Lorien Loveshade's Secret Teen Diary March 13 to 14 2002

Wednesday, March 13, 2002

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

(present icon) Happy Birthday to Me! (cake icon) Im 14! (face with sunglasses icon)

They sang happy birthday to me in Mrs Hills class it was cool. I acted like I was embarrassed but I
wasnt! lol

Oh now this is wierd. A bunch of ppl said happy b-day to me but thats not whats wierd. But Herbie
came to me and gave me a present. This time I remembered to open it when he could see! lol He
gave me a book about Wicca but guess what it was? Wicca Love Spells by Gerina Dunwich. And Im
like its really nice to get a book but why love spells? I mean I thanked him it was sweet but right now I
dont need a love spell! lol But he says he doesnt need it anymore so Im thinking its a book he had
and he knows Im wiccan so Im thinking its sweet.

Ok but now this is even wierder. He gave me a card which was real pretty it has a unicorn on the front
and he knows I love unicorns. But this is what it said

Dear Lorien,

You are a wonderful girl. You have been a wonderful friend and I hope you have a great birthday.

Your Friend,

Herbie

And I thank him and give him a hug and then Jules sees me and so I put the book away cuz I know he
wouldnt like it cuz its Wiccan. And Jules looks like hes upset and I dont know why. And then he tells
me he doesnt like me hugging other guys! And Im like it was just a hug Herbies just a friend I dont like
him that way. But Jules is really jealous. I know he cares about me and then I say its just a birthday
hug and he says ok then thats ok if it was a birthday hug. I mean Jules doesnt have to worry about
me! :)

So then Jules gives me his present and its these beautiful earrings! There little gold crosses and
there very pretty. So I give him a big hug and I almost say "I love u" but I dont. Its sweet cuz Im getting
my ears pierced tomorrow so now I have somthing to wear!

Ok Im sorry I didnt say what was wierd about the card. Im thinking what he wrote sounds familier (how
do u spell that). When I get home I look at the Valentine message in the school newspaper for Lorien
which I thought was for a different Lorien and the first lines says

Dear Lorien,

You are a wonderful girl.

Its exactly the same! So it must have been Herbie who wrote it! But read the whole thing

Dear Lorien,

You are a wonderful girl. I have loved you for the longest time. I think about you always.

I hope you

guess who this is from and feel the same way.

Love from Anonymous

And so Im thinking Herbie was in love with me! And then he must have been the one who sent me the
other Valentine with the card and the heart sucker and the card said

To my Secret Love

I knew he liked me of course but I didnt know he loved me! So now Im thinking its sad cuz Im falling in
love with Jules but I guess Herbie said he doesnt need the book now so hes not in love with me
anymore and thats good but thats kind of sad too! I felt bad about that. But really its good cuz I dont
want Herbie to be unhappy.

Anyway Im thinking Im STOOPID but what else is new? Anyway Becky sees me and we start talking
and I get excited about the party and I feel fine now. Especially cuz I got no school tomorrow! I forgot
about that. And Pamela is going so thats cool. Oh Becky says I have to go to the coven meeting
tomorrow and I think I know why! And Mommy and Daddy said I can go cuz theres no school tomorrow
so this is really cool!

Ok I got to go Page and Perry and Aunt Ebee just got here! Happy b-day to me!

later

The rest of my b-day was AwFuL! :(

First Perry was complaining about making a long drive here and back in the middle of the week
instead of the weekend but they couldnt do that cuz I was going to be busy all weekend. And then he
said the gas tax was all going into the polititians (how do u spell that) pocket. So that was like the first
thing I heard when I saw them. But he complains about polititians all the time so I didnt know it was a
sign of trouble.

So then we ate dinner and Mommy was complaining again cuz Page and Perry were real late and
everything was cold and she had to reheat. We had spagetti with meat balls, corn and mashed
potatoes and salad.

Then I got my presents and that part would have been good except Daddy was saying lets open the
presents and Mommy said why the rush so you can go play poker? And Nolan was saying maybe we
ought to skip the game tonight its her birthday and Daddy said were celebrating her birthday arent
we? And then Mommy started getting upset with Daddy. So then Perry started taking about poker and
then Page said stop talking about the damn game lets open the presents.

So I wasnt feeling very happy already but I opened them. I got The Lord of The Rings books which
was something I really wanted. I also got a pretty skirt with flowers and a cute horse figure that had a
mother horse and its baby. Oh and I got a whole bunch of money I got $52! I didnt get money for
Christmas but almost everybody sent me money for my birthday! So that part was good but then
Daddy said I should put some of it in savings. Then Mommy said at least u teach her to save and he
says what do u mean by that and then they start arguing about money and him playing poker again.
And then she says thats why they shut the electricity off cuz we couldnt pay the bill! And I didnt even
know about that it came back on right after I got home from school and I dont think I even wrote that
down so I cant remember when that was.

And then Brandy says I cant stand this and she goes to her room and slams the door. And then its
like everybodys arguing except Aunt Ebee and me and Im feeling like I want to cry so we get away
from them and shes real nice to me at least. So then I tell her I hope the slumber party will be better
and then she says that would be really nice it would be fun to go to a slumber party and then I realize
that she wants to go and I didnt invite her! I mean I didnt even think about it cuz theyd have to drive all
the way here plus shes my aunt but shes only 15 same age as Beth. And then later Im thinking we
could have had my b-day party on Saturday and she could have come to the slumber party on Friday
and then they could have picked her up when they came on Saturday and Perry wouldnt be
complaining about driving out during the week. But there store is open on Saturday anyway so I dont
know what difference it makes.

So now Im feeling upset with myself cuz I know she wanted to come and shes the only one who wasnt
arguing. So then finally we go back in and its like nobodys hardly talking at all. So then Mommy says
its time and everybody come in here and nobody acts like they want to. And Brandy doesnt even want
to come out of her room! So we have my cake its chocolate at least and we have chocolate and
vanilla ice cream. But when I blow out the candles to make my wish I wish everybody would just stop
fighting! I dont say that but thats what I think.

So then I give kisses and hugs to Perry and Page and Aunt Ebee and they leave. And Nolan goes
home and Daddy doesnt leave so I think at last everythings going to be peaceful and I got my wish.
But then Brandy bursts out of her room and she has like three suitcases. And she says Im leaving I
cant stand this arguing anymore! And Mommy and Daddy are like where r u going? And she says out
of here. And then they start arguing and then Daddy starts saying u came here to get out of trouble r
u going right back into it? And they argue and then I hear a truck and its Les! I thought she was going
back to her Mom and stepdads house! And then Daddy looks and says u had better be sure cuz if u
leave with him now u arent coming back. And she says Ill be back to get the rest of my stuff and then
u wont have to put up with me anymore. And then Daddy yells this is ur last chance! But she leaves
and slams the door! So them Mommys all upset and starts crying and I start crying and I run to my
room with Mr Biggles. It was a horrible birthday! (crying icon)

Thursday, March 14, 2002

Dear Mr BiGgLeS

Today was a lot better than yesterday. It couldnt have been worse! Brandy is still gone I dont know
what shes doing and Daddy says he doesnt care hes given up on her. I feel bad cuz I kind of wanted
her to leave but not like this.

Anyway I had no school today I dont remember why I think its some teacher thing. Mommy took me
and Becky to the mall to get my ears pierced! I havent been to the mall in like forever and I couldnt
get my ears pierced before I was 14 I dont know why Daddy said I had to wait I mean some girls get
theres pierced when there babies! Really I didnt care that much but its like I wanted them just cuz I
couldnt get them before and of course I wanted to wear the earrings <3 Jules <3 gave me but Ill tell u
about that later. Becky has like four piercings in each ear plus her bellybutton and she has a
pentagram tatoo high up on her leg. She cant wear all the earrings at school but I dont think they
even know about her bellybutton except in PE! lol Oh her folks know about the tatoo now she got in
trouble but that was a long time ago. She wanted to get her nose pierced but she cant during school.

I was a little nervous about the piercing but Becky said its no big deal in ur ear until u get to the
cartlidge (how do u spell that) and they dont get there until ur getting ur third or fourth. Anyway first
they ask where u want it. After u tell them then they put a little dot where the hole is going to go. Then
they put this thing called a gun over ur earlobe only its not really like a gun its kind of like a stapler.
And then they put the earring in. It didnt really hurt it was just like a pinch. And then they did the other
one to match and thats it!

I wanted to put the earrings Jules gave me in but u have to wait cuz if u take the earrings out too early
the holes will close back up. U also have to clean ur ears and use this stuff and make sure it doesnt
get infected. Becky said some of hers did and there was pus coming out! :s I hope that doesnt
happen!

Oh of course I spent some money! Becky was trying to talk me into buying sexy stuff for Jules and I
had to keep saying shut up or my Mom will hear u! That silly girl will get me in trouble! lol So
everywhere we go shes holding up a real skimpy bikini or sheer thong panties or showing me sheer
teddies and saying "sexy!" It was funny and even Mommy was laughing which was good cuz she was
really mad yesterday.

I looked at swimsuits but didnt buy one. I got a long black skirt cuz I needed one and they were on
sale. I dont know why I got black cuz we have to wear that at school all the time but black will go with
almost anything. I also got a new pair of sandals cuz my old ones are worn out. And if u must know I
also got some panties but not the ones Becky was trying to get me to buy! lol She wears stuff like that
but I dont I guess Im chicken. Becky and Mommy did some shopping too of course.

I wanted to see Return to Neverland which has been out like FOREVER but we had to finish cuz we
had to plan the slumber party. Mommy dropped me off at Beckys house and Linda came over too and
Beth is here of course so we came up with some cool stuff. Beckys not in here right now or shed be
messing up my typing! lol Oh even Kevin had an idea we might use but Ill tell u about that tomorrow!
We got to go to our coven meeting! :)

later

We had our coven meeting which was nice. Everybody was here except Lilitha who said she was sorry
but she couldnt make it cuz she has a hard time making it on Thursdays. Mortisa said why dont we
have it on the same day of the week I think she asked that before but Aunt Eva said a lot of covens do
that but power is tied to the cycles of the moon and not manmade day names.

And they had a little party for Becky and my birthday! And they even gave me a necklace its got a
pentagram with a cross in the middle cuz they know I go to church too. It was so sweet! We gave
Becky a pentagram necklace without a cross cuz she doesnt go to church. Of course I already knew
about hers but I didnt write it cuz she reads this and I can keep a secret! lol