Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary August 1 to 5 2005

Monday Aug 1 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I am mad at Mommy! She gave notice for us to move out at the end
of the month! She already told me that but I am still mad. I have to
figure out what Im going to do! I cant believe were moving again! I
know I wrote this all b4 so I wont repeat it again.

And this is the last week Ill babysit Garrett so Ill just be taking care of
Kimberly and Rodney and that means $3.50 an hour instead of $6
which sucks! Mindy just started her babysitting job and shes making
the same as me! Oh cept that sucks too. I helped her babysit Brandi
and Dustin today but Justin was there again! Shes not paid for
babysitting him cuz hes 12 so they said he doesnt need a babysitter.
But hes still there so she still has to take care of him! And really he
was more trouble than Brandi and Dustin both! Brandi just spilled
something and Dustin got a little upset thats all. But Justin was talking
about taking off and he didnt have to do anything we wanted him to
do cuz he doesnt need a sitter. He needs a swat on the butt! Mindy
should be paid for three kids not two!

Its weird too cuz Ella is one of our friends and shes only 12 but shes
very mature! Im not sexist but sometimes I think girls r more mature
than boys. I dont know maybe its just cuz girls r raised more mature.
I guess its cuz were raised to have to learn how to take care of boys!
lol

later

I get really upset about moving but then Im not upset cuz really I dont
think its going to happen. Mommy just isnt thinking. Ill talk to Leslie
or Sibyl so they can talk sense to her! Sometimes Mommy is so bunk.

Anyway Ill talk about Lammas! I always feel better when Im with my
coven or with my branch. If u dont know Lammas can be Aug. 1 or
2 but everybody couldnt be here tomorrow. We had some new ppl
and one of them was Laura! Im so glad she could come. But Mindy
couldnt be there which sucked! Anyway we had Elder Priestess Miss
Sasha, her friend High Priestess Ladiam, High Priestess Goldina,
Priest Catovida, Priest Artariel which is me, Initiate Sealegs which is
Carol, Initiate Desmonia who is Ella, Quinn, Kayla, and Rad who is
Catovidas friend whos a full Wiccan or maybe a Priest I dont know.
Oh and Laura of course!

Im so glad Laura was there but I wish Mindy was too! And its sad
cuz Quinn is going to college and he wont even be there much
anymore! Really he cant come unless hes home for the weekend and
we have a ceremony then.

Catovida was talking again about how we need a High Priest and Rad
said what about Catovida? I looked at Miss Sasha to see what shed
say but she didnt say anything. But Goldina just said if he’d like to be
considered he could discuss it with all of us and then we could
discuss it with Miss Sasha and the coven. I know we really need a
High Priest and hes the only guy we have after Quinn moves! And
really hes the only guy whos official. He knows a lot about Wicca
more than me. But its not my decision it has to be unanimous! But it
would be kewl if he was. I mean if hes ready for it. But only Elder or
High Priestesses or Priests can tell when ur ready.

In a week Ill be on vacation with Mindy and Becky! Thats good cuz I
totally need a break from Mommy!

Tuesday August 2 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Its Perrys b-day but he never celebrates them.

Ive been talking a lot to everybody about moving and it sucks! I guess
we really r moving at the beginning of next month and back to Page
and Perrys. But I think we figured some things out.

First I can stay in Uncle Frankies old room in the antique store. I
really dont want to live there but at least Id have my own room! It
would suck though cuz they open the store in the morning and
customers would be there! Its like I could still be in bed with
customers wandering around! But I dont know. Id be in my room and
Id keep my door locked. And Id have my own bathroom even though
I wouldnt have a bathtub which sucks. But really I cant take long
baths now anyway unless I go to Mindys cuz they have two
bathrooms. But now shes next door but if I moved she wouldnt be!
But really the antique store is really close to Mindys.

She said I could stay in her room but really I dont think thats fair. Its
really sweet but there wouldnt be room unless they got a bunk bed.
And Mommy doesnt want me living somewhere else anyway. I
straight up dont want to live at my cuzins even though Daddys there
cuz its totally too crowded. And I dont want to sleep in a treehouse all
the time and that wouldnt be with Mommy or Daddy anyway that
would be at Mindys. And I cant live at Beckys.

And I definitely dont want to stay at Page and Perrys without my own
room! But I dont know. Becky said the room at the store could be
kewl. Cuz after the store closes nobody would be there and Id have
total privacy! It would almost be like my own apartment. I could have
friends over to spend the night or I could go to their house and
nobody would even know! And I got my own cell phone so ppl could
call me wherever I was. Oh and I definitely have to get my own TV!
Im not living there without a TV! But Mommy could still change her
mind about moving!

Oh and this part is good. Mindy figured this out. If we move it wont
be til Sept 1. But thats after school starts! So that means Id already be
starting the school year at my high school! So even if we moved after
that I could still go to my current school! So thats kewl.

I dont know maybe moving wouldnt be too bad. I just wish Daddy
would come back so we wouldnt have to!

Its like everything in my life is changing. Were moving and my
babysitting job is changing and we started our branch. Im finishing
my first year of college on Thursday and Ill be starting my senior year
of high school after vacation. And of course Im breaking up with
Herbie cuz Aug. 6 is our last day together.

Im really sad about not being with Herbie but Im glad cuz Ill be free
for awhile. And it doesnt have to be forever! And really it means I can
do anything I want on vacation! It will be kewl with Mindy and Becky
and me. Well be three hot high school chicks with no parents for a
thousand miles! LMAO j/k

Wednesday August 3 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Lauras going back today! I miss her already. And really we didnt get
to do much together. Of course she had other ppl to see. But I still
miss her!

I have my final test for Psychology tomorrow and Im worried about
it. I guess Im not really worried cuz I thought I did bad on my
midterm test and I got an A-. Really my grades in college r better than
my grades in high school! I dont know why.

later

Becky did something totally shocking! But Ill tell u about Laura first.

This was so sad cuz I had to say goodbye to Laura. I really missed
her and I dont know when shell be back again. She thinks maybe for
Christmas so that would be kewl. Shes one of my best friends I wish
she lived closer! But she said she thinks her Daddy will let her get on
the Internet more at school so thats good. At least we can email!

Ok u will straight up not believe what Becky told me. Shes 21! And I
was like Becky were both 17 1/2 silly girl cuz she was born two days
after me. But guess what she got? She got a fake ID! :o I was like
Becky why get a fake ID ull be 18 in six months! But she said her
drivers license says shes 21! And she already bought beer with it! I
told her she could get in big trouble for that but she said its a real
drivers license! I dont know how it works but she said Cassie’s friend
told her how to get it. She said the drivers license is real its from the
California government! I think she had to get a new birth certificate or
something I dont know how it works. She even has a new birthday
but I forget when it is I think its a month b4 her real one. And her
name is different on it her name is Crystal! I dont know if Becky
looks 21. Of course she reminds me a little of Drew Barrymore and
she looks young too so maybe it will work.

Im a little nervous about vacation. I dont know what Beckys going to
do now that shes 21! LMAO And I wont have a boyfriend then which
means Im free. But really that can be scary! And Im nervous about
driving. I dont know why cuz I drove b4 when we went there. I just
had my learners permit but this time Ill have my license. I dont
remember when I can drive ppl my age without somebody older in the
car Ill have to check.

Ok and Im nervous about seeing Allen! I think he might like me but I
dont know. Of course Im excited about seeing Harmony again but Im
not nervous about that! Hes a great friend. And Ill see Yvette and
Vickie and Josh and maybe Dan. And Allens band of course. Oh and
Dolly shes Vickies friend whos pregnant and guess what? Shes
scheduled to have her baby on August 15 but Mindy said pregnant
girls usually have their babies early when its the first one. And Dollys
just 14 and teenagers often have their babies early too. So she could
have her baby when were there! Isnt that kewl? It sucks though cuz
Yvette said Eddie left her thats her baby daddy. So I hope shes ok!
Anyway well also see Shirley and Martie thats Allens next door
neighbors and meet Stu and his kids. This should be a tight vacation!

I just hope I do good on my Psychology final test tomorrow!

Thursday August 4 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I had my Psychology final test today I hope I did ok! Really I dont
think I did very good I think I missed a lot of questions. Psychology
is hard! I wanted to be a psychologist but now I dont know. I hope I
didnt do too bad!

Poor Garrett was being really nice to me today. Tomorrows the last
day I babysit him and he keeps saying hell miss me. Isnt that sweet?
Really Ill miss him too hes a great kid. But he really doesnt need a
babysitter.

Mindy and Becky and I did three way calling and talked to Harmony
so that was kewl. He sounds calm but Mindy said she could tell he
was excited too! He doesnt think he can go see Allens band or go to
Six Flags with us cuz he has to work. But he wants to go to the lake
and the rodeo and he might even meet us when we fly there Monday!
And we might go to his house. He lives in the country and he has a lot
of animals like cats and dogs and goats and ducks and fish.

Oh and Becky told him now shes 21 so shes legal but I dont think he
knew what she meant! She was just being silly and of course hell
know when he reads my diary. Becky wants me to write that she
always was older than me but Im sorry Becky Im straight not going
to lie in my diary! lol Oh and Crystals b-day is Feb. 15 1984 thats
Beckys name on her new drivers license. She said she wants a party
for her 22nd b-day! lol Silly girl.

Ok Mindy says I should write my plans cuz I havent done that yet. Im
at Mindys and I might spend the night I dont know yet. I usually do
laundry here on Thursdays and I have a lot to do cuz I have to be
ready to fly on Monday! Friday is my last day babysitting b4 vacation
so Im going to try to pack early. Saturday I see Herbie for our two-
year anniversary and Ill see Daddy and my cuzins too and of course
Becky. Its sad cuz Saturday will be Herbie and my last day as
boyfriend and girlfriend! But of course its just a trial separation so it
might not even be for very long. Were going to dinner and a movie.
Then Im spending the night at Beckys or maybe my cuzins probably
Beckys.

Then the rest of this I dont know how it will work. Cuz either I will
spend Sunday night there and then ride with Becky to the airport or Ill
come back Sunday and then theyll pick me and Mindy up on Monday
morning. Im not sure. Anyway then Monday Becky and Mindy and I r
going to the airport and flying to Texas! I think we have one stopover
which means well land at another airport and then take off again and
then land in Texas. Yvettes going to meet us at the airport and I think
Allen and everybody in their family. Harmony might be too but Mindy
said she thinks hes meeting us later so I dont know. And I will
definitely take my airsickness pills a half hour b4 I fly! I dont get
carsick just airsick but I dont get that if I take my pill. I need my
drugs! LMAO

Ok Mindy and I r going to have a small ceremony for the new moon.
Of course that means its time for my period to start! Really this sucks
cuz Ill be starting my vacation on my period. I wish mine didnt last so
long! Some girls only last like three days but mine lasts almost a
week. Mindy really wants to have her first period but she doesnt
know how lucky she is not to have any! lol Oh and that means I
definitely wont be going downstairs with Herbie on our anniversary.
Really I wasnt going to anyway cuz it would just seem too weird
doing that the day u break up.

Friday August 5 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Tomorrow is my last day with Herbie! My feeling r totally mixed up
but I wont write that anymore cuz u already know that.

Today was my last day babysitting Garrett. It was so sweet cuz he
wanted to be close to me the whole time. I got like a hundred huggies!
Hes so sweet. He really doesnt need a babysitter anymore really he
didnt b4. They just didnt want him coming home to an empty
apartment.

This was weird though cuz then Kimberly and Rodney were acting
jealous and kept trying to get my attention! Dont they know this is his
last time? Of course Im going on vacation so I wont see them for a
week. Im starting my vacation now. Yay! Im nervous about flying
especially with what happened to that plane. But at least nobody was
hurt.

I have a lot of packing to do so Im going to get ready!