| OcToBeR 17 - 22 2005 |
| Monday October 17 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS I know ppl will want to know so Ill tell u. No I didnt use my dildo today! Im still a little sore down there. But at least now I know I can get something inside myself! Im not going to write anymore today cuz I spent all day writing about yesterday. Ill just tell u we had our full moon esbat. The ppl who were there were Goldina, Mindy, Ella, Carol, Wendi, and me thats it. Germana couldnt come or spend the night with me so I spend it all by myself! But really it wasnt as bad as I thought. Ok I said I wouldnt write anymore so thats it! lol Tuesday October 18 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Germana isnt happy poor Germana! Usually I spend the night with her Monday but she said she couldnt do it. But now I know why. I told her about what happened with Cassie and Becky of course. I told her Sunday or Monday I forget which. I thought Germana would be happy cuz she didnt have to do it. But guess what? She wanted to help me! I was like why didnt she tell me? Cuz I thought Germana only offered to help me break my hymen cuz nobody else would. But she was excited about helping me! This is weird too cuz Germana reads this but thats ok. I really like Germana shes one of my best friends! But now she thinks I dont want to be friends with her anymore! And I was like Germana of course I do! I told her I wanted to spend the night with her last night. Then she said thats just cuz I dont like being alone on Monday night cuz the store is empty all day. But I was like thats not why! I have lots of friends I could have asked but I wanted her! So Germana if u read this ur one of my best friends and Im writing it so everybody knows it. I love u Germana! Wednesday October 19 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Mindy had a great idea and I think it helped! Today is Cassies b-day shes 19 but of course I already wished her happy birthday. But its also the one year anniversary of when I met Germana! I can never remember dates but I write everything down. So I sent Germana an email card and guess what? Today she really thanked me! So I think everything with her is going to be ok. Shes always so afraid her friends r going to leave her but I am straight up not going to leave! Shes one of my best friends! Uncle Frankies b-day is Monday which is a good day cuz the stores closed. There r so many b-days! later If u must know I used my dildo by myself and it worked! Yay! And it felt good too. ;) I mean the 6 inch one not the 12 inch one its too big. Thank Goddess I wont have to be a virgin for the rest of my life! Thursday October 20 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Its cute cuz Kim keeps asking me when shell have her next period! Shes like the only girl I know whos happy about periods! lol Really I guess I was too on my first one. Its a sign that ur a woman. Its funny too cuz shes still acting different shes acting more mature. I think a Womanhood ceremony really helps I think every girl should have one. It shows the transition from girlhood to womanhood. Sometimes she still acts like a little girl but thats ok. Shes only 10! The really kewl part is shes asking me questions a lot more and really listening. She did b4 but its different now. But its bad cuz she cant get anybody to call her Kim! Charlotte and Rodney and Gus still call her Kimberly. I think Im like the only one who calls her Kim cept for Tiffanie. She wants to be called Kim cuz she thinks it makes her sound more mature. I think u should respect what somebody wants to be called cuz its their name! Sometimes I forget and call her Kimberly but she said thats ok cuz she knows Im trying. Its funny though cuz Rodney is really trying to get my attention like all the time! Of course he did that b4 but he does it even more now. He always wants to show me his work and have me help him with homework or sits with me and gives me kissies. Kim isnt sitting on my lap like she used to but thats ok. I think she just stopped cuz of her period. She was afraid to sit on anything! lol But thats ok. Her periods over of course it really didnt last very long. But she has things to get used to. Its weird though cuz I think Charlotte is treating her more like a little girl than she did b4! And I think Gus is doing it too. Cant they let her grow up? And I dont know if Charlotte and Gus r getting along better or worse I cant tell. I wish theyd work things out! later Mindy and I r talking about homecoming and Halloween and were both excited! Of course shes excited about going with Jody! Im just going to go with friends cuz nobody asked me to go but Deno and I cant date him all the time. Really I dont care I dont really want a date. Next week is homecoming week. I usually dont do anything for it but I guess this year I will. We decided to wear the same costumes for Germanas party as well wear for Halloween Homecoming. Its just too much work to have one costume for Germanas, one for homecoming, and then plan a bodypaint costume for the nudist Halloween party. Of course a lot of ppl r going to Germanas party but I dont know how many ppl I know r going to the nudist one. Mindy is, and Uncle Oz, Aunt Lizzie, and me. Becky might go but Im not sure, and maybe even Germana and Mexi. Oh and Flower and her family r going! Flower would like Bobbie to go but no way is she telling him shes nudist! LMAO Its cute cuz Flower comes over to Mindys a lot but Mindy doesnt go to Flowers much. Flower says its cuz she likes Mindys house and the treehouse. But we both know its cuz she likes Bobbie! lol I dont know if Bobbie and Flower can date or not. Oh Mindy says her parents dont really have an age u can date its just if u want to then they have to talk about it. She said they think if ur old enough to want to date ur probably old enough to date. But I dont know if Bobbie wants to go on a regular date yet and I dont know if Flower can. Bobbies 12 1/2 but Flowers just 11. later Guess what Mindy wanted to see me do? Use my dildo! lol Really it was kewl of course we share everything. But she just watched me do it she didnt do it for me! LMAO Mindy said watching it moving in and out of me downstairs made her horny! So u can guess what she did with herself. ;) Ok thats all Im going to write. I dont want u to think thats all I think about! Friday October 21 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Guess what Deno told me? He said he really likes going to our esbats but hes not comfortable being the only guy! I didnt even know it bothered him that much. Thats really sad cuz hes a great guy. I wish Quinn was still here cuz then wed have two guys. And of course I wish Catovida and Olive still went too. Its weird cuz I used to see Olive all the time cuz she and Quinn used to go to the coffee shop and wed all meet there b4 school. But since Quinn went to college I never see her there. We have to get some guys! We had three even though Deno and Quinn werent members yet but Catovida was our Priest. And of course we still need a high priest. I hope Brooke goes to one of our ceremonies. I dont really know her but we can use more ppl even if they arent guys. Suzu went a few times but she hasnt in a long time. And I want to start a Wiccan class but I dont know when. Im supposed to be a tutor and Im not even doing it much. I should spend more time with Ella and Carol too. Maybe we can do something this weekend. I decided Im not going anywhere this weekend cuz I have to do homework. And next weekend I got Halloween homecoming and two Halloween parties and I want to see Herbie for his b-day. Oh and then were making Dolphinia our new member on Halloween so I wont have time to do anything! I dont even know about watching the World Series. I watch it every year but it will just make me think how much I miss Daddy. I used to watch it with him all the time and he called me his Good Luck Goddess. Cuz its like when I watched a game with him then his team won and when I didnt watch they lost! It didnt work every game but it worked for every series and also for the Super Bowl. But then it stopped working and thats when Daddy left. Really who cares who wins anyway? Its just a game. I wish I could tell u about what Ive done on a website but its a secret! The websites not a secret its just a secret that Im doing it. I wrote some kewl things with some friends but really they did most of it. I wont tell u who but its somebody I talk about in my diary! lol Oh and I decided not to write about all my tests. I have a lot of tests and I dont know when I can study for them. The quarters ending soon for both college and high school. But I wont even talk about tests unless I have a real problem. I hope I dont! Saturday October 22 2005 Dear Mr BiGgLeS Guess what were doing tonight? Carol and Ella and Wendi and I r spending the night in the treehouse at Mindys! Its getting colder but its warm in there with the heater. It might be too cold later but right now its ok. Its not a tutoring session but it will give me a chance to teach them. I hope Germana doesnt feel left out but I spend the night with her almost every week and Im going to Halloween homecoming with her and to her Halloween party and shes coming with me to the nudist Halloween party and thats all next weekend. And of course Mindy and I ride to school with her and Mexi and we go to the coffee shop a lot. So dont be jealous Germana cuz ur one of my best friends! later We had a great time Saturday! Im writing this Sunday but this is what happened Saturday. First I did homework and I got a lot done. Really I can do most of it when Im babysitting cuz Kim and Rodney r supposed to be doing their homework anyway. But I have so much homework! The ones who went were Mindy of course she lives there, Ella, Wendi, and me. I thought Carol was coming but she couldnt. Oh and this was really kewl. We said it wasnt fair to make Ima cook for all of us cuz she wasnt expecting us. So guess what we did? We had a pizza delivered to the treehouse! lol It was fun. I dont know why we dont do that. The pizza guy didnt climb up the ladder cuz he was afraid hed drop it and we had to hand him the money anyway. Really u dont have to carry anything up the ladder anyway cuz we can pull it up with this box thats tied to a rope. Its on a pulley so its easy to raise and lower things. I was going to tutor about Wicca but really we didnt study a lot. I told them about Mars cuz its going to be close and some things about the God and Goddess but not much. It was the first day of the World Series so we watched most of that. I dont even know who I want to win I really dont care. Harmony and Yvette and Allen live in Texas which is where the Astros r from but Laura lives in Chicago which is where the White Sox r. Yvette and Allen and their family said they might go see the game but I dont know if they did. The White Sox won 5 to 3 but I guess u already know that. I dont even know who Daddy wants to win but really I dont care. Im not his Good Luck Goddess anymore anyway. Really I never was thats just superstition. We also also used Mindys laptop to chat on the Internet. Wendi said we should see what Ella got on CD but Ella said no way! So of course now were totally curious! lol Really I think its just some pictures cuz somebody sent her a couple CDs. Ella is really popular online! Rob thats Wendis older stepbrother knows a lot about computers and he helped Ella build a website and she added some new stuff. She even has something about me on there! Oh they got their hot stories on there too the ones they wrote with somebody else but I cant tell u who! Those r the stories about the vampire and the ghost and the werewolf and they r totally hot! I havent even read the whole werewolf story yet. But its about this guy who changes into a wolf and doesnt even know it. And u wont believe the things he does! The stories r in this private section and theyre putting some pictures in there too. Its funny cuz Rob made it for them and he doesnt even know how to get in! lol Cuz u cant find anything at the beginning of the site u have to know what page to go to and Rob showed them how to change the name of the page. Its kewl too cuz u can search for it and ull never find it! Not unless u know where to look. I dont know how it works but its kewl. I guess its like the private site I used to have cuz u couldnt get in it unless u had a password and only Becky and I could give ppl a password. Later we let Steve Steve do it too but hes kewl. Ok I know what u want to know. Yes I told them all about my experience with Becky and Cassie! Its weird too cuz Mindy and I do sharies all the time and Ella and Wendi do it with each other and I know Carol does it. But weve never done it all together! I thought we might this time but we didnt of course cuz Carol wasnt there! lol Ok Ill talk about something else! lol We might have our next esbat at Wendis. Really we should have done it there b4 cuz her stepdad Timothy wanted us to. But we werent sure about doing it cuz he doesnt like her spending a lot of times with guys and theres guys in the branch. But now no guys r coming! Really thats sad but its ok for right now cuz it will help Wendi. Oh and guess what else? Mindy said she thinks Wendis been studying Wicca for about a year so she might be ready to be an initiate! She hasnt had her menarche yet I thought she had cuz shes bigger upstairs than me! But u dont have to for my branch. Anyway I have to check to see how long shes been studying cuz she might be ready! |
| Copyright 2005 by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
| Mindy and I r excited about Homecoming and Halloween! |
| Flower is not going to tell Bobbie shes a nudist! |
| Germana isnt happy poor Germana! |
| I love u Germana! |
| If u must know I used my present and it worked! ;) |
| Rose is acting grown up! |
| Guess what Mindy wanted to watch me use? |
| I miss being Daddys Good Luck Goddess. |
| Did u ever get pizza delivered up a tree? |
| I wish I could tell u about my secret website! |
| Im spending the night together with my friends in the treehouse! |
| Ella and Wendi have a hot website! |
| At least now I know I can get something inside myself! |
| Our coven needs some guys! |