| JuLy 1 - 3 2005 |
Friday July 1 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Mindy and I did it! I talked to Page and Perry and I told them I was going
on vacation for a week with Mindy. Of course really nobody said I could yet
but thats what I told them. Then I said did they think it would be ok if
Mommy came over if Daddy wasnt back yet? Of course I figured Daddy
will be back a long time b4 then but I didnt tell them that! Then Page said
“sure.” Then I said if I flew with Mindy do u think it would help me get over
my fear of flying? And they said “yes, it probably would.”
So then I told Mommy Page and Perry said they thought it would be good
for me to go on vacation with Mindy again cuz of course we did that b4.
Only last time it was her whole family it wasnt just Mindy and me. Anyway I
said they told me it could help me get over my flying fear, and also told
her that they would be happy to have her stay with them when Im gone so
they could help take care of Matthew for her. They still have the spare
bedroom she could use she stayed there b4 when we lived with them.
And she said “all right thats ok. I just wish ur father would come home.”
Then she started talking about how upset she was about Daddy being
gone which really I am too. But she said it was ok!
So this is so kewl. So Mindy and I already checked with the airline and we
reserved our tickets! Greg helped me cuz I dont have a credit card I wish I
did. Ill be here for my anniversary with Herbie of course thats August 6. I
wanted to fly the next day but they didnt have any of the cheapest seats
available. So were flying August 8 which is a Monday. Really Mindy said
thats better than flying the day after my anniversary anyway. And its perfect
cuz my last class is August 4 so Ill be totally thru with school b4 my
vacation. This is so kewl!
Oh and really Im not that afraid of flying anymore. I flew to Ohio and that
was all by myself. I dont really want to fly but driving takes forever! And I
couldnt drive Mindy and me either til I have my license for six months.
But now I have to tell Herbie that I want to break up with him after August
6! Its not really breaking up cuz were promised til then. Mindy said its like
it would end anyway if we didnt renew. Were going out tonight but I dont
think a date would be a good time to tell him! But I have to tell him soon
cuz I know hell plan something for our anniversary. I wish I knew how to
tell him!
Oh and it wont work for us to stay at Aunt Lizzies. She cant do it cuz
something came up which sucks. But its not her fault of course.
later
We had our double date it was fun! We saw War of the Worlds and it is a
good movie! Dakota Fanning is a really good actress even though shes a
kid and of course I like Tom Cruise. I wont tell u the whole movie but it
has a lot of action and parts of it r gross. But thats ok I still liked it!
There were a lot of ppl there but Herbie still got his aisle seat! lol He sat
on the left, then me, then Deno, and then Mindy. Deno likes to talk during
a movie but of course Herbie is totally quiet. But really Deno was
whispering so thats ok. I dont really care as long as its not disturbing
anybody.
We got some fast food afterward and just chilled. But then this I could not
believe. Mindy said maybe we could park somewhere and look at the
stars! And I was like u dont park with a guy to look at stars! LMAO Ok I
have looked at stars when Ive parked with Herbie and of course were all
Wiccan. Really I dont know if Deno really is but hes gone to a lot of our
ceremonies. So thats what we did! Herbie drove with me riding shotgun
and Deno and Mindy were in the back with Mindy on the left. I didnt even
know where to park but Mindy did! I was like how does Mindy know where
to park when I dont? Of course I know a great place near my old school
but not here. Anyway thats what we did! And u know there was a lot of
steamy kissing! lol
Anyway the bad part was Herbie had to go back. I really miss Herbie I
wish we could have stayed at Aunt Lizzies together. And now its like Im
not even sure I want to break up with him! Herbie is so sweet hes a great
boyfriend. Hes a wonderful guy. He even remembered that our first
romantic date was two years ago! I write down the dates for everything but
Herbie doesnt even have to do that he just remembers! Hes really sweet.
But still I want to be free to date other guys! And really I think Id want to be
Herbies girlfriend if we could just date someone else. Not like all the time
I mean just to try it. Like if we said “ok for the next month we can date
somebody else and then we can talk about it” or something. But that is
straight up not going to happen. I know Herbie doesnt want to do that.
But then Im like do I want to give up Herbie just so I can some some
other guys? I dont even know what other guys I want to date! I dont know
this sounds stupid.
Saturday July 2 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Daddy is still not back! And tomorrow is Caseys birthday and of course
Daddys at their house. And then Monday is Mommys birthday. Daddy has
to be back b4 then! Maybe hell come back when we see him tomorrow. I
hope he does!
Dena said its not my fault but of course I know its not. Steve Steve thinks
its cuz Daddy was gambling and I should join a support group! But I dont
know. I think its just cuz Mommy and Daddy cant work out their problems.
All they do is Mommy screams and Daddy gets quiet. And then when
Mommy screams too much then he leaves. I do not like living that way!
But I dont want Daddy to be gone either!
Ok I dont want to write about it all day but I dont know what to write. I
thought I would feel really happy right now. Im going on vacation with
Mindy which I really want to do. We started our Wiccan branch which I
really like. Im out of school for the summer cept for one class but thats
like taking three classes cuz it only last six weeks. We arent taking care of
Mrs. Cox house anymore but we havent started the recycling yet. Oh and I
still havent told Germana about my site. So why do I feel depressed? I
know Daddys coming back. I hope he is!
later
I got a couple of hot stories to tell u about!
First Beth wrote a totally hot story! Thats the Beth I know online the one
whos Steve Steves friend not Beckys sister. I knew she wrote poetry she
writes really good poems. Shes like exactly a year younger than me she
was born the same month and shes kewl. Anyway she has an online
diary too cept she doesnt write as much as I do. Really thats cuz I write
too much! But I didnt know she wrote sexy stories! Maybe I should write
one! lol Ive written sexy poems but not stories. But hers made me feel
exponential! ;) But I wont tell u what its about ull have to ask her!
But then guess what else? Steve Steve wrote his story about us! Its about
Mindy, Becky and me and I know its hot too! We read part of it b4 but that
was just a rough draft and it was just the beginning. But it was really
good. And now Steve Steve finished it! I cant believe hed write a whole
story about us that is so kewl! Thank u Steve Steve! I really wanted to read
it after I read Beths story. But I really want to read it with Mindy and Becky!
But I dont know how thats going to work cuz we wont see Becky til next
weekend and I straight up dont want to wait a whole week to read the
story! So I guess Ill just read it with Mindy and Becky can read it by herself.
But I wish we could read it together that would be awesome!
Sunday July 3 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Today was an awful day I dont even want to write about it. Mommy
decided we should go to Denise and Nolans really early and of course
thats cuz Daddys staying there. So we went for Caseys birthday and
nobody was even ready yet! But Daddy was there! I gave him a big hug
and a KOTC cuz I missed him so much! I didnt know how much I missed
him til I saw him again. He used to give me kissies on the lips but he
doesnt even do that anymore and he doesnt hug me like he did when I
was a little girl. Sometimes I wish I was still a little girl.
Anyway it was weird with Mommy and Daddy cuz it was like they didnt
know how to act around each other. Of course Daddy acted like he didnt
care cuz thats the way he acts even thought it straight up doesnt fool me. I
think it does Mommy though. And Mommy started talking about everything
and then it got really weird cuz she was driving Daddy crazy! And then he
said he had to go to the store and left. And then Mommy tried to follow
him out the door! And Im like when Daddy wants to go u let him go then
wait til hes ready to come back. U straight up dont follow him!
Then Denise and Nolan were acting like nothing was wrong. And then the
kids got in a fight. And then I didnt even want to be there! Its like I wished I
hadnt even gone! Then Mommy came back in and was all mad and
crying. And then she talked AGAIN about how shes going to be 40
tomorrow and whats she going to do and how can she get Daddy back
but she doesnt want him back she doesnt care and she doesnt want to
ever see him again but if she was nicer do u think hed come back? It was
just crazy! Mommy acts crazy a lot but this was worse! And then Denise
was trying to talk to her and being logical and Im like that does not work
with Mommy. Thats what Daddy does to her and thats what makes her
mad!
Anyway we had the birthday party and other ppl and my family were there
but I dont even feel like talking about it. Daddy didnt even come back! We
didnt even see him til we were leaving! And then Mommy ran out and then
it all happened all over again. I sat in the car and I straight up did not want
to hear it. I know this sounds silly but I put my hands over my ears! I did
not need to hear them arguing about the same things they argue about
all the time!
I dont know what to do. Im taking Psychology but I just started and that
doesnt make me a marriage counselor! Maybe I should go to a support
group or something. I wish Mommy and Daddy would work things out!
And tomorrows Mommys birthday! I want her to have a happy birthday but
how can I give her that if Daddys not here?
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Mindy and I did it! I talked to Page and Perry and I told them I was going
on vacation for a week with Mindy. Of course really nobody said I could yet
but thats what I told them. Then I said did they think it would be ok if
Mommy came over if Daddy wasnt back yet? Of course I figured Daddy
will be back a long time b4 then but I didnt tell them that! Then Page said
“sure.” Then I said if I flew with Mindy do u think it would help me get over
my fear of flying? And they said “yes, it probably would.”
So then I told Mommy Page and Perry said they thought it would be good
for me to go on vacation with Mindy again cuz of course we did that b4.
Only last time it was her whole family it wasnt just Mindy and me. Anyway I
said they told me it could help me get over my flying fear, and also told
her that they would be happy to have her stay with them when Im gone so
they could help take care of Matthew for her. They still have the spare
bedroom she could use she stayed there b4 when we lived with them.
And she said “all right thats ok. I just wish ur father would come home.”
Then she started talking about how upset she was about Daddy being
gone which really I am too. But she said it was ok!
So this is so kewl. So Mindy and I already checked with the airline and we
reserved our tickets! Greg helped me cuz I dont have a credit card I wish I
did. Ill be here for my anniversary with Herbie of course thats August 6. I
wanted to fly the next day but they didnt have any of the cheapest seats
available. So were flying August 8 which is a Monday. Really Mindy said
thats better than flying the day after my anniversary anyway. And its perfect
cuz my last class is August 4 so Ill be totally thru with school b4 my
vacation. This is so kewl!
Oh and really Im not that afraid of flying anymore. I flew to Ohio and that
was all by myself. I dont really want to fly but driving takes forever! And I
couldnt drive Mindy and me either til I have my license for six months.
But now I have to tell Herbie that I want to break up with him after August
6! Its not really breaking up cuz were promised til then. Mindy said its like
it would end anyway if we didnt renew. Were going out tonight but I dont
think a date would be a good time to tell him! But I have to tell him soon
cuz I know hell plan something for our anniversary. I wish I knew how to
tell him!
Oh and it wont work for us to stay at Aunt Lizzies. She cant do it cuz
something came up which sucks. But its not her fault of course.
later
We had our double date it was fun! We saw War of the Worlds and it is a
good movie! Dakota Fanning is a really good actress even though shes a
kid and of course I like Tom Cruise. I wont tell u the whole movie but it
has a lot of action and parts of it r gross. But thats ok I still liked it!
There were a lot of ppl there but Herbie still got his aisle seat! lol He sat
on the left, then me, then Deno, and then Mindy. Deno likes to talk during
a movie but of course Herbie is totally quiet. But really Deno was
whispering so thats ok. I dont really care as long as its not disturbing
anybody.
We got some fast food afterward and just chilled. But then this I could not
believe. Mindy said maybe we could park somewhere and look at the
stars! And I was like u dont park with a guy to look at stars! LMAO Ok I
have looked at stars when Ive parked with Herbie and of course were all
Wiccan. Really I dont know if Deno really is but hes gone to a lot of our
ceremonies. So thats what we did! Herbie drove with me riding shotgun
and Deno and Mindy were in the back with Mindy on the left. I didnt even
know where to park but Mindy did! I was like how does Mindy know where
to park when I dont? Of course I know a great place near my old school
but not here. Anyway thats what we did! And u know there was a lot of
steamy kissing! lol
Anyway the bad part was Herbie had to go back. I really miss Herbie I
wish we could have stayed at Aunt Lizzies together. And now its like Im
not even sure I want to break up with him! Herbie is so sweet hes a great
boyfriend. Hes a wonderful guy. He even remembered that our first
romantic date was two years ago! I write down the dates for everything but
Herbie doesnt even have to do that he just remembers! Hes really sweet.
But still I want to be free to date other guys! And really I think Id want to be
Herbies girlfriend if we could just date someone else. Not like all the time
I mean just to try it. Like if we said “ok for the next month we can date
somebody else and then we can talk about it” or something. But that is
straight up not going to happen. I know Herbie doesnt want to do that.
But then Im like do I want to give up Herbie just so I can some some
other guys? I dont even know what other guys I want to date! I dont know
this sounds stupid.
Saturday July 2 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Daddy is still not back! And tomorrow is Caseys birthday and of course
Daddys at their house. And then Monday is Mommys birthday. Daddy has
to be back b4 then! Maybe hell come back when we see him tomorrow. I
hope he does!
Dena said its not my fault but of course I know its not. Steve Steve thinks
its cuz Daddy was gambling and I should join a support group! But I dont
know. I think its just cuz Mommy and Daddy cant work out their problems.
All they do is Mommy screams and Daddy gets quiet. And then when
Mommy screams too much then he leaves. I do not like living that way!
But I dont want Daddy to be gone either!
Ok I dont want to write about it all day but I dont know what to write. I
thought I would feel really happy right now. Im going on vacation with
Mindy which I really want to do. We started our Wiccan branch which I
really like. Im out of school for the summer cept for one class but thats
like taking three classes cuz it only last six weeks. We arent taking care of
Mrs. Cox house anymore but we havent started the recycling yet. Oh and I
still havent told Germana about my site. So why do I feel depressed? I
know Daddys coming back. I hope he is!
later
I got a couple of hot stories to tell u about!
First Beth wrote a totally hot story! Thats the Beth I know online the one
whos Steve Steves friend not Beckys sister. I knew she wrote poetry she
writes really good poems. Shes like exactly a year younger than me she
was born the same month and shes kewl. Anyway she has an online
diary too cept she doesnt write as much as I do. Really thats cuz I write
too much! But I didnt know she wrote sexy stories! Maybe I should write
one! lol Ive written sexy poems but not stories. But hers made me feel
exponential! ;) But I wont tell u what its about ull have to ask her!
But then guess what else? Steve Steve wrote his story about us! Its about
Mindy, Becky and me and I know its hot too! We read part of it b4 but that
was just a rough draft and it was just the beginning. But it was really
good. And now Steve Steve finished it! I cant believe hed write a whole
story about us that is so kewl! Thank u Steve Steve! I really wanted to read
it after I read Beths story. But I really want to read it with Mindy and Becky!
But I dont know how thats going to work cuz we wont see Becky til next
weekend and I straight up dont want to wait a whole week to read the
story! So I guess Ill just read it with Mindy and Becky can read it by herself.
But I wish we could read it together that would be awesome!
Sunday July 3 2005
Dear Mr BiGgLeS
Today was an awful day I dont even want to write about it. Mommy
decided we should go to Denise and Nolans really early and of course
thats cuz Daddys staying there. So we went for Caseys birthday and
nobody was even ready yet! But Daddy was there! I gave him a big hug
and a KOTC cuz I missed him so much! I didnt know how much I missed
him til I saw him again. He used to give me kissies on the lips but he
doesnt even do that anymore and he doesnt hug me like he did when I
was a little girl. Sometimes I wish I was still a little girl.
Anyway it was weird with Mommy and Daddy cuz it was like they didnt
know how to act around each other. Of course Daddy acted like he didnt
care cuz thats the way he acts even thought it straight up doesnt fool me. I
think it does Mommy though. And Mommy started talking about everything
and then it got really weird cuz she was driving Daddy crazy! And then he
said he had to go to the store and left. And then Mommy tried to follow
him out the door! And Im like when Daddy wants to go u let him go then
wait til hes ready to come back. U straight up dont follow him!
Then Denise and Nolan were acting like nothing was wrong. And then the
kids got in a fight. And then I didnt even want to be there! Its like I wished I
hadnt even gone! Then Mommy came back in and was all mad and
crying. And then she talked AGAIN about how shes going to be 40
tomorrow and whats she going to do and how can she get Daddy back
but she doesnt want him back she doesnt care and she doesnt want to
ever see him again but if she was nicer do u think hed come back? It was
just crazy! Mommy acts crazy a lot but this was worse! And then Denise
was trying to talk to her and being logical and Im like that does not work
with Mommy. Thats what Daddy does to her and thats what makes her
mad!
Anyway we had the birthday party and other ppl and my family were there
but I dont even feel like talking about it. Daddy didnt even come back! We
didnt even see him til we were leaving! And then Mommy ran out and then
it all happened all over again. I sat in the car and I straight up did not want
to hear it. I know this sounds silly but I put my hands over my ears! I did
not need to hear them arguing about the same things they argue about
all the time!
I dont know what to do. Im taking Psychology but I just started and that
doesnt make me a marriage counselor! Maybe I should go to a support
group or something. I wish Mommy and Daddy would work things out!
And tomorrows Mommys birthday! I want her to have a happy birthday but
how can I give her that if Daddys not here?
| Copyright by Lorien Loveshade |
| My DiArY! |
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| Mindy and I r going on vacation by ourselves! |
| Our Double Date! |
| Do I date other guys? |
| Daddy still hasn't come home! |
| Two Totally Hot Stories and One of Thems About Becky and Mindy and ME! |
| Today was an awful day. :( |
