Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary August 25 to 26 2005

Thursday August 25 2005

Dear Mr Biggles

I dont know why but Im really not nervous about my date with Deno.
Its just a friendship date I guess thats why. Really Im more nervous
about living in the antique store and making up with Ella!

later

I got everything totally moved out of the apartment. I mean my stuff
not Mommys. I even got a TV! Its a good one too! I still dont have
Internet hooked up there yet I have to do that. I really need a new
computer! But at least I got room! Theres more room than I thought
cuz there was still a lot of junk in there we moved out. Really its
bigger than my room at the apartment! Mindy and Uncle Frankie
helped a lot, and Aunt Ebee helped some too. Mommy didnt help at
all! We even moved a lot of things out of the apartment into Page and
Perrys house for Mommy so she doesnt even have much to do. I
guess Im going to sleep in the antique store tonight! I dont know it
seems really weird sleeping in a store. Maybe Mindy will sleep with
me cuz I never stay anywhere totally alone! I only did that like one
time and I felt a little scared about it.

later

Heres more good news even thought it means Im stupid! I talked to
Ella and shes not mad at me anymore! It was kewl cuz she even came
to the store so I could talk to her. Really shes my first visitor cept for
Mindy and Uncle Frankie and the family of course when they helped
me move. She said she wasnt really mad at me she was just
disappointed cuz she thought she wouldnt be able to meet Johnnie. He
doesnt care if I use his name cuz I use pseudonyms anyway hes
Placebo_Envy. But this is sad but he said he really wanted to meet
me! He was just afraid I wouldnt want to meet him! And Im like why
would he think that hes been an online friend for a long time! But I
guess its cuz he didnt have time to tell my Mommy or meet everybody
cuz he couldnt be here very long. He didnt even know he was coming
here til like a few days ago. And he thought Id only want to meet him
if our parents were there. But he didnt have time cuz he had to catch
his plane.

Ella said hes really sweet. He drove all the way out to see her! I think
he even rented a car! And he gave her some presents isnt that sweet?
I dont know everything but she said he gave her some CDs and even
some clothes for her birthday. Isnt that kewl? She wished she had
something to give him but she wasnt expecting presents! And I was
like Ella u didnt have to give him anything its ur birthday not his! lol
But she said she gave him a hug and a kiss so Im sure he liked that!
lol She said he didnt really spank her but he patted her butt so that
counts as a b-day spank! lol I really wish I would have met him that
was stupid! He even agreed to meet in public at a fast food place. He
didnt even have enough time to eat with her at a fancy restaurant cuz
I didnt give her a ride so she almost missed him! I am so stupid! But
really I cant drive anybody under 18 til Ive had my drivers license
longer. But I could have had Uncle Frankie or somebody drive us!

Anyway the good part is hes going to be back again! I think he travels
with his work or something but this was just a stopover. But next
time he might be here for a few days and rent a motel room.

Oh and Ella told me some other things too. First she said she already
knew Mindy and I did sharies she said we already told her that! But
Im like I dont remember that! I guess it was at a party or something I
straight up dont remember. Anyway really it doesnt matter.

Oh and guess what else? She said she and Wendi had help writing
their stories! I straight up didnt know that. She told me who helped
them and I could not believe it! But I promised I wouldnt say who it is
so I wont. But its weird cuz I didnt even know he wrote stories! But
she said she and Wendi would make up a story and then write it and
email it to him. Then he would rewrite it and make it a lot better and
email it back. So their stories were already edited b4 they asked me to
help! lol But she said he wanted to give them all the credit which is
sweet. Thats why his name isnt on them and of course they dont use
their real names anyway they use pseudonyms. Its funny cuz a lot of
ppl wouldnt think girls who r 12 and 13 write hot stories! lol But I
wrote poems about sex when I was 12.

Ok so then after that I had to get ready for my date with Deno! It was
a friendship date so dont think anything! lol I dont wear miniskirts
very often but Ella and Mindy talked me into it! lol I wore this three
tiered hot pink miniskirt with flowers and a hot pink cami and hot pink
shoes. And if u must know I wore a pair of hot pink bikini panties! Its
like my underwear never matches but this time I was totally hot pink!
Even my bag was hot pink! I didnt wear a bra cuz the cami has a built
in bra. I usually dont like wearing padded bras but thats ok Denos
seen me in regular clothes so he knows how small I am! lol I was
going to dress that way the first day of school but I might wear
something else. Really I think the skirt might be too short for the
stupid dress code anyway. I did a little more makeup than I usually do
but not a lot cuz I dont like a lot of makeup. And I used just a little
perfume but I wont tell u what cuz Becky keeps asking me what it is
and Im not telling her! LMAO

Eddie took us to the restaurant which is right by the theater. If u dont
know Eddie is Denos dad. It was kewl cuz he really looked at me and
said “you are one lucky guy, son!” Isnt that sweet? We both had
Mexican food I had tamales which I havent had in a while. Deno wore
a gray polo shirt with dark blue stripes and dark blue pants and black
and white shoes. He got totally embarrassed when he spilled some of
his beans on his shirt but I was like dont be embarrassed! I just used
my napkin and some water to brush him off and after it dried u
couldnt even tell. He acted like he wasnt sure about it at first but then
I think he liked me taking care of him! lol

Deno is big hes really strong. He wrestles and does rock climbing but
hes also gentle. Hes like a big bear! lol He was in my dance class of
course and hes taking it again this year and of course I will too. Hes a
little quiet so sometimes I had to think of things to say. Of course u
know I can talk! lol

Then we went to a movie but we didnt know what to see. Poor Deno
thought it would be a problem cuz I could see R rated movies and he
cant! But I told him I didnt care. Hell be 17 in like three months and
then he can. Its funny cuz I saw XXX rated stuff when I was like 6
but I had to wait 17 years to see R rated movies! lol Of course I mean
in a theater.

Anyway guess what we saw? March of the Penguins! Isnt that kewl?
Its like a lot of guys wouldnt want to see a movie about penguins! It
was an awesome movie its a documentary. This is funny too cuz its
all about sex but its G rated! I guess if its penguin sex it doesnt count!
lol Mindy wants to see it too but Im like Mindy u know I dont mind
seeing a movie about penguins again! If u dont know penguin is my
animal spirit. I really should start collecting more of them.

This was funny cuz Deno thinks his animal spirit is a bear. I have to
find the test so he can take it. But the figurine he gave me is a polar
bear and polar bears eat penguins! I told him I hope u wont eat me!
LMAO Of course he said he wouldnt like I was really worried! lol

Deno is sweet hes a great friend. But then this part was awkward cuz
of course it got to the end of the date. It was only a friendship date
but still. Eddie was going to take me home but thats weird cuz I cant
tell anybody I live in the antique store! Theres not supposed to be
anybody living there. So I was going to have him drop me off at Page
and Perrys cuz thats where Mommy and Matthew r moving to and of
course its right by the store. But its like I wasnt ready to spend the
night all by myself in the store! So I had him drop me off at Mindys
which is of course next door to the apartment were moving out of. I
know this is totally confusing! lol

Anyway Deno walked me to the door which was really sweet cuz
most guys dont do that. Of course Herbie always did. But I didnt
want to be thinking about Herbie when I was with somebody else!
And Denos just a friend anyway. But still he stood there and I know
he wanted to kiss me! Guys always do. Really a lot of them want to
kiss and make out during the date but Im straight up not going to be
making out on the first date! But I thought really on the end of the
date I could French kiss him! Cuz Im free now I can do what I want.
But then I thought that might give him the wrong idea. So I gave him
a hug and a little KOTL and said I had a great time! And he seemed
really happy so that was kewl. How many guys r really happy about a
kiss on the lips? So that was sweet.

Anyway so then I go to Mindys and said Mindy I dont want to go to
the antique store by myself! I thought she would go with me but she
said I could spend the night with her at her crib which was kewl. But
then I was like nobody even knows where Im spending the night! Cuz
Mommy would think I was in the store and so would Page and Perry
cuz thats what I was going to do. But anyway I told them so they
wouldnt worry.

But I dont know. I really dont want to live in a store!

Anyway tomorrow Mindy and I r going with Uncle Oz and Aunt
Lizzie and spend the weekend on the beach! Flowers family isnt
staying with us but well see them there! Its kewl cuz its like a
tradition that I spend the last weekend b4 school with Uncle Oz. I
cant believe Im going to high school and college next week and
vacations already over. I still dont know if Mommy and Matthew r
going to the beach house but I know Im going! And I dont even know
whats happening with Benny and Brandy either. But if Mommy doesnt
go were taking Mindy to her first nude beach!

Friday August 26 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

This is the last weekend b4 school! But this weekend should be really
kewl. Guess whos going to the beach timeshare with us? Mommy and
Matthew and Benny and Brandy! Yay! Mommy doesnt even know
Benny and Brandy r coming its a surprise! Theyre going to meet
Uncle Oz at the timeshare and then well see them when we get there!

It is so kewl that I can see them and Uncle Oz again and dont have to
hide it all the time. I wish Daddy would just get over it! He wanted me
to spend the weekend with him and my cuzins but I just told him I
couldnt cuz were moving. Really I know Mommys not going to move
til after the weekend but thats ok we got time. We dont have to be out
til the first. Of course that means we cant take Mindy to a nude beach
this weekend but thats ok. She says shes ready and I guess she is.
And of course Flower really wants her to go cuz Flowers been a
nudist all her life. But well get Mindy there next time!

I got some really good advise! Dena and Rocky both said if Johnnie
wanted to meet in a public place I could have met him and Id even be
with Ella so its not like Id be alone! So I dont know why I didnt. But
Rocky said I should be careful cuz he knows somebody who met
someone and they were a psycho! He told me who but I dont know if
I should say. But of course Johnnies not a psycho! LMAO Hes kewl.
If u dont know Rocky is Harmonys friend hes a really good artist. He
said I could tell u that.

Dena said shes met ppl online b4 and it wasnt ever a prob. But she
said til Im 18 dont meet anybody alone unless I already know them.
Really she said its better even if ur 18. She said its the same with a
blind date dont meet them at ur house.

later

Ok I just had to check on Kimberly and Rodney again! At least I dont
have Justin cuz Fridays r Mindys turn! lol I wish I still had three kids
I dont like making only $3.50 an hour. I need more kids! And really I
miss Garrett hes sweet. At least here Kimberly and Rodney can go to
their rooms so theres more for them to do. It will be easier when they
have homework.

This is weird but Catovida wants us to meet to talk about our branch
on Monday. And Im like next week is when school starts! And really
thats not much time to plan. But really I dont know what to plan
anyway! But he wants to meet without Miss Sasha there so I dont
know. I think its cuz he wants to be a High Priest. So I dont know
whats going to happen.

later

Guess what? Dolly had her baby and its a girl! Of course I already
knew it would be. Mindy just found out she was born even though it
happened yesterday. Her name is Clara and she was 7 lbs. She had
some problems cuz they had her in an incubator but shes ok now. I
really dont know anymore but Happy Birthday Clara!

later

Im at the timeshare! And guess whos here? Benny and Brandy! Yay! I
havent seen them in a long time so u know there was a lot of hugging
and kissing! lol But this was sad cuz Matthew almost acted like he
didnt even know who they were! He hasnt seen them in like a year not
since they got married. If u dont know theyre my half brother and
half sister but they arent even related to each other. Benny is the son
of Mommy and Uncle Oz and Brandy is Daddy and Ruthies daughter.

But what was really kewl was Mommy looked really happy to see
them! I was so glad. I wish Daddy would act that way I wish he was
here. I mean I wish he was here and not causing problems with
refusing to talk to them! Its like they got married a year ago so get
over it! Im sorry but Im pissed at Daddy. He caused a lot of problems
for this family! Oh Mindy says I should tell u I still love him of course
I do! I guess if I didnt love him so much I wouldnt be pissed I just
wouldnt care. Its like u dont really get mad at ppl u dont care about.
Oh Mindy just said that means Ella cares about me! Isnt that sweet?
But Ella isnt pissed at me anymore thank God even though it was
totally my fault.

Ill list everybody whos here. Mommy, Benny, Brandy, Matthew,
Uncle Oz, Aunt Lizzie, Mindy, and me. Thank goodness this is a
bigger house or we wouldnt all fit! lol Its not right on the beach but its
really close. Theres three bedrooms thats why Uncle Oz said he
invited everybody. Still its crowded! Uncle Oz and Aunt Besty will
sleep in one bedroom but I dont know where the rest of us will sleep
we havent figured that out yet!

later

Ok Ill tell u where everybody slept. Uncle Oz and Aunt Lizzie slept in
the master bedroom of course. It has its own bathroom. Then this
was weird but Benny and Brandy didnt even sleep together! Benny
said they decided not to cuz it would help Mommy get used to things
so thats sweet. Shes never seen them sleep together b4 but of course
I have. So Benny and Matthew slept in the living room. Really its good
cuz they started having fun with each other! Benny never had a little
brother b4 Matthew and then he didnt get to see him for a year! And
its really important for Matthew to see his older brother.

Then Mommy and Brandy slept in the kids room which has two beds
so they each had their own bed even though they were small. But it
was really good cuz then Mommy and Brandy could talk. Then Mindy
and I slept together in one bed in the guest room.