Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary August 30 to 31 2005

Tuesday August 30 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Mindy and I had breakfast together it was my first breakfast in my
new apartment! But guess what I forgot? I didnt have any sugar! But
we both had Coco Puffs so thats ok. My apartment is really just a
room in the antique store but Im totally by myself so its like my first
apartment! And I have my own bathroom even though its 3/4 bath
cuz theres no tub but it still counts! And it wasnt bad with customers
cuz I left for school b4 the store opened anyway.

But we had one problem. We forgot our Spongebobs! We went to
take a shower together and we didnt have anything to wash with! And
I only had one washcloth that was stupid. How could I only have one
washcloth? Anyway we shared it so that was ok. But then this was
funny cuz we dried off and then I was going to put a robe on to go to
my bedroom and Mindy said why wear a robe? Cuz the bathroom
connects right to my bedroom so nobody was going to see us. So we
just went in naked! lol Really that was fun. I couldnt ever walk around
naked at our apartment cept when nobody was there. I guess I could
have with just Mommy but I didnt.

Anyway we had to hurry cuz we were running late! It took longer to
get ready than I thought and then I couldnt find anything. Its like its
my apartment and Mindy was more organized than I was! She had
everything ready already.

Germana and Mexi picked us up so that was kewl. I thought maybe
they could get Carol too but she lives totally out of the way so that
sucks. Germana and Mexi told us about their vacation it was
awesome! They went to England and France and Germany. Ill write
more about their vacation later but right now I want to tell u about
school. It was the first day of my senior year!

Heres my schedule but it might change:

1) Dance
2) Peer Counseling
3) Speech
4) English

Thats right Im doing Peer Counseling! I knew about it b4 but I didnt
write it cuz it was a surprise! Its so kewl! I thought a lot about it
when I was taking Psychology cuz I thought about being a
Psychologist or a Counselor. I really like helping ppl and this is a good
way to help! Im not counseling anybody now cuz first I have to have
the training.

Its weird cuz we got Dance again first period! Theres a lot of the
same ppl too. Of course Miss Matthewson is teaching it so Ill tell u
who my teachers r. Peer Counseling is Ms. Alfred and its totally kewl
shed let me take the class cuz usually she doesnt let anybody take it
that she doesnt know really well. But she knows Dr. Fielder who was
my Psychology teacher in college and said hes a great teacher and I
told her I got an A-. I wish I got an A but thats ok. For Speech I got
Mr. Singer but I dont really know him. I wasnt going to take Speech
but its like the only class I could take that I wanted and Deno wanted
me to take it with him. I thought he would talk about dating but he
didnt. For English I got Ms. Gaines again but I might take English in
college. I signed up for it so I could get it but I might drop it I dont
know.

I dont have any classes with Carol and I might not with Germana
which sucks. But I got Dance with Mindy and Deno and Speech with
Deno and Kayla. I didnt get to talk to Kayla much but I will tomorrow.

And I dont have to take any more Math! Yay! Ill have to take math in
college but Im not taking it til I graduate high school. I do not like
math!

later

This could really suck! Nothing is working right I need a car! I might
drop high school English and take my college English class cuz then it
counts for both. But Ill have to take the city bus after my last class in
high school and it leaves like five minutes b4 the end of class! So if I
take English in college Ill have to wait at high school for like an hour
for the next bus! This sucks!

And then it gets worse! I took the bus home after high school English
and ate lunch and did stuff and then I had to leave for babysitting. But
the bus for babysitting was totally late! And I cant be late cuz Im
babysitting at Kimberly and Rodneys house now and of course Mrs.
Opland lives in the apartments so she cant help me anymore. And then
Id have to wait again for a bus to come home cept Charlotte took me
home but she cant do that every time! Then I had like half an hour b4
I had to take the bus to college! And then I had to wait forever for my
class to start I had American History. The only good part is I think Ill
like my teacher his name is Mr. Gifford. He told us some really
interesting things about George Washington and Thomas Jefferson
but Ill write about those later. Right now I have to figure out what to
do!

later

Guess what? Mindy was helping me and she got it figured out! Heres
what I can do. I can take just the first three periods of classes in high
school thats Dance, Peer Counseling, and Speech. Then I can walk
like two blocks past the other side of our high school and a bus will
be there in like 20 minutes. And really I wont have to wait that long
cuz its 20 minutes after class ends and it will take like five minutes to
walk to the bus stop. And really thats good exercise anyway. And
then I can ride it straight to college and have lunch there. Then after
lunch I can take a different session of American History that meets
right after lunch on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Then I can take a bus
that comes right after class ends and go to Charlottes and babysit
Kimberly and Rodney. And really Charlotte said she doesnt mind
giving me a ride home after babysitting its not a prob. And if she cant
take me home I can wait for a bus. And if a bus is late somebody can
pick me up! Uncle Frankie does deliveries for the store and picks
things up so I can get a ride with him or Mommy or Ima or
somebody! So really it wont be a problem. I wish I didnt have all
these bus rides to do I wish I had a car! But of course I totally cant
afford one.

later

Mindy spent the night with me again! This makes a week! And u
wont believe what we read! But Ill tell u later.

Really she stayed cuz Im chicken! lol But I plan to spend the night by
myself tomorrow. I have to get used to having an apartment totally by
myself! Oh and Uncle Frankies going to put in a deadbolt for me
tomorrow. He didnt have one on the door he just had the lock thats
part of the door handle but I dont feel safe with just that. But a
deadbolt will be cool.

So heres my new schedule!

Mondays through Fridays is High School in the morning:

1) Dance
2) Peer Counseling
3) Speech

Tuesdays and Thursdays is American Government at college in the
afternoon

Wednesdays is Spanish at night

Thursdays is English at night

I really wanted to be in Amnesty International in high school again but
no way will that work. Mindys still in it I wish I was! But she can tell
me whats happening.

Oh and I might join the ACLU! Rocky sent me something about it and
we checked their site and theyre totally kewl! Harmonys in it too.
They believe in civil liberties and freedom and they support a womans
right to choose. I think Ill post some links to cool sites.

later

I cant believe I forgot to write about what happened! If u dont know
Ella and Wendi r using pseudonyms for their hot stories. They
finished two of them and theyre writing another one. Theyre really
good! Theyre really sexy but theyre also really good stories! Ones
about a vampire and the others about a ghost and the characters in the
stories r a lot like them they even look like them. Anyway they told me
theyre writing them with somebody else! I know who it is but I cant
tell u.

But now guess what? Somebody wants to use their pseudonyms for a
poem that is totally Mindys fantasy! I could not believe it! I mean the
one about where shes sitting on a guys lap. I cant say who wrote that
one either its a secret! Mindy said the poem is exactly like her fantasy
I mean totally! She is so excited somebody would write something
like that for her! Steve Steve wrote a really hot story about Mindy,
Becky, Beth, and me which was totally kewl! And now somebody
wrote a hot poem about Mindys fantasy! The only part thats different
is she said her fantasy is just about a guy but in the poem it says who
the guy is. But Mindy said thats not her idea! lol She was totally
excited that somebody would do that for her and we read the poem
like three times! And u know we did sharies! ;) Mindy really squeaked
shes my little mousie! LMAO

But then this is weird. Really its not weird cuz its ok for Mindy. But
she said she really wants to do just what it says she does in the poem!
:o Its straight up not something Id want to do but thats ok. Now all
she has to do is find a guy to do it with! LMAO

Wednesday August 31 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I am so busy! Its like a lot is happening but I dont have time to write
everything!

I wont even talk about school cept guess what? Deno asked me to the
Back to School Dance! Its in like two weeks I think its Friday. I said I
wasnt sure Id have to check or something. Really I dont have
anything to check on Im just nervous! Its like he wanted to go out
this weekend too! I do not need a boyfriend I need to be free! But still
I like going on dates and I definitely want to go to the dance! So I
guess Ill probably go with him. Germanas going too and I think Mindy
is too. Ill have to ask Carol if shes going. Im at the same school with
her now and I never see her! Of course shes a freshman and Im a
senior.

later

I dont like coming here when customers r in the store! Its like total
strangers r walking by looking at stuff right outside my bedroom
door! And its weird cuz when I get back I see Page and Perry and
Uncle Frankie and Aunt Ebee but them Im like bye Im going to my
room. I ate dinner with them again at their house which is right by the
store of course. Mommy and Matthew are there now and really thats
kewl cuz of course I love them! But it doesnt really feel like Im in my
own apartment til everybody leaves the store! At least Mommys
totally finished moving out of the apartment. Its weird cuz I couldnt
even help her cuz I was at school or on the bus all day long! Mommy
doesnt even seem worried about me shes more worried about herself!
But I straight up dont care. I want to live by myself just not in a store!
I really dont miss our apartment but I miss being next door to Mindy!
At least she lives really close.

I had Spanish tonight and thank God Uncle Frankie took me so I didnt
have to worry about taking the bus. Of course I have Señorita
Romero again shes kewl. But most of the ppl in the class r different!
Its funny cuz Dean is in the class and I straight up thought he
wouldnt be! So thats kewl hes funny. Graciela is in it too she was in
my group tonight. She said she doesnt have the same boyfriend
anymore and really thats good cuz he wasnt very nice to her.

Now I have to spend the night here all by myself! Thank God Uncle
Frankie added a lock!

later

Im sorry but I do not want to be here! I cant even sleep! I thought it
would be totally quiet cuz theres nobody in the store. But theres like
all these weird sounds! I dont know why I didnt hear them when
Mindy was here. I dont even know what it is but it sounds like
somethings moving! I got my cell phone so I can call somebody right
away if theres a problem but still.

later

I chatted on the Internet like all night long! lol Really it wasnt all night
but I straight up didnt get enough sleep. And Thursdays Im busy all
day long! Thank God I got a three day weekend! Im going back to
see Daddy and my cuzins and Becky and maybe Herbie I dont know.
Mindy said I could go with them but I really should see Daddy more.
And really I miss him! Germana said I could help with Nethers b-day
party but I cant do that either. I have too much to do!