Lorien Loveshade's Secret Teen Diary January 9 to 17 2002

Wednesday, January 9, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

My life is insane! First I ask Jules about us going on a real date and he says well have to wait until our
parents give permission which means Ill be having to sneak around until Im 16! So I decide Im going to
talk to Daddy but Mommy gets a phone call before he gets home and then shes furious throwing
things and Im like whats wrong and she says your father is throwing all our money away and I got no
idea what shes talking about. So then when Daddy gets home then shes all mad and says hes not
working Wednesdays hes playing poker and one of his a**hole buddies called about the game. And
Daddys like dont be mad it was only once or twice and she screams youve been gone every
Wednesday night for months.

So Im feeling upset cuz I know Mommy gets upset all the time but this time Daddy got mad too and
was yelling at Mommy. I mean Daddy never yells so I felt scared! So I go to my room. Then Brandy
comes home and I tell her what happened and she gives me no sympathy but just says "thats why Im
moving out on my 18th birthday." I dont want to have to deal with all this myself! Bennys not here and
if Brandys gone then Ill have to take care of my little baby sister or brother all by myself and I dont
even know how to change diapers or give them a bottle or anything! Brandy has another little sister
so she knows that stuff but I dont. And Daddy leaves and I dont know whats going on! Ok so Im a cry
baby so shoot me!

Thursday, January 10, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

Mommy and Daddy arent hardly talking to each other! God I hope they arent going to get divorced! I
mean Mommys pregnant and everything! I think theyre mad cuz they have to spend so much money
on me to raise me. But its not fair cuz I dont spend hardly any money I mostly just window shop I
hardly buy anything but I know theres food and clothes and room and board.

I talked to Becky her parents will like never divorce she said they almost never argue and when they
do they talk about it and dont yell and scream. I wish my rents were like that but Mommy is always
yelling about something but Daddy never yells except when hes really really mad. Becky says dont
worry your parents fight all the time its no big deal I guess shes right. I just dont know.

We had tutoring in Math, me and Jules and Samuru and Colleen. Dale is really cool hes such a good
tutor he helps me a lot. I think Colleen has a crush on him shed kill me if she read this! j/k I think Jules
is getting better in Math hes real smart he just doesnt like Math. Hes smarter than me.

Friday, January 11, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

Denise and Nolan are moving out here this weekend! I was flower girl at their wedding when I was a
little girl. Denise is Aunt Glorias daughter. They got three kids Darby is 7, Cari is 5 and Gracie is 2.
Were going to help them move. Denise is pregnant too just like Mommy so that might be good cuz
shell have somebody to talk to.

Oh Mommy and Daddy arent fighting like they were thank Goddess.

Saturday, January 12, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

Ok I was wrong just Nolan came out then the rest are coming out later. He didnt want to leave but he
needs a job and Daddy is having him be a plumbing apprentice so hes like a plumbers helper. He
brought some stuff in a trailer that we put in storage. It made me real tired moving all that stuff!
Brandy didnt help much and Benny wasnt here so it was Nolan, Daddy, Dan and me. Mommy did
some things in the house but she cant lift much cuz shes pregnant.

Nolan was real sweet I was going to let him sleep in Bennys room but he said he didnt want to kick me
out of my room so he said hed sleep on the couch. Hes just going to be here a couple days until he
can get a house and get it ready for his family. Im real glad there coming out I havent seen them much.

Sunday, January 13, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

I couldnt go to church today and I miss Jules! I called and just said I couldnt go and they said they
would miss me. So then I ask to talk to Jules but of course he couldnt say much. Oh Deacon Mike said
they might have me stay over next weekend they might be going somewhere so I could babysit again.
That could be really cool!

I talked to Denise on the phone and said hi to Darby, Ginna and Angela. Oh Darby is 6 not 7. His
birthday is in March same month as mine. I learned Nolan knows lots about computers I didnt know
that or we could have emailed. But now I can email Denise.

We had a small ceremony tonight. Lilithia wasnt there she was sick but Aunt Eva gave her something
to make her feel better. After we talked about a new member we might be getting but I havent met him
yet. We may get together with our sister coven thats what they did when they were looking at me and
Becky as members although they already all knew Becky. We might do that the next full moon so it
would be an open ceremony.

Oh guess what my period started today which is so weird cuz its a new moon again.

Monday, January 14, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

Im going to spend the night at Jules house this weekend! And this time Jules will be there! I cant
believe Deacon Mike is letting me do it but Jules and I have to be real careful!

Nolan went to work with Daddy today. I think he liked it.

Becky has this crazy idea. Shes been saying she wants to model online so she can make lots of
money and have ppl send her clothes. Somebody already sent her stuff but I said thats cuz shes
friends with them. I mean Becky is pretty shes prettier than me but u have to have an agent for that.
She says she wants to make up a name and a character so it sounds glamorous. Thats Becky!

Tuesday, January 15, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

If u think just girls talk on the phone a lot ur wrong! Its like Nolan calls Denise all the time! Its so sweet.
They met when they were like babies and theyve always been together they married right after their
graduation so its kind of sad. He can email but I guess he likes to call better. I hope Denise and the
kids can move out real soon. I wish I could call Jules a lot but I cant. :( At least I see him at school.

Mommy says shes going to get an ultrasound to see what sex her baby is but Daddy doesnt want her
to. He doesnt believe in abortions neither so he says why have an ultrasound?

Wednesday, January 16, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

Aunt Eva wants me and Becky to stay with her one day this weekend and shell teach us stuff! It would
be so cool but Im already spending Saturday night at Jules house cuz Im babysitting then going to
church and Daddy doesnt let me spend the night two times in one week. I hope he will cuz its a three
day weekend but Im afraid to ask.

Mommy was real mad cuz he was leaving again tonight and she learned hes not working hes playing
poker. And he took Nolan with him. I hate when she gets that way it doesnt bother me too much cuz
she yells all the time but I still dont like it. It wasnt as bad as last time.

Thursday, January 17, 2002

Dear Mr Biggles

This is awful! First Jules tells me somebody told him Im a witch! And I like dont know what to say so I
just say nothing and look STOOPID. Then he says he knows its not true cuz if I was a witch I wouldnt
be going to church with him and anyway I would tell him cuz hes my bf. And I just couldnt say anything!
What am I going to do?

So Im thinking I HAVE to talk to Aunt Eva. So I ask Daddy if I can stay at her house Friday and he says
arent you staying Saturday when ur babysitting? And I say yes but thats work plus its a three day
weekend and he says its still two nights in one week and I cant do that. And then Daddy turns on the
news and I know thats the end of discussion. So of course I want to stay at Jules but I got to see Aunt
Eva!

later

Ok I called and I can go to Aunt Evas on Saturday during the day and then ride back with Becky. She
says dont panic things can work out but Im like how? I guess Aunt Eva knows how but I dont.

Ok also Nolan talked to Lenny at the poker game last night. Hes the one who got his stomach hurt in
the accident. Nolan is going to stay at a house Lenny has and doesnt have to pay rent if he fixes it up.
I think he has to pay for water and electricity but nothing else. And then Nolan can get Denise and his
family out here and they can live in the house. I think it was my Daddys idea and maybe it was already
planned I dont know.

But what am I going to do about Jules?

later

Mommy got the ultrasound! Im going to have a baby brother!