Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary August 28 to 29 2005

Sunday August 28 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Mindy gave us a total surprise! And something really funny happened!

We got up really early so we could see the sunrise on the beach! It
was really kewl too cuz there was almost no one there. We didnt go
to the nude beach we just went outside the door! Its just a short walk
from the house but u can drive if u want.

Anyway it was really funny cuz we got there b4 Flowers family! All
of us went thats Uncle Oz, Aunt Lizzie, Brandy, Mindy, Flower,
Matthew, and me. Really we werent there very long til Rickie,
Tyrone, Ike, and Pippy showed up. Matthew walked to Pippy right
away and then she walked right over to him and gave him a kiss! It
was so cute! Of course she kisses everybody. Then Brandy was like
arent they a little young to be dating? lol Then Rickie said “that
Matthew is a cradle robber!” lol

We didnt have to wait too long for the sun and it was really beautiful!
Of course u cant look right at the sun cuz it can damage ur eyes. But
when it first comes up u can see its reflection on the water. Its like
when the sun comes up everything just lights up! Mindy even said she
had a haiku moment and its really good Ill post it later. Its kewl cuz u
never see that in the city or even like in a forest cuz all the trees block
it or theres buildings or mountains or something. Its really beautiful. It
makes u think about the earth and how everything lives in harmony.
The sun gives us light and warmth and helps the plants grow. And the
plants feed the animals and the birds. Everything works together in
balance its all part of the flow of nature.

And then we even saw seagulls flying across the sky. It was kewl too
cuz I was thinking about how it shows how the God and Goddess
work together in love and harmony and create great beauty. And
when I was thinking that Flower said “thank you God!” So it was
neat. Cuz even though she doesnt believe in a Goddess which really
isnt balanced still she appreciates the same things we do. Its like
Wiccans and Christians can see the same world and see how beautiful
everything is. I just wish everybody would learn to live together in
harmony.

It was nice too its like we carried that harmony with us all day even to
breakfast. We all went to this place that makes every kind of omelet u
can think of! Its like u can put anything in ur omelet! Of course I love
omelets. I had ham and cheese with peppers and just a little sausage
and it was good!

Then we went back and played at this little playground it was fun!
Matthew and Pippy really liked it and we did too.

But then guess what we did and this u wont believe. We went back to
the nudist beach! But the part u wont believe is Mindy said this time
she was totally ready! So we got there and this time there was a lot
more ppl there! I dont know why there would be more on Sunday
than on Saturday that was weird. There was even this guy there that I
thought looked like American! Of course hes Mindys great uncle who
dated my Mommy b4 Daddy came back. And of course it wasnt
really American! lol But it got me thinking about Mommy dating other
guys. She dated American a lot and then right when Daddy moved
back to California she stopped. So I dont know cuz Mommy and
Daddy r separated again and Mindy said American dated some lady
but its not serious. So who knows what might happen! If Daddy gets
jealous hed better come back! lol

Anyway we said Mindy r u sure u still want to do it? And she said
yes! Then Aunt Lizzie said hurry b4 u change ur mind! lol So we
went in the changing place and stripped fast! We still had to do
sunscreen really I try to remember to do it b4 I get to a beach but I
always forget. Anyway we got ready and then said “this is it Mindy!
Ur nudist debut!” lol Of course she did it Saturday night but nobody
was there but us and this time there were guys! And one of them was
Kyle! If u dont know hes friends with Flowers family he surfs and
does Internet service. We didnt see Lianna but we saw Kyles friend
Normie. But Ill tell u more about them later.

Anyway Mindy said do a countdown! So we did! “Three Two One
Go!” and we all went outside naked even Mindy! So we were like Yay
Mindy! She did it! But she was like “quiet I dont want anybody to
notice me!” And really she was right cuz thats what Aunt Lizzie said.
So we just walked out like she did it all the time. But it was so kewl!

And guess what we did? We played volleyball! It is so weird playing
volleyball when ur naked! And really I never play it Im not any good
at it. I kept missing the ball! But Kyle didnt get mad he was our
captain hes really good. Normie was on the other team with Mindy
and Flower. But its funny cuz u can really feel urself bounce! lol I
have really small breasts but I could still feel them boucing! lol
Anyway our side lost but thats ok it was fun! I just played one game.
But Mindy played like three games! She had a really good time!

But this is the part that was funny. There was this guy who came in
and he wasnt even close he was standing like on the edge where the
trees and bushes r. And he was just watching! It was really weird cuz
u knew he was just watching cuz we were naked. I dont think he was
even supposed to be there cuz its a private beach.

So guess what Aunt Lizzie did? She waved to him! lol She only had
on her hat and her flip flops and she just walked up to him and said
“hi how r u? My names Lizzie whats urs?” And he was totally
embarrassed its like he couldnt even talk! Aunt Lizzie said he couldnt
even look at her not even her face! lol All he said was “Zach” thats it!
And Aunt Lizzie said “nice to meet u Zach” and tried to shake hands
with him. And he was afraid to even touch her hand! Then Brandy
went up too and said “hi Im Brandy” and tried to shake his hand and
he wouldnt shake hers either! it was so funny! Then he said “I have
to go now.” Then Aunt Lizzie said “See you next time! And be sure to
take ur clothes off first so we can really see you!” LMAO It was so
funny! Brandy tried not to laugh but she couldnt stop and Mindy and
me couldnt either!

It was kewl cuz I thought it would be a real problem with some weird
guy just watching us. But Aunt Lizzie chased him away by being
friendly! lol Aunt Lizzie is kewl. She can do almost anything with
men. Uncle Oz says she has a power over men and she does. Aunt
Lizzie taught me about it. Its the power of life and of sex. Its a power
that women have over men and I know a little about it too even
though Im a virgin.

Men r afraid of women cuz women bleed and when they dont bleed
their bodies make babies. Women have the power of life. Of course
women need men to have children but only for a moment. After that
all the power comes from the woman. Men r afraid of a womans
power and thats why they try to suppress them. Cuz u dont try to
suppress something u arent afraid of. But when women use their
power then the men run away!

Really the best thing is when u can share ur power with a man. Cuz
men r more powerful in some ways. Theyre stronger and more logical
and women have more control over sex and their emotions. Most men
cant control their emotions thats why they suppress them. Men who
act angry a lot and tell women what to do all the time r afraid of their
own weakness. Women who go to those men r weak in logic and self
esteem and have lost their power over sex. They actually give their
power away to the man. Its hard but a woman can get it back but she
might need help.

Ok I know I talked a lot about that but Im trying to do my diary
differently. I hope u arent bored!

Oh guess what we found out? Flower is going to middle school cuz
shell be in sixth grade. But her middle school is closer to Mindy and
me than her elementary school was and closer than her house is too.
So like on a Friday she could leave school and come straight to
Mindys! That would be really kewl. I really like Flower shes great.
And its good for Mindy to have a friend thats younger than her. I
know Ella just turned 13 but Ella looks older. But Flower doesnt have
an older sister cuz shes the oldest and Mindy just has younger
brothers and of course Im Mindys spiritual older sister. So its really
good for Flower to have an older girl to look up to and for Mindy to
have a younger girl to be a model for. I think Flowers going to be part
of the family! lol

Tomorrow is my last day b4 school starts! Really Im ready I did all
my clothes shopping already and got some of my supplies for college
but I still got a book to buy. I should have tried to get it used I dont
know why I forgot to do that! Cuz college textbooks r totally
expensive! Its really not fair either cuz they figure how much money
Mommy and Daddy make together but theyre separated! I think they
have to be separated a year b4 it counts. Anyway I make money from
babysitting but I have to get more kids to babysit!

Oh and tomorrow our branch is meeting so well find out what
Catovida wants to talk about.

But right now Im not going to worry. Cuz I had a really good
weekend!

Monday August 29 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Today is my last day free b4 school starts! But guess who called me
to go on a date? Deno! Thats really sweet but we just went out and
really why didnt he wait for school it starts tomorrow! I dont know
why school always starts on Tuesday instead of Monday but thats ok.
Its gives me another day off! lol I just told him Ill see him tomorrow
and we can talk about it. Ill have high school Mondays thru Fridays
and college on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, or Thursdays but Im not sure
which days! I dont know if Im taking two classes or three. I signed
up for three of course I did that online but I might just be able to take
two.

This year Carol will be going to high school with Mindy and me! Yay!
Of course Germana is too. Shes back from vacation she said it was
awesome! I dont know much about it yet but I know shell tell me
tomorrow. I thought Mindy would go to college with me this
semester but I think she will next semester. I think Germana is going
to college too Ill have to check.

I was going to take Social Studies and English in college but I have to
take another year of Spanish and I dont want to take that in high
school! Its like if u take Spanish in college and then in high school its
like starting all over. Es no bueno! lol That means “that’s no good.”
Anyway Ill tell u more about my school schedule tomorrow.

Mommy and Benny got a lot of moving done Mommys almost moved
out! She just has a few things to do and Uncle Frankie and I think
Aunt Ebee r going to help her so I wont have to! I thought she had to
be moved out Thursday but its Wednesday so shed better hurry. I
miss Benny and Brandy but at least I can see them now without hiding
it!

I have to tell u what Mommy said and this u wont believe. I thought
she came back early on the weekend cuz she had to move but that
wasnt the real reason. The real reason was she couldnt stand seeing
Uncle Oz with Aunt Lizzie! Isnt that weird? Its like Uncle Oz hasnt
been Mommys boyfriend since she was like 15 and nows shes 40
thats 25 years! Im like get over it! lol Im totally over Jules and its only
been three years since I dated him. And really I was over him in like a
month! But Mommy is feeling now like no guy wants her. But that is
totally not true! She thinks shes fat but shes not. And shes pretty! She
has a regular job shes a waitress at Dennys and shes fun. And she has
a great daughter! LMAO

Really I want to see Mommy back with Daddy. Mindy said American
is already talking to her so who knows? Daddy better come back b4
its too late!

Ok I have to get ready for my branch meeting.

later

U will not believe what Catovida wants to do! First let me tell u who
was there we met at his house. He said only our full members could
come but Rad was there anyway! It got really weird. Anyway it was
Catovida, Rad, Goldina, Mindy, Ella, and me thats it. Carol couldnt
come cuz of school starting. I thought Catovida wanted to be a High
Priest and not just a Priest and thats true. Rad said hes a High Priest
and Catovida is qualified! But then Goldina said he has to be accepted
as one by Miss Sasha and my coven. But then this u wont believe.
Rad said thats only if our branch stays with the coven! I could not
believe it! Then Catovida talked for a long time but what he said was
he thinks we should think about being our own coven!

There was a lot of talking about it but I cant write everything cuz a lot
of its private. But I said anything we decide has to be unanimous! Cuz
really it does. Oh Mindy just said shes proud of me for saying that isnt
that sweet? Anyway we didnt take a real vote we just asked opinions.
Of course Catovida thought we should separate and Rad did too. But
Rads not even a member of our branch! But Ella is and she said she
thought we should separate too! I could not believe shed say that!

But Goldina said she wanted to keep her ties to Miss Sasha cuz shes
the one who really started the branch and Miss Sasha did it with our
coven. And of course I want to stay connected to Miss Sasha and my
coven. And Mindy does too. So its like we were split! Carol wasnt
there but she could have broken the tie! Of course it wasnt a majority
vote it would have to be unanimous and of course it wasnt.

But then Rad was really mad and said Catovida should just leave! And
I was like dont leave! But Catovida said he didnt plan to leave he just
wanted to present the idea to us. Goldina said is that why u didnt want
Miss Sasha here? But he said it was cuz he didnt want to offend her.
He said he greatly respects her so thats good.

Anyway so were staying with the coven and Miss Sasha of course. I
hope the problems over!

I didnt want to sleep in my room in the antique store by myself cuz
tonight is my first night there! And tomorrow I start school! But
guess whos staying with me? Mindy! Its funny cuz weve been
sleeping together every night for almost a week! I slept at her house
last night and b4 that we stayed at the beach with Flower and at
Mindys house and at the slumber party with other girls. Its like I cant
sleep by myself anymore! lol

later

Having Mindy spend the night with me was totally kewl! Really I wish
we would have stayed Sunday night cuz today the antique stores
closed so then I wouldnt have ppl wandering around outside my door
my first day here. But Ill write about that for Tuesday.

We just watched a little TV and then we chatted on the Internet cuz
Im all hooked up! Yay! And I got a faster connection! I dont have
free Internet anymore but thats ok. It was kewl knowing nobody was
around but us but really it was also scary! Cuz my room is in the
antique store so if I just go outside my door theres all this stuff and
theres even stuff upstairs! Its like Im surrounded by junk!

But first let me tell u about my room. But I wont tell u everything! lol
I got a big bed its a full sized bed of course its the one I had in the
apartment. I got a small fridge with this tiny freezer thats only big
enough for like four Klondike bars. Oh Mindy says we could get six
or maybe eight in there but we just got four. I dont know why I
thought my bed wouldnt fit cuz theres lots of room! I guess its just
cuz we hadnt gotten all the junk moved out of there then. Anyway the
little fridge is right by my bed on the right side and its under my night
table. I got my lava lamp on it and a reading lamp, my alarm clock and
some other stuff on it but not a lot. The left side of my bed is next to
one wall and the head of my bed is next to another.

I have a dresser with a mirror and my computer is on a desk. I want a
full sized mirror but I dont know where to put it. I might get one I
can hang on the door I dont know. The TV is hanging on the wall! Its
kewl cuz u can look right at my TV when ur lying in bed and it plays
DVDs and videos. I also have a portable closet but really its too small.
I have a radio and a CD player too even though I dont have hardly any
CDs. Of course I can also play them on my computer. I dont have a
stereo cuz theres no room. I have a microwave oven but it doesnt
work right! I have to get another one. I got my figurine collection on
two shelves on the wall by my bed. Mindy put those up of course I
just helped her. I also have some of my favorite books on a shelf.

I dont have a lot of posters on the walls but I got paintings. The only
big poster is my one of Mike Myers as Austin Powers but I really
need a new one. But I like that poster! I also have a small poster that
tells about Wicca and has a nature scene its pretty. Mindys helping me
make a new collage of photos of my family and friends but we havent
done that yet we just picked out some photos. I think Flower wants to
help too. I got some pictures of horses and unicorns of course. But
Ive got this big bare space and I dont know what Im going to put
there! I need ideas! lol

The door to my bathroom is on the same wall as the head of my bed
and its to the right of my fridge. My bathroom just has a sink and a
toilet and a shower thats it! The toilet has a hard seat on it but I want
a soft seat. Like u really wanted to know that! lol We decorated my
bathroom with two green rugs and a green shower curtain and a
green curtain on the window. Dont ask my why I got green cuz I
straight up dont know! lol Mindy said I do have a bathtub in there cuz
Aunt Lizzie gave me this cute picture of this boy and this girl in the
bathtub! lol I also got a picture of a mermaid that looks kewl. I want
to get another picture but I dont have one I like yet. I really want one
of a dolphin but the ones I saw that I liked were too spenny. I might
get a glass frame for one I already have cuz anything u hang in the
bathroom can get wet. I want all the pics in my bathroom to be about
water. Really I wish I decorated in blue not green! But thats ok.

Oh theres a problem I didnt even think about b4 and this is a big
problem. I cant let Mr Biggles go outside without leaving my room!
So that sucks. It wasnt a problem Monday cuz nobody was in the
store. But what if I want to let him out and the store is open and Im in
my nightshirt? I dont want to have to get dressed just to let him
outside! And I straight up dont want to keep a cat box in my
bedroom! Ew! Mindy said maybe I could keep one in my bathroom
but I really dont want one in there either. So I dont know what to do!

Anyway it was kewl doing cuddles with Mindy last night. Of course
we didnt get much sleep cuz we knew we had school the next day!

later

I cant believe I totally forgot to tell u what I got in Psychology this
summer! Doh!

Psychology A-

Now u know!