Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary October 15 to ? 2005

Saturday October 15 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I am really nervous about today. First I got Pippys b-day party
which Im helping plan. Im really not nervous about that its like
shes only 2! lol

But what Im nervous about is Cassies b-day party. Cuz Becky
and Cassie r both trying to talk me into going! But I dont know.
Her parties now get really wild. I dont know if Im ready for a
really wild bang! But Becky and Hunter r going and its for
Cassies b-day and shes a really good friend. Shell be 19 on
Wednesday. And Lindsey will be there and I really miss her! If u
dont know shes Cassies little sister and shes really kewl. And
Im going out there anyway. But I dont know!

later

I dont even know what to write about Cassies bang! But Ill write
about Pippys party first.

It was at her house which is Flowers house of course. I met
Tyrones mom Clarice and shes a nudist too! But nobody talked
about it cuz Joe doesnt agree with it. Hes Dianes boyfriend they
live together. I thought he was Normans father but now Im not
sure. Anyway Diane is the one who used to work with Kim at the
video company and Norman is her son hes 5. Diane said her
new job isnt nearly as much fun. She works at a bank now.

We wanted it to be a pacifier party cuz Pippy has like a million
pacifiers. But Joe didnt want to wear one. But thats ok cuz
everybody else did! We had to watch Pippy cuz she just turned
2 and u shouldnt let a really little kid wear a pacifier around her
neck unless ur really watching her. Joe said now shes in the
terrible twos! lol Anyway the party was fun.

But the party I really want to talk about is Cassies! Becky
picked me up but she said her name for this weekend was
Crystal. Of course thats her name on the fake ID that says
shes 21 even though really shes 17 1/2. And she also uses it a
lot on the Internet now. Anyway first we went to Beckys and I
thought we were meeting Hunter. But Becky said Hunter isnt
coming but she didnt say why. And I was like do I really want to
do this? But Becky said I had to go cuz she had a surprise for
me. And I was like what kind of surprise? But she said there
was somebody there Id want to see. So I figured it was Lindsey.
But it wasnt!

Becky took us there early so we could help set up but really I
think she did it so I wouldnt change my mind! lol The only ppl
who were there was Cassie and Micky and they needed help!
Cassie was pissed cuz Taylor was supposed to help and he
wasnt even there. So Cassie had to plan her own b-day party!
Only it really wasnt a b-day party and it definitely wasnt private.
Cuz we were on party cam! Even when we were just planning
we were on cam which was weird. Theres like no way Id live on
webcam 24/7!

We didnt really decorate much just some balloons but some
things were funny! They had these candies that were just like
gummie worms only they werent. They looked like little baby
penises! LMAO But I was like I do not want to stick a penis in
my mouth on webcam! lol

Anyway I asked where Lindsey was and Cassie said she wasnt
going to be there! So I dont know why Becky thought she was. I
miss Lindsey shes kewl. But Becky said she wasnt the surprise
it was somebody else. ;)

Oh this was totally weird. I was helping Cassie and then Becky
and Micky decided to smoke bud! And Im talking on webcam!
And I was like Becky r u crazy? Oh but I called her Crystal. I
said ppl can be watching and u can get in major trouble! But
she said how could anybody tell what they were smoking cuz
they could just be rolled cigarettes. Really Beckys not
supposed to smoke cigarettes either cuz shes only 17. But
Crystal is 21! lol Anyway they didnt smoke a lot just couple hits.

So then Jethro and Miranda got there and Taylor still wasnt
there! So finally he showed up and I thought Cassie would be
really pissed but I guess she wasnt mad anymore. The party
started slow but it wasnt slow later!

Oh and then I asked Becky how r we getting home? Cuz Hunter
was supposed to drive Becky and me back. And Becky couldnt
drive cuz she already smoked bud and I knew she was going to
be drinking a lot. So then she said I could drive! And I was like
Becky what if I want to drink? But she said I already decided not
to. But then I said I cant drive u anyway cuz I have to have
somebody whos 25 with me! And even her fake ID only says
shes 21! So then Taylor said he would drive us and I was like I
am not riding with Taylor cuz he was drinking right away!
Doesnt anybody know u cant drink and drive? But then Micky
said it was no prob cuz anybody who wanted could stay at their
crib. And Luv said that too cuz she lives next door. So that was
kewl.

But then Beckys surprise showed up and u wont believe who it
was. It was Shambler! But it was really funny cuz I saw him b4
Becky did! lol If u dont know hes the guy Becky met online only
she told him she was Crystal. Becky never met him b4 so she
decided to meet him first at the party which really is good. Cuz
u shouldnt meet somebody u dont know in private. Anyway
then I knew why Becky didnt want Hunter there!

Really I dont want to say anything bad about Shambler cuz of
course Becky likes him. Hes 24 and he works at a fitness
center like Ima does. But everything he said was about how
great he was or something. Theres something else but I wont
write it til I talk to Becky first cuz of course she reads this.

Some ppl were dancing and the music was really loud. But most
ppl were just partying. But u know I danced! I danced with
Shambler, Jethro, and Jeez whos the guy who got Beckys fake
ID. His real names not Jeez they just call him that cuz he looks
like Jesus.

Cassie asked me if I had any games so we played I Never. Only
this time it was a real drinking game! I know I wrote how to play I
Never like a million times so if uve read it already just skip this
part. Usually everybody makes up four questions with one
rated G, one PG or PG 13, one R, and one X. But we had too
many ppl who wanted to play. So some ppl made up a PG and
an R rated question, and some ppl made up a G and an X
rated one. The questions u make up r supposed to be
something u never did. Then u put all all the G questions in
one pile, PG and PG 13 in a pile, R in another pile, and then all
the X questions go in another pile. Then somebody takes a G
rated one and says “I Never” and then reads it. Everybody who
did it has to take a drink, but if u didnt then u dont.

I didnt save the questions and there was too many ppl to put
what everybody said anyway. But I know the second G question
cuz that was mine. It was “I Never dumped ice water on my little
sister.” Of course I didnt have to drink cuz I dont have a little
sister! lol I made that one for Cassie cuz she did that to
Lindsey. But I think somebody else drank too.

I wont do a lot of the questions but a PG one was “I Never met
anybody thru the Internet” and of course Becky and Shambler
drank cuz they just did! lol I did too cuz I met Harmony but I
think that question was written for Cassie. Cassie had to drink a
lot! Another one was “I Never got arrested” and that was a
surprise cuz Cassie drank! But really I dont think it counted cuz
she really didnt get arrested. Its just the police asked her some
questions when she got suspended. That was really stupid like
she couldnt make XXX movies just cuz she was in high school!
But I guess cuz she was a junior when she started they thought
she wasnt 18.

Then an R question was “I Never flashed on webcam” and
every girl at the party drank on that one! lol Really a lot of the
guys did too cuz it didnt say flashing what! Everybody flashes
on webcam at least once. A lot of them did at the party but I
didnt. Then there was “I Never played with my sisters tits” and
that I could not believe. Cuz Adrian drank on that one! :o Then
this was funny but it was almost a real problem. Cuz Cassie
said “Adrian everybodys played with ur sisters tits!” LMAO But
Adrian just said if Cassie was a guy hed open up a can on her!
lol But then Micky said Adrian wouldnt mind if Cassie shared his
sis! lol

I wont do all the X questions either but there were a couple Ill
tell u about. One was “I Never licked somebodys a**hole” and
Luv and Cassie both drank on that! Some other ppl did too but
I dont remember who. I was like I could NEVER do that! I havent
even done regular oral sex even though really I want to. But
only with somebody I know really well so dont volunteer! LMAO
Then there was “I Never had sex on webcam” and Cassie and
Nelson and Micky drank on that even though I dont think Micky
has really showed everything yet. I think she and the guy were
under a blanket or something. But Taylor didnt drink! And I
really thought he and Cassie had done it on cam I didnt know
he hadnt. Some ppl drank on “I Never did anal sex” but really
not as many as I thought.

But then there was “I Never f**ked outside” and Becky drank!
Some other ppl did too but I never knew she did it outside! But
she said it was on Lovers Leap so I dont know if that really
counted cuz it was in a car.

But this is the question that I know Becky put in the X pile for
me. Cuz it was “I Never got a dildo inside me!” And I was like
thanks Becky! Of course I didnt drink on that one. Some girls
drank but most of the guys didnt! lol

Anyway a lot of ppl were drinking even when they didnt have
to! Then somebody said something about the cloved lemon
kissing game but I didnt bring one cuz I didnt think anybody
would want to play it! Cuz its just a kissing game. Anyway then
they played quarters or something but I didnt play even though
Becky did. Cuz really I was thinking if Becky and I both get
really drunk whos going to watch us? Cuz I knew Cassie
wouldnt be paying attention and I didnt even know Shambler.
So I didnt drink anymore. And its good that I didnt!

Ppl were getting high and drinking and the party was getting
weird. Really ppl were smoking bud in the bedroom they didnt
do it much in the living room. I think they were doing other
things too but I dont know what. But then I had to go to the
bathroom and that was a total shock. The door was shut so I
didnt go in. But I could hear somebody moaning in there! And
they didnt sound like they were hurt! ;) So I was like what am I
supposed to do cuz I had to pee! But then this I couldnt
believe. Cuz the webcam was supposed to be off in the
bathroom during the party. But Luv said somebody turned it
back on! And I was like that is not right! There were ppl in there
and u could guess what they were doing. I dont even know if
they knew they were on webcam! Im sorry but if they didnt then
thats totally wrong!

Thank Goddess Luv said I could use her bathroom cuz I
straight up had to go. And I wasnt going to pee in Cassies
bathroom with ppl doing whatever in there while we were all
watched on webcam! It was just too weird!

So I was in Luvs bathroom for a long time cuz I had to think
about what I wanted to do. Cuz really I wanted to go home! I
dont mean my apartment at the store I mean back to my cuzins.
The party was just getting too weird!

So anyway I told Cassie I had fun but I had to go cuz if I stayed
too late my Daddy would be pissed. I thought shed say she
thought I was spending the night but she didnt. Anyway I told
Becky but she was too busy with Shambler to notice anyway.

So I just went back to my cuzins and everybody was in bed cuz
it was late. Then this was weird but I thought I wonder whats
happening on Cassie and Mickys webcams? I was curious
about the living room and bedroom cams but especially the
bathroom cam! And of course I got a free membership. But
then I was like I really dont want to know! And if it wasnt with
permission then nobody should be watching! So I didnt.

But then when I went to sleep I had this totally sexy dream! I
was back at the party only Aragorn was there at the party! I
wont tell u more about the dream so dont ask! And u cant
watch it cuz I dont have a dream cam! LMAO