomorrow and then Friday were
meeting Johnnie! But I was really surprised that Wendi went I
didnt think she could. Her Dads letting her do more now so
thats good. Really hes her stepdad.

later

I had a totally weird dream! I dreamt this Wednesday night but
Im writing this Thursday. Anyway in my dream I was in my bed
and it was totally dark. Usually my room isnt totally dark but it
was in my dream. But then I thought I saw something on my bed
and first I thought it was Speedo. But then I saw it was moving!
And I was like OMG somebody is in my room on my bed! But
the weird thing was I didnt feel very scared I was just curious. It
was like whos sitting on my bed?

I was afraid to say something so I just looked. And then my
room got lighter but really slowly. And I looked and it was
Johnnie! And this is really weird but I thought oh I forgot he was
going to be here. Im like why did I think that? Cuz Johnnies not
coming here were seeing him at his motel. He was writing
something in a notebook but I couldnt see what it was. Oh and
he was wearing a bathrobe it was like midnight blue. He didnt
even look at me he just kept writing. Then I woke up! It was
funny cuz I thought I want to go back to sleep to ask Johnnie
what he was doing in my bedroom! LMAO But dont be mad
Johnnie its just a dream! lol

Thursday December 15 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I was almost late for school! The car wouldnt start! If u dont
know Mindy and I ride with Germana and Mexi. We go to the
coffee place a lot b4 school but we couldnt today of course. But
we got there on time. Mexis excited cuz in three days hell be 16
and can get his drivers license. He wants to get it right on his
b-day but he cant do it til Monday. Todays Raidons b-day hes
9.

later

U wont believe whats happening with Ella! Ella and Wendi were
going to spend the night with me tonight. But Ella changed her
mind cuz she wants me to say shes spending the night with me
tomorrow. But shes really not planning to be with me cuz
tomorrow Johnnies coming! Wendi and I r like what is she
doing? Shes just 13 she is straight up not old enough!

later

I had to finish this later cuz Wendi was here. Im writing this
Friday but this is what happened Thursday.

I wanted to change what I wrote but Mindy thinks I should leave
it like it is. 13 is old enough for sex I dont know why I wrote that
cuz I am not ageist. Mary the mother of Jesus was only 13 when
she got pregnant. But what I meant was I dont think Ella is
ready! Shes done things with guys b4 but not that! She hasnt
even gone downstairs with a guy yet.

Anyway I should tell u about our esbat first. Ella wasnt there but
Miss Sasha, Goldina, Mindy, Wendi, Germana, Austra, Carol
and I were. I thought Deno was coming but he didnt and I knew
Kayla couldnt be there. We arent really asking anybody else to
come til were our own coven cuz we have some things to
decide. I think everybody will be there for Winter Solstice cept
Germana and Austra.

But one thing we talked about was doing our ceremonies
topfree! Germana said she thought we could. Really some
covens do some even go skyclad. Right now my branch just
has girls so its not a problem cept I dont think Carol wants to do
it. And Austra doesnt want to if theres guys there. Im a nudist of
course so I dont care.

So then I was like what if Deno joins? Cuz I really dont think
Deno would be comfortable. I talked about Catovida too I wish
he could come back but of course he cant. It probably wouldnt
bother him any. Germana said his coven doesnt have hardly
any members! She said its just Catovida, Rad, Olive and this
girl named Choiko thats it!

But heres good news. Miss Sasha and Goldina said Olive could
still apply to join us if she wants to! They said she was never a
member so its not like she left or anything. Catovida rejected
the covens authority even though I think Rad was the one who
planned it. We gave Catovida a second chance but he wouldnt
take it.

But Olive wasnt even an initiate so its not her fault! I hope she
comes back. They said theres somebody else they might
consider but theyll talk about that after were our own coven.
That will be in a month! Ill miss my old coven but I never see
them anyway just a few times a year. And I still go to some of
their ceremonies we can even do joint ceremonies. Of course
the next one will be joint! Well be recognized as a coven and
Germana and Wendi will be accepted as initiates.

Ok I want to talk about Ella. She said she just wants to spend
the night with Johnnie that doesnt mean shes going to have
sex. But Wendi and I were like if u spend the night alone with a
guy and ur inexperienced sex can happen! I know Becky and
Hunter slept together b4 they had sex and Herbie and I did too
and were both still virgins. So I know u can do it but still. Becky
and I have both done more than Ella has. We wanted to talk to
Johnnie but we couldnt get him. Please dont think anything bad
about Johnnie cuz hes a great guy! But he straight up doesnt
know what Ella is up to.

So Wendi and I tried to talk Ella out of it but she wouldnt listen!
So I dont know whats going to happen. Ella is not ready to give
up her virginity!