Lorien Loveshade's Private Diary, July 27 to 29 2005

Wednesday July 27 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

I cant believe this. Mommy is talking about moving in with Page and
Perry this weekend! Im like how can we move in three days? Oh
Mindy says its four but still! Lauras spending the night with me
tomorrow but her and Mindy r with me right now. Anyway I straight
up do not want to move!

And guess what Mommy said when I asked where am I going to
sleep? I said I am not going to sleep on the couch in the living room
and I cant sleep in anybody elses room! What are they going to do get
a bunkbed again and Ill sleep on top while Aunt Ebee and Uncle
Frankie r sleeping on the bottom? Or am I going to sleep on the floor
in Page and Perrys room? And Im not sleeping with Mommy and
Matthew!

So then guess what Mommy said. She said I could sleep in Uncle
Frankies old room! And Im like what? Uncle Frankie used to sleep in a
room in the antique store I am not sleeping in a room in the antique
store! Really nobodys supposed to be sleeping there thats why they
couldnt tell anybody he was there. And there isnt even a bathtub there
theres just a shower! I like baths not showers! When Daddy was here
I had to go to Mindys to take a long bath really I still do but she lives
next door.

And I straight up do not want to go back to my sophomore high
school not in my senior year!

Ok Mindy and Laura have some ideas they want me to write. First
Mommy and Matthew and I could move in with Beckys family cuz
they definitely have room now and they need help with house
payments. But that would mean Id be an hour away from Mindy and
my other friends! Id be with my old school friends which would be
good but I dont want to be away from Mindy and Ella and Germana
and everybody that would suck! And of course my coven branch!
Laura says at least Id be close to my coven again which is true. But
still!

Mindy said maybe I could live in their treehouse but Im sorry Mindy I
am straight up not living in a treehouse! I know it has air conditioning
and a heater but it still gets too hot in summer and too cold in winter
in there. And its not a real room! I dont want to have to climb a ladder
every time I want to go to bed!

Mindy even said maybe I could share her room which is sweet but
really it would be too crowded. Wed have to have bunkbeds. Thats
what I had to do when Aunt Ebee and I had a room together.

I even thought maybe I could move in with Cassie cuz shes getting
her own apartment. Shes moving this weekend unless she already
moved in Im not sure. I might help her move but not if Im moving!
She has a roommate but maybe if they got a bigger one shed have
room for me too.

I think Aunt Lizzie would probably let me stay there for a few days
but not forever! Oh and Germanas family has a really big house. But
would Mommy let me move somewhere else? I dont know. Really I
dont see any reason why I still have to live with Mommy anyway.

Oh the other idea is moving in with my cuzins where Daddy is but I
straight up do not want to do that! It is totally too crowded there! If u
dont know thats my old house we lost it when Daddy moved out the
last time. So my cuzins took over the payments. There r too many ppl
there already I dont want to be there too!

Ok I dont even want to talk about this anymore. Ill talk about
something else. Mindy hasnt read Ella and Wendis story yet and Laura
hasnt either. I didnt think Laura would want to read it cuz of her bad
experiences. But now she says she might if we read it together! Isnt
that kewl? She said things dont bother her like they used to. Thats
good. Shes had bad experiences with sex.

I wish Laura lived closer and she says she does too. Oh I should tell u
Im going back to see Becky and Herbie and my old school friends this
weekend and Laura is coming too! She was best friends with Becky
too and she hasnt seen her since Beckys Daddy died. I think it will be
good for Becky. Lauras spending the night at her house maybe two
nights Im not sure.

later

Laura and Mindy r getting along really well! Its so kewl! I knew they
would. I think if Laura still lived here theyd be best friends too! Really
theyre a lot alike. Theyre both smart and think about things a lot.
Mindy talks a little more than Laura but thats ok. Lauras a good
listener shes better than me. Oh Mindys a good listener too I dont
mean that!

We all read Ella and Wendis story and they thought it was good too!
We talked about editing it cuz thats what they wanted. Really I dont
think it needs much editing its good! I wish I could finish a story! I
dont know I might start a new one. I only got one more week of
college and I still have to finish my research paper. I have too much
to do! And I do not want to move!

Thursday July 28 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Ok guess what we figured out? We cant move this weekend! Mommy
and Daddy put a deposit on the apartment and I even put a deposit for
Mr Biggles cuz u have to do that if u have a pet. And we have to give
30 days notice or we dont get it back! The deposit is as much as a
months rent and thats not counting the one for Mr Biggles. So no way
can we pay for a months rent when we wont even be here! Mindy
and Laura figured that out thank Goddess!

Tomorrow Mindy starts her new job! Shes totally excited about it its
her first regular job. Shes babysitting two kids on Mondays and
Fridays. Im going to help her and I think Laura is coming too! Oh she
says she is. Shes here with me shes spending the night. I am so glad
Laura is here. I will totally miss her when shes gone! She says shell
miss me too.

I dont know if were going to Beckys tomorrow or on Saturday. Im
seeing Herbie on Saturday and Im really nervous about it. It will be
our last date b4 our anniversary and we got a date then and then were
breaking up! Really its sad. Ok Ill talk about something else.

Im asking for help editing Ella and Wendis story and they said thats
ok. But guess what Laura said? She said she might want to write a
story with me! Isnt that cool?

Ok Im going to spend some time with Laura instead of just writing
my diary! lol

later

U wont believe what Laura did! First she said she didnt mind sleeping
in my bed with me. We used to do that all the time but then after she
had her bad experiences she stopped doing that. I have a big bed
anyway theres lot of room. But I didnt think shed do cuddles cuz she
stopped doing that too. But when we were in bed she moved over by
me and put her head on my shoulder and put her arm around me. Isnt
that sweet? I am so glad shes comfortable doing cuddles again. Shes a
great friend. I love u Laura!

Friday July 29 2005

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Mindys starting her new babysitting job today! Yay Mindy!

Mommy is still talking about moving in with Page and Perry but she
already knows we cant do that! If we dont give notice wed lose the
whole deposit! I wish Mommy would just grow up.

Guess what Laura and I r doing? Were writing a story together! Its
not a sexy story really its sweet. Its a fantasy story about this girl
who gets lost in the woods. I wont tell u what happens cuz really I
dont even know yet we havent written it all! lol And I am definitely
writing more poems too. I really think I want to get some published in
a magazine. I got my Sept 11 poem published in a book at school that
was in middle school. But I want to publish more!

I am so lucky that I have such great friends. My best friends r Laura,
Becky, Mindy, and Germana. That’s not in order of best thats in order
of how long they’ve been my friends. Oh and Harmony hes my best
online friend even though I know him IRL now. Really Herbie is one
of my best friends too of course but hes my boyfriend so thats
different .But now that were breaking up I guess hell be one of my
best friends. I dont know though cuz this is weird. My best friends r
the only ones who know me IRL who read my diary. But Ive never let
Herbie read my diary and really I dont think I should. I write a lot
about him I dont think I should let him read!

later

Ok we had a total change of plans. My plans keep changing! lol Aunt
Lizzie called and guess whos here? Uncle Oz! And now that Daddys
gone I can see him! Hes coming here in like 10 minutes! This will be
so cool!

later

I saw Uncle Oz and Mindy saw him too! I wish Laura could cuz shes
known him for a long time. Its weird cuz I think she met him right b4
she moved.

But guess what? Mommy and Uncle Oz were talking a lot! We even
went to dinner together and Mindy went with us. And Mindy thinks
Mommy was flirting with Uncle Oz and Uncle Oz was flirting back! I
cannot believe it! Really it seems weird but I should explain. Uncle Oz
isnt really my uncle hes Bennys father. Benny is my oldest brother.
Mommy got pregnant by Uncle Oz b4 she married Travis but Travis
didnt know it and Mommy didnt either til she had a test. Travis is
Mommys first husband b4 Daddy.

And guess what else? I talked to Uncle Oz about timeshares and he
said we could all go to one with him. And Mommy said we might do
it! Isnt that kewl? I dont know which one cuz he goes to a lot of them
and Ill be gone on vacation part of the time. Hes also going camping
and I love camping! But Mommy said no way she doesnt want to stay
in some tent. I think shed like camping if we went in a big camper.
Really I like sleeping in a tent cuz ur closer to nature.

Anyway Daddy doesnt like Uncle Oz. So Im like if Daddy thinks
Uncle Oz and Mommy r flirting with each other then Daddy might get
mad and move back! Especially if he hears that Mommy and I r going
to a timeshare and will spend the night with him! Daddy doesnt really
act jealous he acts protective but really I think he gets jealous some
times. I think he was totally jealous of American when Mommy dated
him. American is Mindys great uncle but they stopped dating after
Daddy came back. Anyway this could be good! But then Im like how
do I tell Daddy that Mommy was flirting with Uncle Oz?

later

Oh I should tell u I was going to help Mindy babysit Brandi and
Dustin but everything changed. Anyway its ok cuz really she didnt
need help and Laura was with her part of the time anyway. It was
weird though cuz Mindy said Justin was there the whole time and
shes not paid for sitting him! Hes 12 so they said he doesnt need a
sitter but they dont think he can take care of his little brother and
sister. But if hes there Mindy should be paid for him too! But really I
dont know this might be the only time hell be there. I hope so cuz
Laura said he was more trouble than Brandi and Dustin!

I had to babysit Kimberly and Rodney and Garrett of course. I only
have Garrett for one more week and then Ill just have Kimberly and
Rodney. I have to find somebody else to babysit or I wont make
enough money!